Title: The Invisible Man
Author: Kata
Disclaimer: Roswell isn't mine; the song isn't mine; the computer isn't mine; the house isn't mine... gee, I don't own much, do I?
Summary: Companion piece to "You Don't Know." Kyle's POV. The song is "Invisible Man," by 98 Degrees.

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Last year, I would have given anything to know Liz's secret. This year I would give anything, NOT to know it. Well, no, not anything. I wouldn't give up Tess. Even though she barely notices me.

You can hardly
wait to tell your friends
How his kisses taste sweet like wine
And how he always
makes your heart skip a beat
Everytime he walks by
And if you're feeling down
He'll pick you up

She loves Max. Everyone knows that. Even Mrs. Boone, the math sub, know that. She's destined for him. I have no part in her future or her past. Ugh! I can't believe I'm going on like this. I'm a jock. Jocks are tough, unyielding. They don't fall in love. Especially with girls who live in their bedrooms! Oh, who am I fooling? I'm not a typical jock. I never have been.

He'll hold you close when
you're making love
He's everything
You've been dreaming of
Oh baby

I've never held a real place in the group. I guess Tess never has either, and maybe that's why I feel so connected to her; neither one of us belong. I don't belong with Liz; she doesn't belong with Max. Nasedo didn't want her; my mother didn't want her. Rejects should stick together, right? I'm not a reject with Tess, though. After all, I'm her "favorite human."

I wish you'd look at me that way
You're beautiful eyes
lookin' deep into mine
Tellin' me more than
any words can say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby to you, all I am
Is the invisible man

Favorite human or not, I'll always be second best for Tess. She loves Max. When he's around, it's as if she's this whole different person. They lived a whole life together! How can I ever compete with that? Tess has always been able to throw me aside when Max needs her. If he's in the room, it's like I'm not even there. I guess Max Evans really does have everything. He has the only two girls I've ever loved, and he doesn't even want them.

You probably spend
hours on the phone
Talkin' bout nothing' at all
It doesn't matter
What the conversation
Just as long as he called
Lost in a love so real
And so sincere
You wipe away each other's tears
Your face lights up
Whenever he appears

I could never compete with Max. I'm not even the same species as Tess. She's used me, and I've let her. There's been a couple of times when she almost seems to like me, maybe even to love me, but stupid Max Evans always gets in the way! Maybe what I really hate about Max is his lack of action. If he wants Tess, than he should do something about it. If Tess looked at me the way she looks at him, she's be in my arms in two seconds flat.

I see you all the time baby
The way you look at him
I wish it were me, sweetheart
Boy I wish it were me
But I guess it'll never be

I don't know why I can't give up on Tess. I stopped loving Liz a long time ago, but Tess is something different. I can't get her out of my mind. Her hair that always ends up everywhere, her smile that could light up a galaxy... but I guess I'll never have that. Not really. Not as anything more than a brother.

I wish you'd look at me that way
You beautiful eyes
Lookin' deep into mine
Tellin' me more than
any words could say
but you don't even know I'm alive
Baby to you, all I am
is the invisible man

I'm not asking to be first place in her heart; Max will always have that honor. All I want is a little piece of her love that is all my own. Is a little happiness to much to ask for? One way or another, Tess Harding has changed my life forever. She's the only girl for me, and if I can't have her, well then, I guess I'll have to learn to be alone, won't I?

End

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