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Summary: Buffy talks to Angel about him and Cordelia and he and she and she
makes a decision. Wolfman and Hart capture her and she comes back, after a
year.....but a little different!!!!! MUST READ!!!!!!!
"Spoilers: Well, Cordy and angel are an "item" , Conner is in
the picture and I guess Spike and Buffy aren't an issue!!!!
*Flashback* ~2002
"You love her?" She asked, staring up at him from being folded in his
arms and taking her head from his chest.
"I love you." He said simply.
"I can see it in your eyes, Angel. You do, even you don’t admit it. What
are we going to do?"
"God, I don't know. After you, I never thought I could feel anything
resembling what we had. But Cordy, she's been here for me when I was at my
lowest. She saw the good in me, when I didn't. I love her, yes." He said staring off blankly.
"Then I won't make you choose. I'm choosing for you." She said,
stepping out of his embrace.
"I don't know if I can let you go, Buffy." He whispered, brokenly.
She smiled at him.
"I love you, my angel. I always have, always will. What we have is... pure
and untouchable and beautiful because it's complicated and rare and true. I
won't make it cheap by looking into those eyes forever knowing that a piece of
you doesn’t belong to me. We will meet again, Angel. And it will be perfect.
Pure. Your destiny, my destiny, is here." She finished, holding his hand
to her chest, over her heart as she mimicked the same on his chest. She stepped
to him and kissed him. In that one kiss, He was left breathless. He felt as
though she were breathing life back into him, as though his soul would be lost,
had the clause not have been removed. She pulled away, trying to walk away form
him as tears slid down her face. He reached and grabbed her. Crushed her to his
chest.
"No! NO! I choose you. I want you!" He moaned. She stepped away.
"It's in your eyes, Angel. I love you." She said, before walking out
of the door and out of his life, forever................until now.
*Present Day* 2003
"Conner, bring me my phone please!" Angel yelled up the stairs.
"Coming, coming, here. Dang, I was coming." He said, handing the
phone to his father.
"Yea, but I would have gotten it next week, waiting on you. Thank you
son." Angel, smiled, sarcastically. He started dialing the number he
dialed every other day, around this time.
"Hello, Giles, it's Angel. Any word yet?" He asked. Buffy had been
missing for a year and no one had any idea where she was. The day she had made
his decision for them, he had never seen her again. Willow, Xander and Dawn
thought it was because of what happened between the two of them, during her
visit. Only he and she knew how far it really got. They had made long, slow,
passionate love that wrapped their desires and lust of love into a big bomb,
which exploded plenty of times before they were finished. He knew that wasn't
it. He didn't tell them, but he told Giles that something else was up.
Something else because Buffy would never have left Dawn. When she left him that
day, she seemed so much more at ease with herself, so much more clearer with
her future.
"No nothing yet, you?" He asked, tiredly.
"No. Okay, I'll call you in a couple days. Bye, and take care." He
sighed, before hanging up.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Look, Gavin, she's not gonna agree to it. I say we ship her to Angel now
and if it's not done, we do the spell to make her do it. Either way, we win.
I'm a little tired of the torturing of her. She's old news now. So if she
doesn't kill Conner, the spell will make sure of it." Lilah sighed.
"Okay, seal the box extra tight. I think it's time we send Angel a little
present." He grinned.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Part 2
Cordy walked into the office with pizzas. She, Conner and Angel would have
dinner before and during looking at some cases and hopefully, heading up to
bed. She plopped the boxes down and took a seat.
"Angel, Conner, I've got pizza." She yelled through the hotel. They
walked out, laughing as Angel kissed Cordy's lips and opened the box. They
began chowing down when a chime was heard through the hotel. Four men, in suits
walked through, pushing in what seemed to be a coffin. They stopped and stared.
"A present, from Wolfman & Hart. Enjoy the homecoming!" One of
them sneered before laughing and walking away. Once out of the door, they stood
and abruptly made their way to the box.
"It's sealed tight. It won't budge." Conner said.
"I can't even smell what's in it but I have a feeling it's something
bad." Angel whispered. After hours of trying, the lid budged. The
carefully removed it before Angel gasped in horror. Buffy, lay there, unconscious
and pale and bruised. *She's dead! Oh my God she's dead!* he thought.
"Oh God, BUFFY!" He wailed, grabbing her lifeless body and pulling
her from the box. He fell back in shock with her in his arms. Cordelia watched
the act of love and her heart fell. She thought she had gotten him over her,
apparently not.
"God, baby, what did they do to you? Cordy, call Giles. Buffy, Buffy,
baby, look at me, open your eyes." He begged, kissing her brow. She
stirred slowly and she opened her eyes.
"Angel?" She asked, shocked, yet scared.
"Yes, Buffy, it's me, what happened to you? What did they do to you?"
He asked and as if he had pulled a gun on her, she scurried out of his arms and
onto the floor and away from him fast. She began shaking her head, back and
forth, mumbling something incoherently. Cordelia walked back in and Buffy
looked at her and then to Angel.
"NO!" She bellowed. "You, you did this to me. For a year, they
tortured, beat and RAPED me and all I could say was ‘My Angel will find me and
he will kill you for touching me!' My Angel. MY ANGEL!! I HATE YOU!!!!"
She spat, crying. "They said, ‘Buffy, we'll let you go, all you have to do
is say okay. Just say okay and we'll let you go. Do you know how it feels to
have some man inject you with muscle relaxer and then thrust into you, dry and
screaming?" She asked staring at Cordelia. Tears slid down Cordy's face at
her pain. "It hurts, and you bleed and you cry and no one hears you and no
one cares because your nothing. And you want to die." Angel hadn't noticed
it then, but the pain and hatred in her eyes was almost painful to stare at.
Her once shining green eyes were now hollow and dull.
"What changed? What did they want from you that you wouldn't give?"
Angel asked, choking back sobs.
"Oh, that. For me to take your sons life." She crooned. "For me
to wrap my hands around his delicate throat and squeeze because I'm one of the
only who can. I'm one of the only strong enough to do it." She smiled, as
though she were daydreaming.
"And you agreed?" Cordy asked. Buffy took steps close to Conner and
reached for him. He took her hand and stepped to her. Then, she smiled, she
hadn't smiled like her old self since the whole encounter.
"I could never agree to hurt him." She whispered, smoothing his hair.
"Let us help you." Angel pleaded through gritted teeth.
"I'm already dead, already gone. I can't be saved. For what's coming next,
save yourselves." She said before turning from them. "Oh, in 30 days,
if Conner isn't dead by my hands, a spell will be performed, one that will make
me kill him. Watch your son Angel. Watch Cordy too, while your at it." She
kept walking to the door. "Together you are strong, apart you are
dead....wait, wrong couple, ay Angel." And the door slammed behind her.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Dad? The nightmares, I've been having, it was her. They were all
her." Conner confessed, awe stricken.
"What?" Angel and Cordelia asked in shock.
"Every dream, every scream and all the torture was of her. I can feel it
and it hurts, it hurts like hell." He gasped. "She did it for me, for
you and you did nothing. You should have known that they were behind this. You
were too busy playing daddy and perfect boyfriend to HER that you let her
suffer!" He screamed with a face of utter pain.
"No, you know that's not true!" Cordelia defended.
"I'm...I'm so-sorry. I know that's not true but I can't help feeling her
despair. Her heart, it's bleeding."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Ms. Summers, are you ready to explain to me what on earth did this to
you?" The doctor asked, sitting in front of her.
"I was kidnaped, raped repeatedly and tortured; this is the outcome.
Nothing else to say doctor. Wasn't like I planned on having children one day
anyway." He said plainly, hopping off the table and walking out of the
door. She had to get home, to Dawny, before she had to do what had to be done
to keep Conner safe. Memories flooded back to her memory in no certain order
and she became dizzy. She had to grab a nearby brick wall to steady herself.
When she opened her eyes, she was staring into deep brown chocolate orbs.
"Conner? What are you doing here sweety?" She asked, taking a deep
breath.
"I want to help you get home, to your family and I think I need to talk to
you about some things."
"Okay, fair enough. Does Angel know where you are?" She asked.
"He knows enough." He smiled.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Some Hours Later
"So you dreamed of me while I was gone? OF my
torture? I'm sorry you had to be apart or that." She sighed.
"There's more. You see, the Oracles, they've been showing me, what they
really want. Why they really need you to kill me. You see, we, me and you, have
a bond."
"I know, but keep going."
"If you kill me, I will be resurrected. Well, in body, but not spirit. If
you kill me, it'll do the same to you. We'll become a force. An unstoppable
team. Evil. The worst."
"I know." She smiled. "Don't worry, I won't let anything happen
to you or the world for that matter. I know what I must do"
" I know, but you can't do that."
"I've done it twice before. Shouldn't be that hard."
~~~~~~~
. Let me save you now." He sobbed, sinking to the floor.
"Oh my angel, Buffy is gone. At least the Buffy you know. She's never
coming back." She drawled.
"Look in my eyes! What's there now? Huh? What's in my eyes, Buffy? Who's
in my eyes?"
"I won't. It will kill me to really know that it has been taken away from
me...again. Go back to Cordy, Angel. Get Conner and go back to LA and hope you
never see my face again." She whispered.
"I don't want Cordy. I want Buffy. I want you. Forever, remember, that's
the whole point." He sighed.
"If I see you when the change happens, I'll kill you. But it will kill YOU
to see what becomes of me to stop it."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
That night, she was plagued with nightmares. She
tossed and turned and Angel stood in the shadows and watched her. She looked to
be in so much pain, her hair stuck to her face in sweat and her body heaving
around the bed as though she were fighting. She saw it. She saw it all. The
chains. The bats. The drugs, the bile, the feces. The fire. Thank the heavens for
slayer healing. The worst were the lawyers and the men who worked for them.
"Pretty piece of tight ass. See if we can loosen that up, along with your
will power."
"How about a friendly fuck slayer?
"STOP! PLEASE!"
"Stop, your hurting me! Oww, please, it hurts, so bad. I won't...let you
hurt him. I won't hurt him. Don't touch me! He'll kill you for touching
me!"
"ANGEL!" she screamed as she woke. Angel sat on her window seal as
she jerked awake and panted for air.
"Your right, I will kill them. Every last fucking person in the
building." He snarled.
"Angel," she breathed, "Can you hold me, till I fall
asleep?" She cried.
He heard her. His Buffy. The one he loved, the one who loved him. He knew in
the morning that it wouldn't be remembered. That she would be cold and hard.
But he needed to feel her, to hold her, to shield the badness and the hurt
away. It was his job. He was her soul mate.
Buffy woke hours later, pressed against Angel's
marbled chest and moved away. She had to get away from him before feelings
surfaced and she was unable to do the necessary act to ensure Conner's safety,
and the worlds. She scooted out of his embrace and padded down the hall and
stairs and into the kitchen. Conner sat on the couch, in the dark, pretending
to sleep, but Buffy knew he wasn't. She made cocoa and sat next to him and
handed him one of the twin mugs.
"Couldn't sleep either" she smiled.
"You know me too well." He sighed. "Why do you know me so well?
Why do we know each other so well?"
"That, Conner, is something I don't know." She sat for a moment and
then it hit her. *Duh, why hadn't she figured it out earlier* "We share
blood." she whispered.
Conner's head whipped up from the steaming liquid and he stared at her.
"What do you mean we share blood?" He asked, dumbly.
"When I was 18, Angel was poisoned. The only cure was Slayers blood. To
make a long story short, he fed off me, because I made him, and now my blood
runs in his veins. God, I can't believe I never thought about it."
*Love isn't brains children. It's blood. Blood screaming at you to work its
will.*
"So my father fed from you? You think the connection is from our
blood?" He asked.
"Well, I can't be sure, but, that would seem logical, I guess."
"Buffy, you ever feel like running away? Like life is too much and it's
smothering you and you can't breath? Like you don't belong?" He asked, in
a low voice.
"Everyday since I came back from the dead. You know, Angel was the only
place that ever felt like home to me. He shined my way when I was lost. He kissed
and held me when I was scared and hurt. If I think back, I started feeling the
way you described when he left. He stopped being there. Stopped shining the
path, wiping the tears so my path got dark, my eyes got blurry. I don't blame
him for my problems. For my....situations. I resent his absence. But yes, I
feel the way you feel now. I live it, I breath it. It is me."
"When I got back from the dimension, I was so confused and scared and
angry. I didn't have anyone. Not even my father. Our relationship is better
now, and it will get better, I hope. But you, my connection with you is deep,
soothing, it's like I've known you forever. Like I can tell you anything and
you'll still love me. Like you'll always be here for me. Almost motherly."
He finished. Buffy sighed as tears rolled down her eyes. The conversation ended
and in the shadows, Angel crept back upstairs.
That night, dreams filled her senses once more. This time,
they were weird. Flashes of images she had never seen flashed through her
dreams. Kissing Angel in the sun light, being shoved against a refrigerator,
making love on a kitchen table, licking ice cream off of his chest, Angel
depressed, Angel seeing the scrolls, Spike torturing Angel, Angel sleeping with
Darla, Darla being pregnant, Darla giving birth and then her abduction. She
woke silently with her mouth agape and a silent scream sounding everywhere
inside of her and nowhere inside the room. She was going crazy. She felt like
crawling out of her skin and dying. She threw the covers back on the bed and
stood. Like a zombie, she pulled some jeans on and a sweater and grabbed a
stake. At the last minute, she threw the stake to the floor and walked empty
handed.
~~~~~~~~~~~
The night air was welcoming. It was cold and dead, like her heart, and she
wanted it to swallow her whole. She didn't want to be in the same house as
Angel. She didn't want to share the same air as Connor, knowing what was to
come. She didn't want to look into the eyes of her beloved sister and know what
was to become of her once again. She quickly went into battle with many
vampires and didn't even notice that they were all being murdered in a way of
an experts method. Her mind was so gone that she need not focus on any battle
at hand. It just happened. Perhaps it was a slayers true way. Perhaps, she was
always supposed to be this emotionless and this robotic. It felt raw. It was
good to feel though. Lost in her thought she never heard the vamp sneak up
behind her. Angel, who had been following her all night, ran out of the shadows
and was about to strike the intruder when she spun on her heel and put her fist
through the vamps hest, pulling its dead heart out. It look at her, wide eyed
and exploded into dust. Angel stared at her, flabbergasted and motionless.
"What are you doing out here?" she asked, dusting herself off and
staring at him.
"Following you. What in the hell was that?" He asked.
"What was what?" She asked.
"What you just did?" He asked.
"Oh that, is what will happen to you if you follow me again." She
spat turning on her heel and then grabbed her head. Angel stood there, shocked
by her words as she attempted to stock away. She turned, holding her head, and
sighed.
"Look, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that. It's just that, all these
things are in my head right now and I can't think straight." She said. He
just nodded and let her stand there.
"I was there, tonight, when you and Connor were talking." He began.
"I know you may not feel for me, at all, but you have a connection with
him and that has to mean something, Buffy. There is some part of you in there
that's worth saving and I want to try. You're not who you think you are. You
are not the person you're making yourself become. You are not dead and you're
not dark and you are worth something. You're worth my life and I know something
is missing here. Some things not quite right and I want to find out what it
is." He said.
"Well, good luck looking, but if I were you, I'd start with myself,
because that's where it all started downhill." She said sadly.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"Angel, God, didn't you ever feel it? When we broke up, didn't you ever
feel a piece of yourself dying everyday and so slowly that it was the worst
torture in the world. I've been dying since you left. Now, after everything
I've been through, how can you expect me to be the same? How can you expect me
to have the same feelings as I once had. Every since the first day I met you,
I've been doomed to one day die."
"Don't say that!" He growled.
"Every since we first kissed I was doomed to fall in love and every since
I was in love, I was destined to pay for it. So, here we are and we have to
deal with the price." She said, emotionless. "I just want to crawl
away and die, Angel I want to crawl into a little hole and die and I want you
to feel it. I want you to wish I weren't dead, because I wish I could wish I
wasn't dead. I don't want to be dead inside. I don't want to be partial and I
don't want to see darkness every where, but I can't help it. It's all I know
now. It's all I am, all I'll ever be."
"Never! I won't except that!" He roared.
"Oh Angel, the quicker you except my fate, the quicker you will except
yours." She smiled.
"And what is my fate?"
"Now if I told you what I knew, it wouldn't be your fate anymore, now
would it?" She asked, cryptically.
"No, I guess not. Promise me!" He said.
"What?"
"Promise me you'll try. Promise me you'll try to not be dead."
"I try every time I take a breath, Angel."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lilah, the chip we put tn, is it working?" One of the senior partners asked
from their position at the head of the conference table.
:Yes, everything seems to be going smoothly. The slayer is void of all emotion
and she is progressing nicely. The only problem I see is the connections he has
with Connor."
"Why is this? She is supposed to be connecting with him."
"Yes, well, instead of the power magnet, we're getting more of a mommy
magnet. It seems that the slayer is developing a sort of motherly love for the
boy. It can backfire. I hoping against it."
"Anything we can do to fix this?"
"Not a one. Unless we want to kidnap her again, torture her, reprogram the
chip and have our little party again." She smiled
Part 5
Lilah got up from her confines with Wesley. She walked to
the outer room and picked up the phone.
"Hello, Donavan? Take a message to the boss. Tell him to increase Ms.
Summers' programming to the next stage....Yes, I know its dangerous, but we're
running out of time and I want to see Angel crawl. Okay, thanks. I'll be in
touch." And she hung up. In the shadows, Wesley tip-toed back to his place
in bed and faked sleep, terrified of the implications of the call.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"How long have they been gone?" Dawn asked, sitting next to Willow.
"Couple of hours. Angel followed her though. She should be fine." She
smiled.
"I hope she gets back to her old self soon. I really miss my sister."
"Hey, we all do." Xander offered. The door opened and slammed as a
dark figure stormed through the doors. And into the living area.
"Where is Buffy, Angel?" Xander asked.
"Still out. She pretty much ditched me. Where's Connor?" He asked.
"Right here. Anything new?" He asked.
"No, not really, but.."
"Sorry to interrupt, but Angel, there is a call for you. Wesley. He sounds
urgent." Giles offered. Angel silenced and went to the phone.
"What?" He asked.
"I have some information. I've been gathering helpful information for the
past couple of weeks and I'm afraid we have a problem. A chip has been planted
in Buffy's head and I don't quite know the extent of the chip, but its become
dangerous most recently. Lilah has made a call, progessing her into the next
stage, whatever that is. Is she there with you currently?" He asked.
"No. Damnit!" he cursed.
"Well, find her. I don't think I need to tell you the danger in this. You
need to find her before...hello?...hello?..." Angel had hung up.
"Willow, Giles? I need a locator spell. I'm leaving to find her now and
call me on my cell if you find anything or she comes back." And he ran
from the house before anyone could question him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
She stood on a cliff, looking down at the waves crashing into the rocks below.
I'm standing on
a bridge
I'm waiting in
the dark
She didn't know what had possessed her to come here, but she knew why. She knew
he was coming.
I though that
you'd be here,
By now.
She couldn't explain the feeling pulsing through her body. She knew it was
wrong. For some reason, that made it all the more exhilarating.
Isn't anyone
trying to find me?
Won't somebody
please take me home?
And then, he was there.
It's a damn cold
night
Trying to figure
out this life
She heard him call her name and she began to cry. He took a step forward and
she turned. She smiled at him and he read her eyes. He whispered a painful,
"no".
Won't you, take
me by the hand
Show me
somewhere new
She took this as her opportunity to break and turned toward the cliff and ran.
We preternatural speed, he followed, bellowing at the top of his lungs in an
inhumane roar for her to not jump. She swan dove over the ledge and heard his
voice screaming, pleading no and it was beautiful. She felt his arms wrap
around her body as she plunged into darkness and it was almost as though they
were ballet dancers and lovers. They were falling in slow motion.
I don't know who
you are, but I'm
I'm with you
He wrapped his body around hers, knowing that the fall wouldn't kill him as
they fell into oblivion, sheilding her human and fragile body from harm.
I'm with
you...........
They hit a rock and Angel's arms became slack around her, allowing her head to
smack against the rock with the impact. The chip in her head shorted and she
looked at the crushed body of her lover and roared into the heavens.
Why is everything so confusing?
"Angel?" She began to sob. Her head hurt and she felt as though she
had been released form a movie she had been trapped in.
Maybe I'm Just out of my mind
"Angel, baby, wake up. You're going to be okay. Just open yours eyes.
Please." she started to cry harder. "Please, I'm sorry." She
threw her body over his and held him tightly, repeating to herself
"please, please, please."
"You promised me. You promised you'd help me and that you'd take care of
me. Remember?" she cried, growing desperate and peppering kisses as a way
to hold on tighter. Time grew old and she lost track of the time spent holding
him and knew that soon, the sun would be up. Slowly, his eyes opened.
"Buffy?" He groaned.
"Angel! You're okay? Oh, God, I thought I lost you." She cried,
holding him and kissing him lightly, once more. He couldn't help but smile.
"Does this mean the old Buffy is back?" He teased.
"For now, but there is a lot you must know. But, I'm sorry, for a lot of
things that are happening and that will happen." She apologized.
"I'm sorry too. Lets go somewhere a little covered. I can smell the sun
rise." He suggested.
"I know. There's a cave over there. Here, let me help you up." She
offered, and he help onto her and her to him, for support as they staggered to
safety.
~~~~~~
Part 6
and stared at Angel who had stopped pacing and was now
staring with a horrified gaze.
"Do you know what this means?" Giles asked.
Angel merely nodded his head.
"Care to explain, because so far, all I know is this is about the slayer
and her son. Seeing as how Buffy and Faith have no sons, this sounds very
wrong." Giles admitted. Ignoring Giles Angel bellowed, "No!, This can
not be." He almost yelled and then Giles knew there was something that he
needed Angel to tell him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Hey Connor, you think we'll figure all this out soon?" Dawn asked as
she, Connor, Xander and Willow patrolled through a cemetary.
"I hope so. Your sister is very interesting to me. I only hope I will get
to know her better when this is all over." Connor smiled.
"You kids see anything?" Xander asked.
"Nope, not yet. You Willow?" Dawn asked.
"Not a single thing."
All of a sudden, three vamps charged from he bushes all attacking Connor. He
fought through them easily, punching and kicking and staking but by the time it
was all over, he was glowing a mysterious green color. Looking down, his eyes
grew wide as did the rest of the group.
"What is going on here? What did you do Wills?" Xander asked.
"I didn't do anything. I swear. No magic, promise." She said shocked.
"Hey, he kinda looks the way I did when I was the key three years
ago." Dawn said to no one in particular. They all turned to look at her.
"What? What I say?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~
"What aren't you telling me, Angel?" Giles asked.
"Four years ago, Buffy came to LA during Thanksgiving. You remember?"
"Yes. She was there for a few hours to see her father."
"She was actually there longer." He said pacing slightly.
"What do you mean, I remember. She came home right after..."
"There was a day, one that I had erased and it happened only she doesn't
remember, or, she didn't remember until now that is. I was turned human and we
got back together. It was the best day of my entire existence. She was so happy
and we were so in love that day, all days. Anyway, I had to have the erased
because I was no help to her and the oracles said that if I stayed human, she
would die." He finished, giving the watcher the short version of the
story. Giles stared at him in awe.
"Good God! I can't believe this. So what does this mean in relation to
what I just read? What are you trying to tell me Angel?"
"I...I think Connor is Buffy's, not Darla's." He said. Before Giles
could counter his thoughts, the patrolling gang burst through the door. They
looked frantic.
"What what is it? What's going on?" Angel asked panicked.
"We don't quite know either. We were out patrolling and when Connor
fought, he started to glow this green color." Willow explained.
"Yea, well, and you know how the monks made me out of Buffy because I was
the key, right Giles? Well, I glowed the exact same green. Do you think Connor
could be the next key or another key to a different place?" Dawn
questioned.
"I really don't know. I will have to hear the entire story as you guys
tell it back to me to be sure that my suspicions are correct." He said.
"It's quite late, you all better get to bed. We will discuss in the
morning. You'll let me know if there is anymore glowing then Connor?"
"No problem. See Ya." He said before they all marched up the stairs
to sleep.
"So you do have a theory about what they said happened tonight?"
Angel asked from his seat on the couch.
"Yes, I would say that this confirms your hypothesis as well. I think
Connor may well be Buffy's. I just don't know how I'm going to explain it
logically." Angel nodded and sat on the couch as Giles, too, filed up the
stairs in hopes of sleep. Angel sat patiently and prayed that Buffy would make
it home that night.
She never did.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
On the streets of Sunnydale, a slayer roamed freely. Her thoughts jumbled and
her mission clouded. She was a bad person. She believed this much but the
constant ache inside was growing more powerful by the minute. It hummed along
her skin and shook her bones. She felt as though she was crawling out of her
own skin. She wrapped her arms tighter around herself and squeezed as tight as
possible. Trying to dull the ache she walked faster and tried to keep her mind
to other things. Angel had kissed her. He would pay for that. They would all
pay. Everyone except Connor. Finally, she came to an empty cave and had no clue
how she had gotten there.
"I've been waiting for you. What took you so long?" A voice startled
her from her thoughts.
"I'm here now. What must I do to make him pay. Make them all pay?"
Buffy asked.
"Oh we will make sure they all pay. Don't even worry. Because of our
little boo boo jumping off cliffs, we've given them a bit of a clue. Not to
worry. They are slow, dumb and deaf. It'll be too late when they figure it out
anyway." Cordelia said, staring into the somber green eyes of the key to
ending the side of good.
~~~~~~~~~~~
Part 7
~~~~~~~~~~~
The night brought about no promise for the estranged couple and Angel felt no
closer to her than before. He knew things now. Things he couldn't share with
anyone and he just hoped they were enough to save them. Save himself. He
sighed, exasperated, holding the bridge of his nose. Damnit! Why did this have
to be? Why her? Why them? He couldn't, for the life of him, figure out why the
powers felt that they needed this punishment. No, Buffy had explained that this
was it. This was the last trial. After this, if they made it, they were free.
Free to love, free to be in love and that was worth the pain and heartache, she
had said. He closed his eyes, remembering his loves eyes. She was so sincere,
had so much love and so much faith in him. He knew that, in her, he would
always save them, so he would. He would go through the pain, through the fire,
even, to make it right. Where to begin? Gosh, he didn't even know were to
start. He supposed that Wolfman and Hart was the best place to start. They
could clarify the prophecy, against there will of course, and he could gain
some true insight on what they were dealing with. Still he didn't like the
stakes. It was either the true death of his son and his mother or another fate.
One he wasn't quite ready to come to terms with yet. He wanted their heads.
Every last single one of them for what they had done to her. He would pay them
back, tenfold. And as soon as he figured out which batch of men had violated
his mate, he would send them their message of promise through their mutilated
bodies. He tried to calm his nerves, calm his senses and just breath, but he
knew he wouldn't be able to relax, be able to breath.
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The end of days was near. It was so close the First Evil could smell it. It had
all of its key players in order. All of them in place. The wild card, the one
thing the insipid side of good never imagined was what made the First in the
form of Buffy smile. Oh, no, they never saw this coming. Too bad that when they
did, it would be too late to stop the End of Days. They would win, no doubt,
they would win and the night never seemed so dark.
~~~~~~~~~~
She tossed and turned at the old mansion, covered in his old bed sheets. She
was dreaming. Only this time, she was more of an observer than an all feeling
participant. She watched herself. Watched as they read scrolls, papers, files,
did research and planned. She saw the men rape her repeatedly and then the
doctors draw blood several weeks later. This time she was able to see beyond
her room. The test they took, they results they performed.
"Pregnant: Negative." She read over the doctors shoulder and cringed.
She then watched as they brought in a vile, full of a thick almost clear type
substance which simply held the label, "Specie: Vampire, Name:
Angelus" and then them injecting her and knocking her out. She watched as
they then spread her legs and a doctor positioned himself between them. The
doctor then, using tools, began a procedure and Buffy had to fight herself not
to turn away. She was seeing what they were doing. She was seeing what they
were planning. She then saw the doctor inject the substance into her vaginally
and clean her back up. The scene, painful and scary as it was then flashed to a
week later when they took her blood again. Again, the performed test, only this
time, it read positive. She froze, horrified and scared. They had impregnated
her. Impregnated her with a child that she had known nothing about. Her eyes
grew wide as she realized that she was with child. With Child! She was thrown
from the dream and scenes flashed before her eyes. Angel, Angel, all of them
scenes with Angel and then she woke in a cold sweat, trying not to shout. She
pulled her legs up and buried her face in them as she fought to regain her
frame of mind. Damnit! She thought. Swinging her legs over the side of the bed,
she contemplated why the doctor couldn't tell her she was pregnant when she
went? She pulled on a sweater and then grabbed a stake, walking back out into
her darkness.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Dawn and Connor lay awake in the dark. He on the floor and she on her bed.
"You still awake?" Dawn asked, turning onto her side to look down at
Connor.
"Yea, couldn't sleep. I'm a little worried about some things." He
offered.
"You and me both. What's going to happen to our lives?" She wondered
out loud.
"I don't know. I just hope we all pull through. I hope we all survive
this, in one piece." He responded.
"Connor, just so you know, I like you. I mean, as a friend, I think you're
pretty cool and I know for a fact that Angel won't let anything happen to any
of us. He loves us all, especially my sister. We just have to believe that
together we will all pull through." She lectured.
"I hope you're right Dawn. I really hope you're right." He whispered
before closing his eyes.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
Angel walked through the darkness thinking. He never noticed the grunting from
afar or the tingle up his spine until he felt a kick to his mid-section and he
was sent flying. Clutching his caving ribs, he looked up into the amber eyes of
his love and groaned.
"Where is he?" She asked.
"Who?" He asked, standing to his feet to have Buffy land another
kick, putting him back down.
"You know who. Connor. Where is he, Angelus?" She asked, anger and
hate dripping from her voice. At the sound of his alter ego's name he morphed
into his vampire visage and stood, backhanding her across the face.
"So what? You want to fight me now?" He growled. "You want to
what? Go through me and get to him? It's not going to happen."
"Oh, and why is that? Big bad daddy gonna save the day?"
"He's your family." He reasoned.
"He's the key to my pain!" Her voice raised.
"He's your son!" He yelled.
"He's nothing!" She screamed and attacked. The two engaged in an age
old ballet that only lovers knew. His weakness was her strength and visa versa.
He kicked her and she landed with a loud thud that sounded through the
cemetery. Many grunts and pants could be heard from the distance as the two
battled for the upper hand. Neither gained until a voice came form the
distance.
"Stop this!" Connor yelled. He stood, holding Dawn's small hand as
the two lovers pummeled each other into the ground. They stopped. Angel held a
panicked look while Buffy's was more of relief.
"Buffy, what are you two doing? You love him, stop this!" She
demanded.
"Oh, Dawny, I'll stop, when the pain stops. Connor, sweety, come
here." She persuaded.
"Connor, stay right there." Angel said forcibly.
"Connor! Come to mama!" She said, looking him in the eyes with a
smile.
"What is she talking about?" Connor asked, stepping away from
everyone, looking at his father.
"Take Dawn and go back to the house. I'll explain it later." He
commanded.
"You mean this Dawn?" Buffy asked as she grabbed her sister from
behind and wrapped her hands around her delicate throat.
"No!" Connor yelled.
"You want to save aunty dearest, you better hurry quick, she lacks the
stamina and perseverence of a vampire for a father and a slayer for a mother so
I'm willing to bet that she can't last that long without air." She said,
before applying pressure.
"Don't do this, Buffy. Please." Angel pleaded.
"Please," Buffy mocked, "You're pathetic." She laughed.
"Okay, let her go. I'll come." Connor said.
"That's mama's good boy." She said, grabbing Connor and releasing a
gasping dawn to Angel's arms.
"Don't hurt him." Angel growled.
"He's my baby, Angel, and mommy knows best." She smiled before she
disappeared with Connor in tow.
"Damnit!" Angel howled.
"I'm sorry." Dawn gasped.
"Don't. It's not your fault. Are you okay?" He asked, smoothing her
hair back like he used to do Buffy's.
"Yea, just a lil out of breath." She smiled as they stood and began
their trip home.
"Angel, is Buffy really Connor's mother?" Dawn asked.
"Yes, Dawn, she is." he admitted. Dawn simply nodded.
"That's good to know. Good thing I didn't have the hots for him." She
smiled and he cracked a slight grin as they walked back.
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tbc