"Maybe because I love you too much."
I have to cling to those words. If not, I don't think I'll survive. I wish I had told him, too, but it happened so fast. Maybe it's better that I didn't say it. It would have only made it harder for him.
Michael doesn't want to hurt me. I never thought he would look out for anyone but himself. I don't think he would ever hurt me. He may not have complete control over his powers, but he would never hurt somebody he cared about. In all these years he never hurt Max or Isabel, and he's never hurt me, not even when he was angry.
He and Isabel are betrothed. Surpisingly, it doesn't bother me as much as I thought it would. I was half expecting it. The dreams had to signify something. It was in another lifetime. Do betrothels carry over to a new life time? I *do* know that betrothels can be broken. Michael loves Isabel as a sister, nothing more, nothing less. Did he ever love her in that other lifetime? The second-in-command and the leader's sister. That seems a little too convientient for me. If they were true soulmates, it would carry over, even into a different lifetime.
I don't know why I'm not devastated. Maybe because I understand. I wouldn't want anything to happen to Michael. That's why I left the note for the others when Michael went to meet Topolosky.
This isn't forever. I know that. It can't be forever, because Micheal and I *do* have the "stare-in-my-eyes-soulmate" thing going on, even if we don't like to admit it. I'll wait for him. I'll for him for as long as it takes. I love him.