[Friday, 14 May 2004]

do you ever feel like your just hollow? like theres nothing there, and you find out it is and it makes you worse and better at the same time? like everything points you in one direction, and you know its right...but it hurts so much. like your haveing sex with the antichrist to save his soul. like your hurting yourself for god's little plan....and he doesnt even care. who knows? maybe im just crazy...

[Monday, 17 May 2004]

sometimes when it seems the possibilities are endless you realize that some option you cannot, some options you will not, and the options that are open to you will only come at a compromise. when the future truly goes as you want it the truth comes out and all is lost, but the pain never goes away...and neither does she. while this might make you wonder whether this is truly what you want, if you change it, something worse might happen...but hopefully something better will

more times than you can count the pain has revived itself again and again, if you want to follow the system stay on the route. if you want follow the angel...you know who to follow. the kid doesnt realize everything he thinks he does, explain to him that to want is not to have, to have is not to own, and to own is to be responsible for.

[Monday, 17 May 2004]

imagine sweeps

breathlessness falls

the darkness sweeps

and the kingdom will fall

the time is near

so all have much fear

except the bueatiful soldire and the mechanical monstrosity

eat apart the larger atrocity

[Tuesday, 18 May 2004]

im unravling inside, the future i thought is not, the pain inside had gone numb, now it is released and the menegerie of fools now understand the esctaticy of the garden. the way i fall is the way that i dont know. the purpose at hand is spinning though my mind. a kaleoscope of uncertaintity winds around me in a horrible nausous twirl. save me from the wrong path.

the fall is near, when the blond soldier, and the bueatiful one enter the common sphere, the wench will eat the black orb and the white orb will be consumed by him, but the spirit is always there. note however that from soon near all will be standing on a needle...and the fall is hard. noxious is mistaken for antimatter, but the result is the same, just in lower intervals. never fear yourself because the only other strength that can beat you is the one you will only have to fear at that point. manderian oranges fly apparent through the darkness, but angels are invisable...while the dark can be felt.

[Wedsnday, 19 May 2004]

the fear has died, but the paranoaia remains. dont slip on the way to redemption, and never ever let yourself fall...to do so means death, but it will all start over again. eating from the red river means the carrier now has limitless possibilities as long as he realizes this, and knows how to handle himself.

[Thursday, 20 May 2004]

when the reality sets in no one understands but all understand, in a way. sometimes you can never understand fully, and a part of you wishes not. it is simply human nature. please do not fight the inevitable, to do so simply makes the fall worse, not better. pain lets what is inside to not understand, and whats the reality to take over.

exceptional comprimise leads to inner sanity. while the world falls apart, in completes in whole also. pain is just a memory, reality is just a thought, ethics is just a slander.

the twist of fates is ever twining. the gap of sores is ever widening. when the twins meet the sight divining will usher forth a sight so blinding.

the inherent weakness is found, and the angelic soul is fettered. never fear however, pain is all that tethers the noxious from the holy.

[Wedsnday,26 May 2004]

the future looms unawares the perfect soldier stares. the ache of procrastination pains me in a way that only inpatience can explain. to keep those that are drawn together apart greates a vortex that only agony will fill. many stars lie in wait.

[Tuesday,04 June 2004]

the fire messiah is apart from the dreams of malady while the serpent of faith begone is marching foreword towards a greater tomorow. many paths unite while the inclosed scripture will try to keep there company from falling apart.