You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home
{author unknown}



I can't but I can......
I can't tell you how it feels,
To hear her cry.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To watch her die.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To see her smile.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To be in denial.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To hear her laugh.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To give her her only bath.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To see her crawl.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To lose something so small.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To hear her speak.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To hold her....oh so weak.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To see her walk.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To be in shock.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To see her graduate.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To grieve alone in private.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To see her marry.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To be angry.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To see her with children.
But I can tell you how it feels,
To have no answer to your question.
I can't tell you how it feels,
To have her in my life.
But can tell you how it feels,
To have her in my heart
{author unknown}


A Man In Grief
It must be very difficult to be a man in grief,
Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong",
No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult to stand up to the test,
And field calls and visitors so she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's all right and what she's going through
But seldom take his hand and ask, "My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night and thinks his heart will break
And dries her tears and comforts her but "stays strong" for her sake.
It must be difficult to start each day anew
And try to be so very brave~
He lost his baby too.
{by:Eileen Knight Hagemeister}


Special Birthday
Please help them to remember that today is a special birthday.
Help them understand that the memories don't go away.
Bless them with ears to hear and hearts that care.
Enable them to listen while I share.
Shelter them, that they may never know my pain.
Help them to help me know that my child's life was not in vain.
Help them.......
to understand that I wish my child were here so we could celebrate,
to understand that I still feel the nearness of my child,
to see beyond my smile and the words, "I'm okay,"
Please let just one remember today is a special birthday!
{author unknown}


I thought I was alone in the night;
crouching in that eerie soothing darkness.
Red eyes swollen,
hot tears soaking my face.
My confusion melting into screams of anger
with a voice that echoed against nothing and everything.
Alone, in this pain, the knowing, this torchure.
My screams circled into themselves,
rocking me this way and that
turning from volume to anguished body-wrenching sobs.
I cried for you, my love.
For the us.
For the everything and the nothing.
No one answered me.
No one would help explain, WHY!
I dont want to hear 'its going to be okay, cause it isn't.
"it was meant to be," ....whatever.
My lifeblood, once warm and rushing through you
and in many ways making us as one,
now runs cold.
We've been torn.
Seperated.
All these things I yelled into the night.
Pleading a case I know was unheard.
With each word, the tears came again.
Violent tremors racked my body.
I felt the emptiness, the darkness and knew nobody would understand.
Nobody could feel this death to everything inside me.
It is to this and to you I poured my tears.
Choosing to embrace the darkness,
the only thing willing to stand close to the touch
It is in this embrace, I heard it.
The sound.
The voice, so young
The panic, the sorrow, all in the same.
It was you, crying with me.
{author unknown}


Remembering
Go ahead and mention my child,
The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further.
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry.
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing the tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending she didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that she has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing.
I feel it will take a lifetime.


Baby In Heaven
Oh, baby girl, we looked forward to the day you would be born,
But alas, the Lord left us forlorn.
You didn't leave us without a fight,
You fought to stay on Earth with all your might.
You are now resting in the heavens above,
You left surrounded by your family's strong love.
Our arms are now empty, our hearts are so sad,
You will always be remembered by your mom and your dad.
So to God your tiny soul we release,
We know that your heart is at eternal peace.
{author unknown}



Questions
Can you see me from heaven?
Can you hear what I say?
Do you listen to me every time I pray?
Do you fly on the wings of an angel on high?
Or rest gently on the clouds passing by?
Can you jump from star to star and dance upon the moon?
And can you smell the flowers when they're in full bloom?
Do you wrap around me on the bright warm rays of the sun?
And do you lay beside me when the day is done?
Do you blow me kisses that reach me on the wind?
Or are you perched in the trees as they sway and bend?
And when the air is still and there's no breeze at all,
Is it you that plays my wind chimes?
Is that your special call?
Do you sometimes sit beside me and brush me with your wings?
Or do I just imagine those touches,whispers and other things?
Do you walk behind me to catch me if I fall?
Or are you up ahead of me waiting for my call?
And do you hear your brother and sister's laughter?
Are they also in your sight?
Can you help me keep them safe from harm?
and always guide the right?
I have so many questions,are these things really so?
Well for now I'll keep believing..with all my heart and soul.
{author unknown}



Broken Chain
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
But all we have are memories and a photo in a frame
It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone;
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide;
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same;
But as God calls us, one by one,
The Chain will link again.
{author unknown}



Sleep, Little Child, Sleep
Sleep, little child, sleep.
Your soul is home deep in the heart of God.
Weep not, gentle mother, weep not.
For your angel can be found
within the song of every bird,
the bloom of every flower,
the glow of every sunrise.
In the sweet, rhythmic breath of every newborn babe,
witness the spirit of your lost child
who has once again become a part
of the unconquerable, immortal Spirit of us all
{author unknown}



Should You Go First
Should you go first and I remain
to walk the road alone,
I'll live in memories garden dear, with happy days we've known.
In spring I'll wait for roses red,
when faded, the lilacs blue.
In early fall when brown leaves fall,
I'll catch a glimpse of you.
Should you go first and I remain, for battle to be fought.
Each thing you've touched along the way will be a hallowed spot.
I'll hear your voice, I'll see your smile,
though blindly I may grope,
The memory of your sweet love will buoy me on with hope.
Should you go first and I remain,
one thing I'll have you do:
Walk slowly down that long long path,
for soon I'll follow you.
I want to know each step you take, so I may take the same.
For someday down that lonely road
you'll hear me call your name.
{author unknown}



The Cord
We are connected,
My child and I,
by An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen
By any on Earth.
This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.
I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.
The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.
It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.
And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.
It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.
I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away!
{author unknown}



Hold Them A Little Closer
I pray you never walk through
The agony I've known
I pray that all your little ones
Will stay until they've grown.
I pray that you can really hear
My heartbroken cries
So you will know the anguish
When A Child Dies.
I pray it makes you hold them
Closer to your breast
And savor every moment
As if it were the best.
For none of us can ever know
How soon they will be gone
And we will have only memories
To hold us in the dawn.
Oh dear and tired mother
Of rambunctious little lambs
Do not grow weary of washing
And helping little hands.
Remember that these precious ones
May not be with us long
And we will have to suffer
Such pain when they are gone.
So when you cry at one more day
Of toys spread on the floor
Imagine if they weren't there
To mess up anymore.
Think of all those precious times
You'll miss and wish you had
You'll see those things that irked you so
They weren't all that bad.
Hold them closer for awhile
And stroke their silky hair
And hug them gently once for me
I wish that I were there.
For as I cry out for my daughter
Who cannot feel my touch
My heart cries out to tell you all
You can never love too much...
{author unknown}