HEY hey
MM! I'm back from oklahoma!!!! YAY! I lost my camera there though....ergh.so much has happened since last time i was here!!! BAILEY"S GOING TO CHS......BILLY GOT ARRESTED......MY KITTEN GOT BIGGER!!!!.....hmmm. IM GETTING A JOB!!!...so i'm going to work at the movies with my sister. She's talking to the manager today for me!! It will be soo awesome. I'll be working with rachel until she quits, so she can set me up and show me how to do things. TARA WORKS THERE!!! wahoo!! and so does tabatha and jessie... So i'm doing this because i got a speeding ticket..ergh. tis ok though...I'm gonna work my butt off to pay it so i dont have to go into court and payt a court fee.......bailey's going to chs...thats explanatory enough..mmm..oh billy got arrested. my friend billy perkins from chs got arrested on the spot at a gas station...err... I never would have thought... He's awesome, i hope he knows it'll be ok..I was in oklahoma for a youth conference...I'm officially learning to play guitar. I'm pretty good too. My friend jordan told me i catch on quicker than anyone else he knows!!!! jordan's awesome! oklahoma was so awesome. ok, we had 20 dorm rooms for 800 people. At youth america they had triple stacked bunk beds!!! we had 41 girls in my dorm, and of course...4 showers!!!! oh and they gave me a top bunk...IT WAS SOO COOL.. cept for the last day when one of the girls yelled "WASP" and she was lying right next to me on thr top bunk...we were in the dark, and couldn;t see anything. I was freaking out...it was hilarious.... going to youth american made me realize what i want to do with the rest of my life!!!!!! yay!

5:06 am?!
I am officially a night person..... I'm talking to stacey about ehr magazine, she is sooo psyched!! I hope it works out for her!. so its around 5 am and i'm sitting here eating green beans?!. I used to hate green beans! What heppened? mmm.. I watched the notebook today...pretty good movie, i cried! I watched it with stevie, who was wearing a pink sweatshirt lol. Alisha, the one who actually planned the whole thing, couldn't come :-(. tis ok, ill see ehr sometime b-4 school starts up again. Well i stayed for the late night of a ccinderella story, and i watched it with corey and tara.... it was soo awesome. I threw my shoes at the girls mom. then corey threw his shoesn, then tara!!! We were the only ones in there but still. I sometimes wonder how people turn gay.. Corey is gay, how did he realize that. did he just wake up and say, hey i'm attracted to guys, or is it just a thought... How do you turn gay..maybe its all just an out of whack superstition. you keep finding yourslef looking at butts of the same sex as you, and you think your gay, or you know? mmm I'm confused. I don't believe I could ever be attracted to a girl.I miss my friend Dustin. He ditched me for bi chics...grr. I seriously had the relationship with dustin i've always wanted with a guy, friends....it was nice, he wasn't asking more, and i wasn't yearning for it, just friends...i mean. we were more than friends, but out relationship name was never dating, or going out.....it was nice. we didn't have to explain it, it was just...yea.. mmm, but i'm not too sure if we're even friends anymore.. Ty called my cell looking for him, that gets me a little worried, but the last time he was missing, i called around looking for him, and got all worked up about it for no reason, so i'll let other people handle it. This summer is all about me trying to figure out what I want to do the rest of my life.....I love photography. I love designing. I love anything creative. I would love to setup a magazine, take pictures for it and stuff....sort of like stacey, but i don't want to copy.lol.mm ok so if i go to bed now, i will just wake up in about 2 hours, i always freaking wake up with the sun. I'm not even tired, I've had WAY too much caffeine. Ben was talking to me about him going off to college. It makes me sad. We talked about me taking a road trip. I would do it in a heart beat! I love driving, and adventure, just i'm not too sure my parents would flow for it.....I really can't wait until Youth america....I'm feeling sort of low lately and last year, I came back home sooo happy!!! ok well i'm going to help stacy, or sleep...i dunno *muah*

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I know i should be tired...I only got 4 hours of sleep last night, but somehow i'm still wide awake....i drove thirty minutes to talk to frecou about nocca, and all that business, and all he did was sit there and tell me i was making the wrong decision. "if i were in your shoes, i wouldn;t be making that decision , kelly" errrr..oh also the "well if you quit nocca you can't run back to me and expect to be in wind ensemble" mr frecou, I wouldn;t run to you if my life depended on it. The year i have known you, you've discouraged me more than anyone I have ever known!! well cleaning up my room today i realized, If I was a little more careful, or took a little more time when trying on all the outfits i do a a day, and put them back in the closet, I might not have to spend entire days doing that shit. I think i'm sort of waiting for dustin to call...I'm not too sure why, he;s sort of a bum....not as in how he dresses or anything, but he bummed stuff off of me every chance he got.I really want some coffee right about now...Maybe i'm addicted to caffeine.. Did you knwo that if your addicted to caffeine you get extremely bad headaches when you dont have any.. I think i'm addicted to new jeans...If i dont have new jeans in a long period of time, I get these real bad headaches...im joking but can you have an addiction to everything...wow the world is really fucked up lately....who wants to get married to their own gender and rely on machines for their sexual pleasure the rest of their life....I dont understand... Youth america is coming up....when my dad drops me off, they are having a family meeting. My church has never met my family, and my mom wont even be in town then....mm..I know my sister wont go!! ergh, im a little worried . ok well im out

3:28 am....my thinking time
so i'm kelly and it's 3:28 am. im pretty tired so i just may be delerious, disregard what i say if if sounds delerious. I sometimes think that guys are much easier to be friends with,than girls, in life. This may be because they can't really tell when you are hiding something from them, or when something really is wrong. Your girlfriends are closer to you because they are more like you. They know when you are keeping something from them, and as i've found; when a girl knows something is just not right, she will find out what that "just" is. Guys may just be too lazy to do that sort of thing, or they are too lazy to realize, somethings up. I once thought that it was best for me to be friends with all guys, have no relationships with them, no dating that is, and have no close girlfriends. Is this a bad choice for someone who doesn't like to reveal themselves?? I'm not too sure what you think, but i find there are definite benefits to a girlfriend. Don't take girlfriend as lesbian language, i'm completely straight!! For one, my best friend is one of the most amazing friends in the world. Although we don't get to spend time together she is great. The others are just people i socialize with, they don't really know me. Is it also true that guys disregard hearing what they don't want to hear. Or do they just forget it . hm. maybe i should try that one the next time i'm upset about losing something important. Did you know carb freedom yogurt, is not carb free. thats sort of like guys. The one's that say, "i'm different from all the other guys" are no different, just because they said that. Don't believe this lie, i think it's a line used when a guy already knows a woman, but wants something else out of it. you know the lines to pick up a girl.....are there different degrees of pick-up lines that guys use? I guess the first one would be something like " i lost my number, could i have yours" then, if the guy is lucky(or very cute), the girl will talk to the guy....too bad for the guy, he'll need more lines to get through the relationship.Lines like "i'm not like the rest of the guys" and then next, after he gets something "how could I not call you"...then after a month or two, the girl runs into the guy, arm in arm with her cousin, as he lets go he says another and final line " hey beautiful, i lost your number" Is it true that your relationships will be based on how they first began?? Is it true if a guy lies about his age, he's most likely lying about other things? I'll leave you to figure that one out, i'm just saying, guys lie.......but so do women.

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dude, i made a blog....what is a blog anyways...hmm.. now lets see. i want to make a web page next yay!