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Monday, 1 November 2004
Mood:
 don't ask
Now Playing: Nelly's Over and Over
So, that Brad guy..I guess I'm dating him, and it sucks, cuz I got to see him more before we were dating than I do now. He is in town all the time, but he doesn't come and see me, the last time I saw him was..over a week ago. We spent the weekend together at a friends house. when I first saw him he had a hicki on his neck. His story was that he put syrup on a friends sandwich(a guys) and the guy sucked on his neck in pay back. My ass. but I figured I would give him the benefit of the doubt, this time anyway. He said it was given to him while he was sleeping. If someone was sucking on your neck, would you not wake up? Yea, not to mention, whomever gave it to him had to have been sucking pretty damn hard. Because I have sucked on his neck before and didn't leave a mark at all.
Anyway, college still sucks..it's a good thing I only have like 2 weeks left, cuz yea I'm getting sick of it fast, then I wont have anymore classes until next fall when I move to waterloo and join the photography program.
Thursday, 14 October 2004
Bad Week
Mood:
 blue
Now Playing: A Beautiful Letdown by Switchfoot
This week has seriously sucked. Three students from Ottumwa have died, and one more is in Iowa City in critcal condition. Pretty Much the whole town is feeling it. The first one was a thirteen year old that was badly burned in a go-carting accident last week. The other two were in a really bad car accident, the boy in IC was driving. One of the guys that past away was a good friend of mine...Rob Allen. He was awesome, and played the guitar rather well. Rob will be dearly missed.
On the other hand, I spent all day yesterday, pretty much, with a guy that I really like..Brad. I also found out yesterday that the first guy I ever loved, and still do, misses me. We never dated but I had/have very strong feelings for him. I'm not sure what to do. My life is so screwed up right now.
So, my mom and my sister left for vacation. They were on their way to vegas, and then headed down to arizona to see my new baby cousin. I wasn't allowed to go. It was my sisters "graduation present" she graduated two years ago. I'm the one that graduated this year. I am stuck at home, with my dad, and my little brother. How fun. Anyway, I get to go back to school...great.
Tuesday, 12 October 2004
Tired but Awake
Mood:
 spacey
So today, I got up and went to math, it sucked, I'm in like a little kids math class. It's things that I learned in like middle school. It sucks, later I have to go to history, my least favorite subject of them all...
Anyway, last night there was a really bad car accident, a car got ran over by a semi. There were three high school students in it. Two of them died and one is in critical condition. That's 5 high school students killed in car accidents in the last year. That's really bad.
So there is this guy, named Brad, I really like him, and I have for like 6 months I think it is. He seems to really like me to, and he has asked me out in the past but at the time I had a boyfriend, one who really treated me like shit. Brad lives in Drakesville, about a half hour from me. The last time I talked to him was about two weeks ago, the second night of our octoberfest. I have been trying and trying to find him, or a least find a phone number to call him, but it's basically impossible I guess. I can't stop thinking about him. The othere night I was hanging out with some friends and one of them told me that Brad wasn't a nice guy and how I should go out with this other guy who would treat me a lot better. Brad has never been rude or mean or anything in the time that I have known him, the only time I have seen him even get a little upset was because this same kid hit me. Needless to say, I have a short temper, and got pissed off at what was being said about Brad. I hauled off and punched him in the face, then I left.
Mitch has a girlfriend, good for him..They've been dating for awhile now, and he doesn't do much but bitch about how she over reacts aobut things that he does. She actually does, I used to hang out with Mitch everyday for several hours a day, well, he doesn't even get up till like 3 in the afternoon half the time. She didn't believe either of us that he wasn't cheating on her, she swears up and down that he is. So he has a lot of friends that are girls..so fucking what. Anyway, everytime his girlfriend feels a little insecure about their relationship, she has to call me, like I'm her god damned counselor or something. She doesn't even call me at a decent time half of the time. She will call me a 2 or 3 in the morning and seeing as I'm a nice person I answer the phone, then she wanted to nag and bitch for fuckin two hours. It's really starting to piss me off cuz I have to be up at like 6:30 every morning, that doesn't give me much sleep. Then if I don't answer the phone she gets all pissed off, like it's I did something wrong. Okay, so it wasn't the nicest thing in the world but I have to sleep once in awhile. Not to mention I don't think she even likes me at all. So why the fuck does she call me all the time? If I was to go and hang out with her and Mitch, which isn't exactly like a third wheel thing, because we are all really good friends and to me it just seems like they are more friends with benefits than boyfriend and girlfriend anyway. Anyway.. When I'm hanging out with them, she acts like she gets really pissed off when Mitch talks to me. It's really kind of stupid, but I think she gets jealous way to easy. Mitch and I are good friends and she needs to understand that. It's almost as if she doesn't want me to hang out with him because I might fuck him or something. Which really sounds like most of mitches ex girlfriends. The only one that understood that was Amber, and I don't know what happened to that situation. Maybe Mitch wants his girlfriends try to prevent him from hanging out with me. I have no clue. Actually I think that when I get some extra money I'm going to start hanging out with Amber again. She's younger than me but she is really fucking cool. Her moms name is Peaches..lol. But the only reason I don't hang out with her as often now as I did when I lived in Eldon is because I'm a poor ass college student and don't have the gas money to drive to bum fucked egypt very often. Bum fucked egypt is also known as Floris. But anyway that is enough bitching about things going on around me.
Monday, 11 October 2004
So fucking bored...
Mood:
 irritated
Now Playing: Memory by Sugarcult
This day has completely sucked, I didn't even want to get up this morning because I knew it would be a bad day. First of all, I accidently slept in and was almost late to my eight oclock class this morning, which I hate, it's college writing 1. I think my teacher is a complete ass, and I'm not the only one that thinks so. Then my three hour break between classes was spent bitching with my dad(he's on a weeks vacation from work which will suck). I went back to class at one, I had sociology, which all my teacher enjoys talking about it aliens. I left class early to avoid falling asleep, I couldn't help that it was boring. When I got home my dad took my car, so I am stuck at home. The only person I hang out with very often is my best friend Mitch, he lost his license, for a pretty fuckin funny reason, but it sucks that he is unable to drive. Mitch being my best friend, I'm not even sure if he believes that I think of him like that. Why is he my best friend? Cuz I could tell him everything,and I am comfortable hanging out with new people, as long as I'm with him, otherwise I get all shy. I used to really like Mitch, as in a boyfriend, but we ended up being to good of friends. Plus, he doesn't like me like that. He is always bitching about what he doesn't like about women, how they are nagging, and controling, the basic stereotype for most all women. I'm not like that, but he doesn't understand where I'm coming from when I tell him that when he describes what he wants in a girlfriend, he is basically describing me. Oh well, like I said, we are really good friends and I'd rather us stay that way then us go out and not work out then we have a very good chance of not being friends anymore. Yep, I love Mitch, both ways, as my best friend, and like in love with him. I also think I'm about the only girl that I know that doesn't bitch about what he does all the time.
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