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I wish... but wishes don't get you anywhere. My life is full of unfullfilled wishes. I can't help hoping, longing, wishing....
I wish that Tess had never came.
Maybe that's not fair, but we didn't have trouble like this before she came. No talk about destiny. We were happy the way we were. Yes, even me. I was happy. Not anymore.
I wish Iz and I had never had those dreams.
Those dreams were so... digusting. Me and Isabel? I don't think so. And then when she thought she was pregant... That was horrible. I mean, I would love to have a little person who looked up to me, and loved me, but not yet. Not yet, and not with Isabel.
I wish I hadn't killed Pierce.
I killed someone. I can't seem to get past that. Max heals, I kill. Is that how it's supposed to be? I've never been that angry at anyone, not even Hank, but that's no excuse. I just snapped, and lost control. I can't let that happen again.
I wish I hadn't broken up with Maria.
No, that's not true. I wish I hadn't had to break up with Maria.
I wish I wasn't dangerous.
If I knew I wouldn't hurt Maria, I could have her back. If I knew I wouldn't hurt her, I'd love her forever.
"Maybe because I love you too much."
Did I really say that? She's affected me more than I thought. I never even admitted it to myself. I didn't think I could love anybody. But I did, and I do. And I will. No matter what happened in a previous lifetime, I love Maria. Nothing can change that. More than anything...
I wish I could be with Maria.
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