Name:
Ali Brumbaugh
E-mail:
pyrochick44@cox.net
Location: VA
Birthday: 29 May, 1991
Bio: this is my bio and u are reading it........y r u reading it?? r u curios or just bored??????
ok im sorry i'll stop asking u questions now.................but y r u reading my bio....?!?!?!?!?!?!SORRY im stopping
before i post about me i want to put in some great poems i found.
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What if.
What if I had jumped?
What if I had given in?
What if I had shot or swallowed or hung?
What if I had given up?
What would have happened?
If I was no longer here.
But I am here.
And I didn't give in.
I didn't give up.
And I am stronger for it.
I was so close,
But then I was saved.
By whom?
Myself, or someone else?
I may never know.
But to whomever it was,
I am deeply and eternally grateful.
And I can never think like that.
Never again.
There are no what ifs.
There is just what is.
What is.
It's the only thing that matters.
Because you cannot change the past.
You have no control over the future.
But the present is a gift, use it wisely,
And you will never have to worry about what was or what never was again.
No more what ifs.
What if is futile.
There is only what is.
Heather Beck, age 13 from NB Canada
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Death Of An Angel
by Joseph Smith
I once knew a lady named
Misery
she lived in a damaged world
she calls to me in transparent dreams
a lonely star
outside
the closed universe
she was my twisted soul
long ago
she experienced
the darkest of
pain
beauty was something
she could not
believe
I once knew an angel named
Evil
she traveled like a
ghost into the shadows
her heart was dying for some form of
life
all seems balanced
now
the angel burns to
die
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am the love killer,
I am murdering the music we thought so special,
that blazed between us, over and over.
I am murdering me, where I kneeled at your kiss.
I am pushing knives through the hands
that created two into one.
Our hands do not bleed at this,
they lie still in their dishonor.
I am taking the boats of our beds
and swamping them, letting them cough on the sea
and choke on it and go down into nothing.
I am stuffing your mouth with your
promises and watching
you vomit them out upon my face.
The Camp we directed?
I have gassed the campers.
Now I am alone with the dead,
flying off bridges,
hurling myself like a beer can into the wastebasket.
I am flying like a single red rose,
leaving a jet stream
of solitude
and yet I feel nothing,
though I fly and hurl,
my insides are empty
and my face is as blank as a wall.
Shall I call the funeral director?
He could put our two bodies into one pink casket,
those bodies from before,
and someone might send flowers,
and someone might come to mourn
and it would be in the obits,
and people would know that something died,
is no more, speaks no more, won't even
drive a car again and all of that.
When a life is over,
the one you were living for,
where do you go?
I'll work nights.
I'll dance in the city.
I'll wear red for a burning.
I'll look at the Charles very carefully,
weraing its long legs of neon.
And the cars will go by.
The cars will go by.
And there'll be no scream
from the lady in the red dress
dancing on her own Ellis Island,
who turns in circles,
dancing alone
as the cars go by.
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now about me.......
name:Ali Brumbaugh
nickname: Brumbanator
age: 13
Live: y do u care
hobbies: drawing anime, talkin with friends, listening 2 music, getting in trouble:D|0:) (he he)
fave band: GOOD CHARLOTTE
fave food: CHEESE
fave month: MAY(my birthday)
fave movie: POTC(pirates of the carribean
fave thing about a boy:ummm......everything
Screen name(s):punkyangel26, smilez4all8, felinelvr513
if u where a crayon:BLUE!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!
if u were an animal:moo COWs go MOO
eye color:greyish blue
hair color:dirty blonde
siblings: 1 brother(nine yrs)
my many sayings and mottos: im not slow im just not fast;
i my not stupid i just lost the key to my sanity;
if life sucks then eat potatoes;
it wasnt me it was the cow in my shoe;
i didnt loose it, it evaporated;
im not unhappy im just frowning upside down;
if life throws u curve balls u run to second base;
dont ever say 'im so hungery i would eat anything'
cauz u never now wut sum1 has in there pocket;
smile and be happy it make everything better;
blondes arent stupid they r just mentaly chanllenged;
support mental health or I WILL EAT YOU!!
Interests: umm............y do u care??
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