I am officially a night person..... I'm talking to stacey about ehr magazine, she is sooo psyched!! I hope it works out for her!. so its around 5 am and i'm sitting here eating green beans?!. I used to hate green beans! What heppened? mmm.. I watched the notebook today...pretty good movie, i cried! I watched it with stevie, who was wearing a pink sweatshirt lol. Alisha, the one who actually planned the whole thing, couldn't come :-(. tis ok, ill see ehr sometime b-4 school starts up again. Well i stayed for the late night of a ccinderella story, and i watched it with corey and tara.... it was soo awesome. I threw my shoes at the girls mom. then corey threw his shoesn, then tara!!! We were the only ones in there but still. I sometimes wonder how people turn gay.. Corey is gay, how did he realize that. did he just wake up and say, hey i'm attracted to guys, or is it just a thought... How do you turn gay..maybe its all just an out of whack superstition. you keep finding yourslef looking at butts of the same sex as you, and you think your gay, or you know? mmm I'm confused. I don't believe I could ever be attracted to a girl.I miss my friend Dustin. He ditched me for bi chics...grr. I seriously had the relationship with dustin i've always wanted with a guy, friends....it was nice, he wasn't asking more, and i wasn't yearning for it, just friends...i mean. we were more than friends, but out relationship name was never dating, or going out.....it was nice. we didn't have to explain it, it was just...yea.. mmm, but i'm not too sure if we're even friends anymore.. Ty called my cell looking for him, that gets me a little worried, but the last time he was missing, i called around looking for him, and got all worked up about it for no reason, so i'll let other people handle it. This summer is all about me trying to figure out what I want to do the rest of my life.....I love photography. I love designing. I love anything creative. I would love to setup a magazine, take pictures for it and stuff....sort of like stacey, but i don't want to copy.lol.mm ok so if i go to bed now, i will just wake up in about 2 hours, i always freaking wake up with the sun. I'm not even tired, I've had WAY too much caffeine. Ben was talking to me about him going off to college. It makes me sad. We talked about me taking a road trip. I would do it in a heart beat! I love driving, and adventure, just i'm not too sure my parents would flow for it.....I really can't wait until Youth america....I'm feeling sort of low lately and last year, I came back home sooo happy!!! ok well i'm going to help stacy, or sleep...i dunno *muah*