Inlove With An Older Guiy
I'm inlove with this guy called Ben. I know it's wrong, because I have a boyfriend. I know my boyfriend loves me, thoguh he has cheated on me in the past. Other guys want me, I know they do but I don't love them I don't, I love Ben. He's 21, i'm 14. What do I do? I think of him always and I love him to pieces. He loves me too. What do I do? I told people that I loved him, but nobody knows what to do. Everyone wants it to be them who I am wanting. They do want me. I can't stand the pain it's so confusing but i'm happy... I'm happy because I know he loves me to.
Yet guilt fills me for my boyfriend and those others who I will not be with. I even sympathise with Karl, who wanted/wants to rape me. Because I will not be with him. You see, we where not talking and every time we don't talk he gets all violent with everyone else. Now he's all hippy again because he thinks I love him. He's like Sarah from eastenders. Obssessive. Annoying, yet he is cute in a way and I do think he's attractive.
What's a girl supposed to do in this world? Huh?
I really don't know. But hey, mite as well go downstairs and get a drink and drown my sorrows. I'll go down and watch Pokemon in a minute, then i'll probably listen to music and hang out. It's the same life that i'm used to.
I'm going to write a story about a pretend rape of me by.
Steven H
Karl J
Karl P
Kerran S
Peter K
Ben H
David R
Steve G
Yep pretty much the older than 16 year old's that fancy me... yep 16 to 24... But anyway doesn't matter much that. That's why I cold myself Afrodite i'm like the god of love cos everyone seems to want me and i'mj not hot, good looking, absoutly wonderrful, intelligent or nothing! Ah well! Adios amigos.
xo Stef xo
mischievious