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I know i should be tired...I only got 4 hours of sleep last night, but somehow i'm still wide awake....i drove thirty minutes to talk to frecou about nocca, and all that business, and all he did was sit there and tell me i was making the wrong decision. "if i were in your shoes, i wouldn;t be making that decision , kelly" errrr..oh also the "well if you quit nocca you can't run back to me and expect to be in wind ensemble" mr frecou, I wouldn;t run to you if my life depended on it. The year i have known you, you've discouraged me more than anyone I have ever known!! well cleaning up my room today i realized, If I was a little more careful, or took a little more time when trying on all the outfits i do a a day, and put them back in the closet, I might not have to spend entire days doing that shit. I think i'm sort of waiting for dustin to call...I'm not too sure why, he;s sort of a bum....not as in how he dresses or anything, but he bummed stuff off of me every chance he got.I really want some coffee right about now...Maybe i'm addicted to caffeine.. Did you knwo that if your addicted to caffeine you get extremely bad headaches when you dont have any.. I think i'm addicted to new jeans...If i dont have new jeans in a long period of time, I get these real bad headaches...im joking but can you have an addiction to everything...wow the world is really fucked up lately....who wants to get married to their own gender and rely on machines for their sexual pleasure the rest of their life....I dont understand... Youth america is coming up....when my dad drops me off, they are having a family meeting. My church has never met my family, and my mom wont even be in town then....mm..I know my sister wont go!! ergh, im a little worried . ok well im out

3:28 am....my thinking time
so i'm kelly and it's 3:28 am. im pretty tired so i just may be delerious, disregard what i say if if sounds delerious. I sometimes think that guys are much easier to be friends with,than girls, in life. This may be because they can't really tell when you are hiding something from them, or when something really is wrong. Your girlfriends are closer to you because they are more like you. They know when you are keeping something from them, and as i've found; when a girl knows something is just not right, she will find out what that "just" is. Guys may just be too lazy to do that sort of thing, or they are too lazy to realize, somethings up. I once thought that it was best for me to be friends with all guys, have no relationships with them, no dating that is, and have no close girlfriends. Is this a bad choice for someone who doesn't like to reveal themselves?? I'm not too sure what you think, but i find there are definite benefits to a girlfriend. Don't take girlfriend as lesbian language, i'm completely straight!! For one, my best friend is one of the most amazing friends in the world. Although we don't get to spend time together she is great. The others are just people i socialize with, they don't really know me. Is it also true that guys disregard hearing what they don't want to hear. Or do they just forget it . hm. maybe i should try that one the next time i'm upset about losing something important. Did you know carb freedom yogurt, is not carb free. thats sort of like guys. The one's that say, "i'm different from all the other guys" are no different, just because they said that. Don't believe this lie, i think it's a line used when a guy already knows a woman, but wants something else out of it. you know the lines to pick up a girl.....are there different degrees of pick-up lines that guys use? I guess the first one would be something like " i lost my number, could i have yours" then, if the guy is lucky(or very cute), the girl will talk to the guy....too bad for the guy, he'll need more lines to get through the relationship.Lines like "i'm not like the rest of the guys" and then next, after he gets something "how could I not call you"...then after a month or two, the girl runs into the guy, arm in arm with her cousin, as he lets go he says another and final line " hey beautiful, i lost your number" Is it true that your relationships will be based on how they first began?? Is it true if a guy lies about his age, he's most likely lying about other things? I'll leave you to figure that one out, i'm just saying, guys lie.......but so do women.

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dude, i made a blog....what is a blog anyways...hmm.. now lets see. i want to make a web page next yay!