The chill is deadly, silence fills the air, his eyes wonder down to his cold hard chest. His thoughts drift away again, is it me, it cant be or yes or no,. The thoughts that haunt him from a far away past. What really happened its so foggy now. But tomorrow will bring a new day one with dispare and anguish, Did it happen to my brother,my sister, my mother, or who, Am I the one carrying these devils of regret and pain for myself. or for something I couldn't stop, Its all so unclear to the aging man in the cell. The silent one of so long ago. The wet cold rain brings in the rats, The only thing that is certain is how they shit. He must stay awake away from the nightmares of yesterday, tomorrow, distraught for what could have been, what will never come. God I cry out to you. Not another day.

But that day always comes.No matter how hard he tries to forget,he never can.Its like a broken spiral spinning out of control.Memories of such pain and regret.The man feels he will never know peace,or ever get a piece.His life was changed,by one mistake.A mistake that has cost him his freedom,his love.Such a painful past brought him where he is today. A past he can never change or forget.His mind drifts back to times when he was happy, and not caged like some animal.That is what he is.Caged.No way out.He remembers times when he had freedom and love.

The cold hard thumps of someone walking in the coradoor awaken his memories, Its the beating of that drum of world war II. Hes there now. marching in his newly given uniform. Basic was hard, but the graduation brings joy. soon ended joy, death and famine all over the world. I am going to save the world, He thinks with all his glorious youth.

The battle is still hard.He wars with himself everyday.No matter how hard he tries to redeem himself.He comes to terms with what he has done to others, and to himself.The fact that he can't roam free,can't sleep in a comfortable bed, can't get a piece of pussy.It's no ones fault but his own.If he didn't take the pills, if he didn't drink the alcohol,if he didn't have so much anger inside him.All questions he has will never be answered.His mistake has cost him his friends,family,lover. Some notches where never meant to be taken down.He thinks 'Will they ever forgive me?,will I ever forgive myself?Please God,give me the answers I seek,or nice piece of pussy.