You sit smug next to her
but she's sitting next to him and he
I grabbed for him desperately, gratefully
when he became smarter than
and the others I know
but I tried too hard to distance myself...
why do you still have this power over me?
why do I still beg you to watch that game
to come to that concert
will you watch me sing,
throw me a three dollar bill and
a plastic rose?
are you going to soothe my wounds
with Vitamin E and bullshit?
I watch you stride through my bedroom door
like a god leaving his own temple
forgive me father for I have sinned
10 December 2000