it's official...
life sux!!! you know how everyone says that change is good sometimes? yea well...SOMETIMES is the word that should be stressed in that saying! the reason this just pisses me off is becuz... in 5th grade i moved...in 6th grade i went to cherry creek academy.
in 7th grade i had to go to century middle school. for 8th grade i'll have to go to rocky top middle. and my freshman year of highschool i'll have to go to horizon high. then when i'm in 10th grade i'll go to the new high school and my mom told me that becuz we are out of boundary for the new high school i can only be there for one year then i'll have to go back to horizon or go to legacy! by the way...i also have a new life philosophy... life screws you over and bites you in the ass!

escape
wut is escaing? is it jsut the obvious? you know...getting away from people for a while? you know wut i think it is? not getting away physically...its getting away mentally...it's when you really don't feel anything...stuff happends around to and to you but you really don't care you know? that's how i wanna feel. i just want to escape from everything. is that too much to ask?

wtf
idk wtf to say to the rest of the world

the strangest...
latly people allways ask "how are you?" you know wut i reply? i say "idk" it's the truth..idk how i feel about everything becuz i guess i just think that everything going on right now is just too screwed up to even think about. it's like i feel nothing right now...not happyness or saddness or maddness. i'm nothing. i just sit here and take wut is to come my way. why you ask? becuz i've never had the guts to stand up against anyone for want i think. and i know...that's one crappy personallity trate. but idc wut you all think of me. and idc if this blog make no god-damn sence wut-so-ever. i guess there is some news...(idk weather it's bad or good) but i'm starting to take the things people fire and me and launch right back at them! so if your planing to say something be carefull i might lash out at you. i guess you could say this is good news on one half...becuz i'm begining to stand up fo myself a little more. and you could say this is bad news on the other half...cuz you might get hurt. but then again...i really don't care now do i? i don't even know wtf i was even trying to say in this blog.

song/poem
I'm not quite sure,
you know how i feel.
You lured my heart,
into the state it's in.

I'm lost between the thoughts,
of starting over,
or walking out.
How am i to deside?

it's just you that,
got hurt,
not true!

MY heart is broken,
to this very moment.
You don't remember me and,
you don't knowwhat i ment!
it's hard explaining.
it's hard relating.
you don't know,
how i feel.
you don't know,
what i mean.
you don't know,
wut i want.
AND I CAN"T HELP IT NOW!

when friends betray,
so you know wut i say.
i'm sorry,
but i can't fix it now.

MY eyes are blurd,
snagging on what could have been.
this downward spiral is,
gonna end with a thud.
and my silhouette grasps the,
frozen fragments of our friendship now.

MY heart is broken,
to this very moment.
You don't remember me and,
you don't knowwhat i ment!
it's hard explaining.
it's hard relating.
you don't know,
how i feel.
you don't know,
what i mean.
you don't know,
wut i want.
AND I CAN"T HELP IT NOW!

-Anonymous

MARRON5!!!! 'THE SUN' (it's a great song!!!)
After school, walkin home
Fresh dirt under my fingernails and
I can smell hot asphalt
Cars screech to a halt to let me pass

And I cannot remember
What life was like through photographs
And trying to recreate
Images life gives us from the past
And sometimes its a sad song
But I

Cannot forget, refuse to regret
So glad I met you and
Take my breath away
Make everyday
With all of the pain that I've gone through
And mama, I've been cryin
Cause things ain't how they used to be
She said, the battles almost won
And we're only several miles from the sun

And I'm movin on, down my street
I see people I wont ever meet
I think of her, take a breath
Feel the beat in the rhythm of my steps
And sometimes its a sad song, ohh
But I

Cannot forget, refuse to regret
So glad I met you and
Take my breath away,
Make everyday
With all of the pain that I've gone through
And mama, I've been cryin
Cause things ain't how they used to be
She said, the battles almost won
And we're only several miles from the sun

Rhythm of the converstaion
The perfection of her creation
The sex she slipped into my coffee
They way she felt when she first saw me
Hate to love and love to hate her
Like a broken reccord player
Back and forth and here and gone
and on and on and on and on!

I cannot forget, refuse to regret
So glad I met you and
Take my breath away, l
Make everyday
With all of the pain that I've gone through
And mama, I've been cryin
Cause things ain't how they used to be
She said, the battles almost won
And we're only several miles
Said, the battles almost won
And we're only several miles from the sun

yeaaaah, ohh
miles from the sun ohh
yeah yeah
oohh
yeah

sum shit goin on....
Min guttvenn får litt galt! jeg gjør ikke en gang vet om jeg har de samme følelseene for ham men jeg forteller ham ikke at fordi han får forstyrrelse.

i have one thing to say to this world....
MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

stuff to say...
i just have some stuff to say to some people i know and i've i say something to you don't post a comment cuz i don't wanna hear it!

mom>>
hi there! i just wanted to ask...how was your day? and WUT THE HELL BIT YOU IN THE BUTT? JUST GO AND BLAME ME ON EVERYTHING THAT GOES WRONG IN YOUR LIFE AND IF I EVEN SO MUCH AS TRY TO STAND UP FOR SOMETHING IN MY LIFE THAT I BELIVE IN YOU JUST KNOCK ME RIGHT ON MY ROSEY WHITE ASS! WELL I'M SICK OF IT! I'M SICK OF YOU! I CAN'T BELIVE THAT I HAVE LET YOU PUSH ME AROUND FOR ASS LONG AS YOU HAVE! GOD ALL I ASK FOR FROM YOU IS A LITTLE HELP WITH THE SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE AND YOU TELL ME TO FIGURE IT OUT OF MY OWN...FOR GODS SAKE! I'M YOUR KID! ARN'T YOU SUPOSE TO HELP ME OUT EVERY NOW AND THEN? AND THE WHOLE TONY FACTOR....THAT JUST PISSED ME RIGHT OFF WHEN YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU DIDN'T WANT ME TO GOOF WITH HIM (OR SOME OTHER BOY) AND HAVE SEX! fyi I'M 13 FRICKIN YEARS OLD!!!!! I'M NOT GONNA DO THE SAME THING THAT YOU DID OK? I'M NOT!

dad>>
hi i'm sure you are a kool guy really...(for those of you reading that know me...THIS IS NOT SARCASM!)
but i don't know you. i wish i did but i don't and it hurts me real bad! it's not like you and mom are devored or anything right? well i don't know you! you are to busy with sitting and watching tv or golfing or working and you have no time for me. i luv the few moments it takes for you to drive me to dance every monday night. even tho all we do is listen to the radio. i wanna know you.

chelsea>>
quit freakin calling me! i'm sick of it! espesially when you do it just to piss me off when i'm on the phone with tony or someone. yea i know you wanna tlak to me and i wanna tlak to you to but this is really getting on my nerves! no don't get me wrong...i care about you but sometimes stuff is just too much ok? and no matter wut anyone says...i still blame myself for wut you and megan did even if megan only did it once and you 240928750349825709384702893475039847502897340298730498720893470289347098237408273409872039487029837402987340589720348975209384750289740529873405892734089725034985702983475093465092868973465987346596872098708765298765982375692837456982374659823745692837465928374569283746578698723460237845603760781608713690137460348756394872653497860371308562394857619348756198374659283745698 times ...i still blame myself! and just to let you know...it pisses me off when you mumble sumthing and them not tell me wut you said when megan did the same thing and you yell at her!

megan>>
hi...god...i havn't talked to you in a while...um...i don't even know wut to say.

andy>>
i luv you! you are the bestest big buba eva!!!! the summer we moved you were the only person i tlaked to. and you and i really did bond. and now with us threw our 1st school year in this new hell you and i are still tight! if i ever lost you i don't know wut i would do.

tony>>
hey sexy! lol i luv you!!!

alesha>>
you are a lie! your hole life is a god damn lie!

dylan>>
BUTTWIRE!!!! lmffao!!!

questions
when does it all go away?
who can you turn to?
when the world's falling right in your way?
why does it all taunt me?

when do people deside something might be wrong?
i can tell you this...
it's a damn long long
time.

time is wut it's all about huh?
people don't have enough time.
or time just flys right away?
witch is it?

i think it's both.