Chapter 1
My name is Eileen, I am 27 years old and I used to work for the Backstreet
Boys. I was their personal assistant for 7 years and this is my
story..........
I was young and wild. I drove my parents crazy and they didnt know what to do
with me anymore. My dad called his friend who was starting a boy band in
hopes of hitting it big and making his first million. "Please Lou, please
find some type of job for her to do. I swear she is making me crazy!" "Well
Mike, I promise I will think about it. What can she do?" "DO? Well she is
great at making Mary and I get grey hair. No seriously, I bet she can help
you in some way. Maybe keeping things organized and the helping the boys be
where they need to be and stuff. Just please think about it." "Ok Mike, I
will call ya later" Lou replied.
A few hours later, Mike called upstairs to his daughter. "Honey can you come
down here for a minute?" Eileen flew down the stairs to find her father
waiting at the bottom. "Wazz up dad?" "Well, I was just talking to my friend
Lou. You remember him dont you?" he asked. "Yeah, the fat pedophile" she
laughed. "Hey, that is my childhood friend young lady!" he replied. "So what
about him?" "He has offered you the job of a life time and you are going to
take it" her dad said. "A job? Doing what?" she said as she looked at him
like he was crazy. "Eileen, your 20 years old now and its about time you
started doing something. Lou is working with a bunch of up and coming singers
and they will be starting a tour of Europe next week and you will be going
with them." "And just what the hell am I supposed to be doing?" she replied
with a smartass tone that her father hated. "You will be the boys personal
assistant. You will travel with them and take care of their needs." "Dont
you mean baby-sit them dad? No way! Im not doing it. Call that asshole you
call a friend and tell him to find himself another jackass to do it!" she
yelled to her father. That was a big mistake on her part. Suddenly she saw a
look in his eyes she had never seen before. He started walking towards her as
she instinctively stepped back. "You are taking the job and you are going to
Europe young lady or you are out of this house. Do I make myself clear? I've
had it with your nasty ass attitude. You have spent far too long living off
your mother and I and its about time you learn some responsibility" he said
as he was now in her face.
The following week, I was on a plane with the asshole Lou and his 5 little
playmates. Needless to say I was not happy. Lou sat next to me on the plane
to explain my duties to me. "Your job is very simple. If they need something
you do it for them, if they want something from the store, you go get it for
them. See, now isn't that easy?" I wanted to punch him in the face but held
back because I knew that little jerk would whip out his cell phone and call
my dad. Dad had warned me if I didn't at least give it a chance, he would
throw me out and cut off all my funds. I don't think getting thrown off the
plane in the first five minutes would constitute giving it a try in my
fathers eyes. I just looked Lou in the face, and in the most sickening tone
said, "of course Lou, that sounds way easy. No problems here." The minute I
make a few bucks Im outta this flea circus she said to herself.
That's where my adventures with the Backstreet Boys all began.
Chapter 2
Well, its been 6 months and actually the guys are doing great. They have
become really popular here in Europe. Especially Germany, the girls cant seem
to get enough of them. We have finally stopped touring around and staying in
cheap hotels and we are now in Sweden. The guys are getting ready to record
their first album. They are so excited about it. I'm just excited not having
to travel from place to place every night.
I'm not finding the guys quite as annoying as they were. Dont get me wrong,
they have their moments still, but they are starting to grow on me a bit.
With one exception of course, Nick. He still drives me crazy most of the
time, although he does have an occasional moment. Like when he put blue dye
in Brians toothpaste and Brians teeth turned blue! Now even I have to say,
that was a moment to remember. Brian was in his room getting ready for an
interview, and all throughout the hallways we all hear this horrendous
scream. Brian came running out into the hallway looking for Nick. No one had
to tell him, he just knew. Nick was constantly pulling pranks on everyone. We
all came out into the hall thinking Brian was hurt. Kevin grabbed him by the
shoulders and asked what was wrong. Brian just opened his mouth and gave us
the cheesiest grin. Turns out the dye did not come off and Brian had to get
his teeth bleached and miss the interview, but he is fine now. Just cant wait
to see what he does to get Nick back!
AJ and I have gotten to be close friends. No, not like what your thinking.
Just friends. We tell each other everything. He really understands me and
accepts me for what I am and even puts me in my place when need be. Its
great to have a best friend and confidant on the road. There are times when I
can just go to him and put my head on his shoulder and without words he knows
I'm in overload and just need to be held. We have this unspoken language
between us. Lou hates this. He doesnt like me being so close to AJ.
Especially after he found out about the tattoos. I thought he was gonna have
a stroke! Well, since the tattoo incident, we have gone 3 more times. AJ has
3 and I have 2 much to Lou's dismay. AJ told him everyone needed an image and
his was gonna be the "bad boy". Believe it or not, he fell for it. Now he
doesnt hassle him about it anymore.
Like I said earlier, the guys and I seem to be getting on fine for the most
part. Lou is a totally different story. We are like oil and water. There have
been so many times when I have just wanted to haul off and punch him in the
face cause he is such an asshole. Only because of my father I haven't done it
yet. We fight all the time. One day during a fight, I asked him if he didn't
like me that much, why doesn't he just get rid of me. I figured my dad
couldn't be pissed if it was Lou's decision and not mine. He said he couldn't
cause he owed my dad so much for many things he had done for him in the past
and he couldn't hurt my dad that way, so he would just put up with me. BIG
MISTAKE telling me that on his part. Now I know I can do just about anything
I want and get away with it. Oh well, like I've told ya many times, the man
is an asshole.
One afternoon, Lou and I were working on things in his suite while the boys
were at a press conference. Lou asked if we could talk. He wanted my opinion
on something. I sat back in my chair, looked at him and said shoot. "I am
thinking about replacing one of the guys" he said. "I dont think one of them
is working out quite the way I would like." "WHO??" I said. "I think the
guys are terrific just the way they are. The fans love them. Who do you want
to get rid of?" Very matter of factly he said, "Howie." "Howie, why the hell
would you do that. He is a sweetheart." I felt the anger creeping up but I
need to keep my cool so I could find out what was going on in that warped
little mind of his. "Your right, Howie is a sweetheart. A really nice guy,
but I dont see him fitting into my "Boy Band" image. He is not as attractive
as the other guys." "Lou, first of all you cant get rid of him, you have a
signed contract" He laughed this sick little laugh. "Honey, you don't know
anything about business. I wrote those contracts myself. Dont you think I put
a loophole in there for my use?"
"Lou, first off you are a sick little bastard. You are going to get rid of
someone because they don't fit YOUR image? The fans love him just as much as
the rest of the guys." I don't know exactly what happened to me, but I felt
this need to defend Howie to the death. "Secondly, if you even try to do
that, I will personally go to each of the guys and tell them what you are up
to and about the loopholes and they can go to their lawyers and YOU will be
out on your ass. They will not stand for this and you know it. And thirdly, I
found out from my father that he is your financial backer in this venture and
I will go to him and tell him everything. He will pull out so fast and you
will have nothing. I''m telling you, DONT FUCK WITH THEM LOU!" By this
point I was out of my chair and in his face. The guys were coming down the
hall, and heard my last statement. They came running into the suite asking
what was going on. Kevin grabbed we around my waist and pulled me off Lou.
"It nothing guys, just a little misunderstanding. Everything is fine. We are
status quo." Lou didn't want me to see it, but I saw just a hint of fear in
his eyes. Since then, nothing was ever said about the subject again. The
guys were recording and no one was none the wiser.
Well, time for another McDonalds run. Gotta go, ya know how growing boys are
when they wanna eat.
Chapter 3
Well, its official. We are now prisoners in our hotel. I guess I should
explain. The boys CD is a rousing success here in Europe. We are back touring again,
but its mostly throughout Germany. For some reason this country in particular is
crazy for the guys. We are stuck in the hotels a lot because there are crowds
of girls outside just waiting to get a glimpse of the guys. Since we've been in
so much, the jokes and pranks are getting wilder and crazier than ever just to cut the
boredom. Nick rigged a bucket of water above the inside of Kevin's door, so when he
opened it he was drenched. Then one day Howie fell asleep on the floor while
we were watching a movie, and Brian was feeding him candy in his sleep. But
the best was when Nick, AJ and myself were in my room throwing water balloons
out the window from 23 floors up! Unfortunately, we nailed the hotel manager
right on the head. The 3 of us were on the floor hysterical laughing about it. Of course, we had no
idea who that was. Then, suddenly the door flew open and big ole Lou is
standing there glaring at us. We were laughing so hard we couldn't even talk
to him. Then Lou informs us who the guy was and that we had 24 hours to
vacate the premises and there better not be any further instances. Needless
to say, Lou was pretty pissed. Jeeze, some people just cant take a joke!
We now have a new girl traveling with us. Her name is Fatima. She is a dancer
and is going to be the guys new choreographer. She is a lot of fun and we get
along great. She even lets me join in dance practice with the guys cause
there is nothing else to do when they are practicing for hours on end. Who
knows, maybe if one of the guys trips over their own 2 feet I can fill in for
them. Fatima and I were just laughing about how we have never seen such a
bunch of uncoordinated group of men.
Its would be nice to have a roommate now. Ive been feeling a bit lonely being
the only girl here. At least I thought it would be. Unfortunately, that's
not quite how it is. Kevin and Fatima quickly developed an intense
relationship. Of course this was just kept between the 3 of us. Kevin didn't
even want the other guys to know cause he was afraid they would be pissed.
After Lou did the nightly room check, I would be the lookout while Fatima
snuck into Kevin's room. We always made sure we had a room right by each
other, either next door or right across the hall. It kinda sucked listening
to them make love through the walls. Once again, I was lonely.
One night Fatima had just gone to Kevin's room, while I lay in my bed
quivering in fright from the storm. Not only was it pouring out, but the
lightening was fierce and when the thunder hit it felt like the whole hotel
was shaking. I was always afraid of this type of storm since I was little. My
father used to hold me in his arms and rock me till it stopped. Thinking back
on that made me feel even worse. Yes, I did learn to love these guys now, but
this is not quite the life I had pictured for myself. The way I saw it, if
this storm was happening I should be in the arms of a lover or maybe even a
husband, not alone in a hotel room half out of my mind with fright. Thats
when it happened. I looked out into the hallway and saw it was empty. I
knocked on the door to the right of my room. "Come in" I walked into the
dark room, only to hear a giant crack of thunder and flash of lightening that
lit up the whole room! I had my hands over my ears as I slid down the wall to
the floor. I sat there kinda rocking myself. He jumped off the bed and came
to me in an instant. "What's wrong honey?" he asked as he wiped away the tear
rolling down my cheek. "Oh AJ, Im so afraid of storms. I was lying in my bed
trying not to be afraid but I couldn't take it any more. I couldn't stand to
be in there alone anymore. Please can I stay with you?" she asked as she held
onto his arms for dear life. "Alone? Where the hell is Fatima?" "UMMM" is all
I could get out. "She's with Kevin right?" he stated. "Yeah, you knew?" He
laughed, not till a minute ago. I suspected something but wasn't sure."
"Please AJ, please can I stay?" I was crying so hard now, he didn't know what
to do. Lightening filled up the room again and he could see all the fear in
her eyes. "Sure you can" he said as he scooped her up and laid her gently on
the bed. He held her in his arms tightly. Each time the thunder rolled, she
would grab on just a little tighter. "its ok Eileen, I swear I wouldn't let
anything happen to you" he said. They lay there together, just holding each
other. Aj sang softly to her to take her mind off the storm. When he
finished, Eileen leaned over him and whispered, "that was so beautiful, thank
you." Suddenly their lips brushed against each other. They needed each other.
Clothes started flying everywhere. He wasn't as she had imagined at all, knowing his bad
boy image . He was so sweet and gentle with her. He placed butterfly kisses all over her
face and neck. "take me AJ, I need you so badly" He entered her slowly, he
couldn't stop kissing her. She smells so beautiful, and she's so damn soft he
thought to himself. They moved at a slow pace. They were both savoring every
moment. When they finally hit orgasm Eileen knew they better keep it down not
to wake the rest of the floor even though all she wanted to do was scream out
his name. She buried her face in his shoulder to stifle herself. He on the
other hand, couldn't care if the whole world heard him. He was in heaven.
They spent the rest of the night in each others arms. The next morning I work
up early. I looked over and saw AJ sleeping next to me. He looked like an
angel. What the hell have I done? I thought as I raced around the room to
gather my clothes. I gotta get out of here.
Chapter 4
I ran to my room only to find Fatima, Kevin and Lou waiting there for me.
"Where the hell were you all night?" Lou bellowed. Kev and Tima looked like
they wanted the earth to open up and swallow them at that moment. "I came
here to check on you ladies last night because of the storm and I come to
find the room completely empty. Then I go to check on the guys and I find her
in Kevin's room. What the hell is going on here?? Musical beds? So who's were
you in last night missy?" he asked again. DAMN this was so unexpected and he
was so pissed. I couldn't tell him I spent the night with AJ, who was by the
way still a minor. "I was just hangin out with one of the guys, I couldn't
sleep Lou. And I don't like what your insinuating" I shouted at him. When in
doubt, go into defense mode. "Well, what do you expect me to think when I
walk into Kevin's unlocked room and find these two fucking! When I couldn't
find you, I assumed you were doing the same. I better not catch you with one
of the guys Eileen or it will be your head!" he bellowed. "Well, first of
all, Kevin should learn to lock his door" I said with a glance towards Kevin.
"And just because someone around here is getting some, I don't think you
should assume ANYTHING about me cause you know what they say when you assume
Lou, you make and ASS out of U and Me!" With that Kevin and Fatima bust out
laughing. I looked over to see all the guys at the door laughing too. The one
thing Lou hates is to be made a fool of. He went storming out of the room,
saying over his shoulder to Kev and Tima "I will deal with you to later!"
Thankfully, the crowd dispersed from our door. All but AJ, that is. He came
in and shut the door. "Well, thank God that's over" he laughed. "Shut up AJ!"
I shouted. "Its not over by a long shot. I'm gonna have hell to pay for
this." "But Eileen, its not your fault what Tima and I were doing" Kevin
said. "Kevin, you dont seem to understand, everything that happens with you
guys is MY responsibility and I have to answer to Lou for it. He is gonna
figure it out that I was the one helping you since Tima and I share a room. I
might notice she was missing." I threw one of the bed pillows and it knocked
over the lamp shattering it into a million pieces. I slid down the wall, with
my face in my hands. "Great!! Just fucking Great! Now he has something else
to bitch about"
AJ sat on the floor next to me and put his arm around me. "Dont be upset
sweetheart. You'll deal with Lou. You always do." Kevin turned around to see
us and the surprise registered on his face. "You mean you two......." I
started to cry. "I dont know if I can fix things this time around" I
whispered. I got up and ran out. Fortunately for me the elevator doors had
just opened. I didn't know where I was going. I just knew I had to get out of
there.
The doors opened, and I walked out. All I saw was a door in front of me, so I
pushed it open and walked out. I was on the roof. DAMN, it was cold. All I was
wearing was a pair of flannel boxers and a tee shirt. I just sat on the floor
and cried my eyes out. How could I have made such a mess of things? I thought
I was in control. A little while later I felt something warm being placed
over me. I looked up and AJ was standing there. He had put a blanket over me.
"Wanna tell me what the hell is going on?" he asked. "Everything is such a
mess AJ" I sobbed. He sat down next to me and got under the blanket. He put
his arm around me and pulled me close. "Your making too much of it babe. Lou
will calm down and everything will be fine. Please don't cry." He is so
sweet, I thought too sweet. Too young. He doesn't understand.
"AJ, in a little while Lou is gonna come looking for me. He is gonna grill me
about Kev and Fatima. What am I gonna tell him? That I've been helping them
get together every night for months on end?? And what about us. I was able to
skit the issue of where I was before, but this time he is not gonna let me
out of it. I cant tell him I was in your room last night. He would fucking
kill me! First of all, you know his policy about the people who work for you
being with one of you guys. That's instant dismissal. So, Fatima will be out
and so will I. Then he will go to your mother about it and my dad. Since you
are a minor, I know he will make a major thing of this." I started to cry
even harder. "There is more to this Eileen. I know how you are with Lou.
What's making you cry?" he asked softy, as his hand brushed through my hair.
"AJ, don't you understand? You and I slept together. That shouldn't have
happened. You are my best friend!" "Hey, friends sometimes need each other.
We both needed each other last night. We've been on the road a long time. We
have no one but each other at times. We are all tired and we want to go home.
We had a moment. It doesn't have to destroy our friendship" he said. I looked
up into his beautiful brown eyes. You could get lost in his eyes. "You
mean.....you don't hate me? You don't think I'm some kind of slut of
something?" I asked. "NEVER!" he said. "We still are and always will be best
friends Eileen. I will always be here when you need me. Neither of us wants a
relationship, do we?" "Baby, you know I love you to death, but you and me
together would be like oil and water" I laughed. "See, then its ok. We are
friends. Friends who fuck" he laughed "and anytime you need me for that or
anything else, you know I will be here" he leaned over and kissed her.
"So there you are!" Eileen and AJ looked up to see Lou standing at the door.
Chapter 5~
"So there you are!" Eileen and AJ looked up to see Lou standing at the door.
Oh Shit! Eileen thought, wondering how much Lou had heard of their
conversation. "AJ" Eileen whispered, "Just go along with whatever I say.
Trust me?" she said looking into his eyes. "I got your back babe" he
whispered back. Eileen stood up walking towards Lou. "Yeah here I am Lou.
What do you want?" she said sarcastically. "I wanna finish our conversation
from before", he bellowed. "Fine with me. Only this time we are doing it my
way. In private. Not in front of Kevin and Fatima or the other guys like
before. I am going to change into some warm clothes and I will meet you in
your room in a half hour for a PRIVATE conversation" she sneered as she
pushed by him. Lou looked over to AJ, who was trying not to laugh at Eileen's
hostility, knowing full well she was scared to death. "So what are you
looking at?" Lou yelled at him. AJ finally let out a hearty laugh. "Pure
perfection Lou. That's what Im looking at." AJ also pushed by Lou and went
downstairs. Lou stood there for a second wondering what mack truck had just
hit him.
Kevin and Fatima were still in the girls room when Eileen got back. "Well Ei,
what happened?" Kevin asked. "Nothing yet" Eileen stated softly. "The
fireworks begin in 30 minutes. Fatima, I dont know what is gonna happen when
I meet with Lou. Just know Im going in there fighting for our jobs, OK?"
Fatima walked over to her. "I know ya will Ei, Im sorry we put you in this
situation in the first place. Do what ya gotta do and say what ya gotta say
and you know I will back you up no matter what" she said. Kevin was pacing
like a caged dog. "Who the hell does he think he is? I am old enough to sleep
with who I want. Its not like its Nick or something like that. Im a grown
man. Well I will tell you girls something right now. Eileen, whatever
happens in that meeting neither of you girls are leaving." he said as he
banged his hand down on the table. "If Lou wants to play games we can too.
The guys and I will not be performing tonight or any other night if he dumps
you two. Im going to speak to them all now." Eileen walked over to him and
gave him a hug. "Kevin, don't do anything you will regret later. I can handle
Lou but you guys are not going to put the group on the line for us. Even if
he gets rid of Tima, it wont stop her from being your girlfriend, and I am
certainly not worth breaking up the group for." She let go of him and brushed
a tear away. "DAMMIT Eileen! I dont wanna hear this shit. You are just as
much a part of this group as anyone else is. You have been with us from the
very beginning and you aren't going anywhere now. I know you have been always
able to handle Lou in the past. I'm just telling you what is going to happen
if you cant handle him this time and that is final." Kevin yelled as he
walked out slamming the door.
Eileen and Fatima just stood looking at each other. Finally Eileen said, "I'd
better go get dressed, Lou is waiting for me." She went into the bathroom to
change. Her hands were shaking. She really didnt know quite why. Was it from
fear of knowing what was about to happen with Lou, or because of what Kevin
just said to her. I cant believe he actually thinks of me as part of the
group, she thought. Sure they hung out and had fun together and stuff, but
she always thought she was just another employee to them. It scared her to
think about how much she had grown to love the guys. Remembering back to what
she first thought of them all, she laughed to herself. But the truth be told,
she did come to love them all very much and the thought of not being with
them anymore scared her to death.
As Eileen came out of the bathroom dressed, she walked into a full room.
Fatima was still there as well as the rest of the the guys. Kevin walked up
to her. "Its settled Eileen. We have all talked and we are ALL in agreement.
Without you and Fatima, we don't perform." She looked around the room at all
the guys. She saw each one nod in agreement at her. "Eileen, you've been a
part of us and you always will be. We will not let you go. You are the best
thing that has happened to the Backstreet Boys and now we have realized that
Lou is probably the worst thing that happened to us. We are a team. Without
you, our team is no longer complete and we wont have it" Howie said looking
into her eyes. "I am completely overwhelmed" was all Eileen could say. Brian
was about to say something, but she put her fingers on his lips to silence
him. "Please don't anyone say anything else right now. You are all gonna make
me cry and I cant go into battle with Lou being a mush. I gotta go now. I
will let you all know what's going on when I can. Just know I love you all."
Eileen quickly walked out to meet Lou.
When she walked into his room, Lou was pacing. Jesus, just like Kevin she
thought. "So you wanted to talk, so talk Lou." She figured she better go in
fighting. "I wanna know just what the hell is going on here!" he yelled.
"Everyone is sleeping with everyone and this group is going to hell in a hand
basket and its all your fault." She wanted so bad to smash him in the face
as she had wished to so many times before. She said to him through gritted
teeth, "First of all Lou, if we are going to talk then you better start
talking and knock off the yelling or this conversation is over. Secondly,
how the fuck does this become MY FAULT? If Kevin and Fatima are having a
relationship, then that is their business and not ours. They are both grown
up consenting adults. As for me, I was a little scared with the storm last
night and stayed with one of the guys. I see no problem with that. That is
also MY business and not yours. I dont see any other problems within the
group so I dont think the situation is as bad as your making it out to be so
why don't you just chill." Eileen had blurted that all out in one breath and
felt like she was gasping for air by the time she was done. "You don't see
any problems? First of all, we have a rule here that the help does not sleep
or have any other relations with the boys or they are out. Fatima knew that
rule full well, so as far as I'm concerned she is out. As for you, Eileen, I
know where you were last night and know what you were doing. I heard far more
than you thought I did on the roof. So therefore, you are out too! AJ is
still a minor for a few more months so THAT young lady could wind you up in
jail if you don't keep your fat little mouth shut. I'm sure Denise would be
real interested in what was going on in AJ's room." Lou grinned at her,
knowing he had her right where he wanted her. "Look Lou, I've known you have
wanted me out for years now, but Fatima has done wonders for the guys. If you
fire her, Kevin will just bring her along as his girlfriend and make sure he
informs the public about it. Then things will be even more a mess. I know
they like each other, but honestly I don't see a long term romance in this
for either of them. Just let her stay Lou" she said much more softly, almost
accepting defeat. She knew what she had said about Kev and Tima was a lie,
but she promised the guys she would do what she could. "Come on Lou, let her
stay. There will be a lot less problems for you in the long run. If you let
her stay, I will go quietly. I will tell my dad I just didn't like traveling
anymore and you did you best to honor his request. Its been years Lou, and he
will accept that." Lou looked at her, wondering what she was up to, she
didn't give up that easy. "Well, I will think about it and let her know in
the morning. That's the best I can do." "Fine Lou, that's fair enough, just
think about what I've said." With that Eileen's cell phone rang. She answered
it and Lou could see right away something was wrong. "Yes, uhhhh huh, how,
when" she clicked off the phone and fell to the floor in tears.
Everyone was sitting around Eileen's room restlessly. "What the hell is
taking so long? Its been an hour already" Nick questioned. Suddenly the door
flew open and in came Eileen. They all jumped up asking what had happened.
Eileen wasn't answering anything. She had pulled out a suitcase and began
throwing things in. She was flying around the room grabbing anything she
could get her hands on. Fatima finally grabbed her by the shoulders, stopping
her. "What the hell is going on Eileen?" "I've gotta go home. What ever I
leave behind pack up and take with you, OK?" Brian ran up to the girls. "What
do you mean you are going home? What the hell happened in there?" Eileen shut
the suitcase and headed to the door. "I will see you guys soon I promise.
Fatima, no matter what Lou says, DO NOT LEAVE the tour until you hear from
me." With that, Eileen walked out the door and gently shut it behind her
leaving everyone in the room staring at each other.
Chapter 6~
With that, Eileen walked out the door and gently shut it behind her
leaving everyone in the room staring at each other. Lou walked in with a
somber look on his face. AJ ran up to him and got right in his face. "What
the fuck did you do to her Lou. She left!" He pushed AJ away from him and
asked everyone to sit down. "I have some bad news to tell you all. The reason
why Eileen left in such a hurry had nothing to do with what went on earlier."
Everyone sat around looking at each other with confused looks on their faces.
They all knew after the talk they had earlier, Eileen must have had a really
important reason for leaving. She looked genuinely touched at their display
of emotions. Lou stood up and started pacing again. "There is no easy way to
say this so I'm just going to say it. While Eileen and I were talking before
she got a call. She went home because there was a terrible tragedy." Lou
stopped for a moment whipping the tears from his eyes. The guys were shocked.
They had never seen big tough Lou cry before. They all had a terrible
feeling. After a few moments Lou recovered enough to continue. "Eileen's
parents were killed in a terrible car accident. That's why she left so
quickly." There was complete silence in the room. No one knew what to say.
They all just looked from one to another tears forming in their eyes. Finally
Kevin stood up and walked to Lou. "So when are we heading back?" "Heading
back?" Lou asked. "For what?" "The funeral Lou. When is our plane home" Kevin
questioned again. "We aren't going home Kevin. You have shows booked we can't
leave." AJ was once again in Lou's face. "I don't give a shit about the
shows. Fuckin cancel them! We need to be with Eileen. We can't let her face
this alone." AJ shouted at Lou. "That's right Lou" Brian and Howie chimed in.
"She needs us as much as we need her" Nick joined in. "Well it isn't going to
happen" Lou simply stated.
Two hours later, the boys, Lou and Fatima were on a plane heading to New
York. Damn them all to hell, Lou thought. This is the last time they are gonna
push me around, telling me they are not going to perform. This little girl is
just causing me way too many problems. I have got to find a way to get rid of
her. Then the thought dawned on him. The end to all his problems. Now that
Eileen's father was gone, he had no further debts to him. Eileen did say in
their last meeting that she would leave if I let Fatima stay. That's it! I
will tell Eileen that Fatima can stay if she honors her agreement with me.
Then I wait a week or two and fire Fatima anyway. Thats perfect! This way I
get rid of both bitches!!
Eileen was in shock when she saw the gang walk up to her on the steps of the
funeral home. "What are you doing here? You have a show tonight in London."
Lou went up to here and gave her a big hug. "He was my best friend" he
whispered in her ear. "Eileen, you've always been there for us and now its
our turn to be here for you" Howie said hugging her tightly. "London can wait
for the Backstreet Boys" Brian said. The rest of the guys joined in for a
group hug. "Why are we outside?" Nick asked. "I haven't had the nerve to go
inside" Eileen said softly. "C'mon honey, we can do this together" Kevin said
taking her hand leading her inside. They went into the room together. Kevin
on her left, AJ on her right. Her knees started to give out as they
approached the double caskets. They were all right there holding her tightly.
Lou hung back watching the "touching scene" before him. She thinks she's got
it tough, wait till I get through with you little girl. He thought. Her
fathers lawyer had taken care of all the arrangements. It was beautiful. Mr.
Haskins approached Eileen and held her tightly in his arms. He had known
Eileen since she was born. "I'm so sorry Eileen. Even though I only worked
for him, we became close over the years and I thought of him like another
brother." Eileen nodded. "I know he cared deeply for you also. He always
spoke of you with great affection too Mr. Haskins." "I hate to bring this up
Eileen, but the day after tomorrow when the funeral is all over I need you to
come to my office to settle your parents affairs." "I'll be there, say
around 10am?" she said. "Sure, whenever is best for you. I will make time for
you whenever."
For the next two days Eileen was in a daze. She went through the wake and the
funeral on autopilot. The guys did what they could for her to offer comfort,
but it didn't seem like enough to them. She didn't eat, and AJ watched her
sit at night staring off into space not sleeping a wink. It had been two days
and she had not slept. AJ was really starting to worry about her.
"C'mon baby, at least lay down" he said from the bed. She had spent the last
2 nights just sitting in the chair staring out the window. She got up and
walked over to the bed. She just looked at it like she was afraid to lay
down. "Its ok, I'm here honey" he said as he held his arms out to her. She
slid into the bed next to him and put her head on his chest. She was afraid
of this moment. The moment when she would finally lose it, but she couldn't
hold it in any more. She laid on his chest and cried her heart out. AJ's
heart broke for her. I couldn't imagine what it would be like to lose my
mother, and here she lost both parents at one time, he thought. He just held
her and let her cry. He gently kissed her forehead from time to time and just
rocked her in his arms.
She sent them back to Europe the day after the funeral. The guys didn't want
to go, but she insisted. "I have to take care of my parents affairs and in a
few days I will join you guys" she insisted. Yeah, not if I have anything to
do with it thought Lou. She stayed with them till there plane took off and
headed to Mr. Haskins office. He warmly greeted her as always. "I hate to
make you go through this so soon Eileen, but your fathers business holdings
are major and we can't take too much time to decide what needs to be done.
He took out their will and began reading it to her. She didn't really
understand what he was telling her. "Can you explain all this in English
now?" Eileen asked. Her head was pounding. "Well Eileen, in a nutshell,
everything is yours" he said matter of factly. "I don't understand anything
about his business" she whispered. What the hell was she going to do? " OK,
Eileen we can leave things running as they are with the people in charge who
have always been in charge. Your father was not involved with all his
businesses. He had people to run them." "Do you know these people Mr.
Haskins? Do you trust them?" "Well they have been with your father for quite
sometime and have always performed in a professional manner. I think it would
be a wise choice unless you would prefer to run them yourself." "NO!" Eileen
shouted. "I don't know anything about them. I just want to keep doing what
I've been doing, traveling with the boys." "Yes I see Eileen, that is another
thing we need to talk about."
That night Eileen showed up at the hotel in London. The guys were surprise to
see her when they got back to the hotel. "When did you get back?" Brian asked
hugging her. "Just before the show started" Eileen smiled as she hugged all
the guys and Fatima. "Why didn't didn't you join us at the venue?" Nick
asked. She laughed a little and said, "I did. I watched you from the audience
for the first time. Do you know how terrific you guys are?" With that, the
door opened and Lou walked in. He was taken aback to see Eileen. "Sweetheart,
what are you doing here?" he asked with a mock concern. "I've come to rejoin
the boys Lou, my fathers affairs were settled in about a half hour so my work
there was done." "Eileen, I thought we had come to an agreement right before
you got the call about your parents" Lou asked nervously. This little bitch
wasn't going to blow his plans now. "Well Lou, we did. But that was then and
this was now" Eileen smiled sweetly. Everyone kept looking between each
other, none of them having any idea what was going on. "You see Lou, its like
this, when you signed the contract with my father to front you the money to
get the Backstreet Boys off and running there was a section of the paragraph
that stated my dad was one half owner in Backstreet Boys Inc. Didn't you read
the whole thing through? So since my parents left everything to me, now I am
one half owner of Backstreet Boys Inc. and I'm not going anywhere and neither
is Fatima." Lou looked like he was about to pass out.
Chapter 7~
"What do you mean 50% owner?" Lou looked like he was going to pass out.
Eileen started to laugh. "What's wrong Lou? Didn't you check that contract
the way you check your own?" Eileen turned towards the guys. "It doesn't
matter to me about the ownership. If you will still have me, I would like to
continue on in my role as your personal assistant. The only difference I can
see is that I get to keep a closer eye on your buddy here and make sure
things are on the up and up" she said as she nodded her head towards Lou.
"Are you insinuating...." "Save it Lou, if you were smart you would keep your
mouth shut cause you know I know too much." The guys were trying very hard
not to laugh. It was great to see someone putting "Big Papa" in his place.
Kevin looked to the other guys and each nodded. "Eileen, we would be thrilled
to have you back with us. We've missed you too much already in the short time
you've been gone" he threw his arms around her and gave her a big hug. Brian
jumped up on the chair and yelled, "Group Hug!" and the guys bombarded Kev
and Eileen. After she finally got them off her, she stood on the same chair
as Brian did earlier and said, "I have one final thing to say" looking
directly at Lou. "Fatima is staying on as our choreographer as well." Eileen
glared at Lou, daring him to say something. He just turned and walked out the
door.
They stayed in Europe for another year. They had finished recording their
second album which was doing as well if not better than the first. The
touring was hectic, and the fans were wild about them. Eileen lay on the
couch in the common livingroom of the suite they were in with her feet up on
the coffee table. Nick sat down next to her pulling her legs across his lap.
He began rubbing her feet and Eileen was in heaven. If the world came to an
end right now, she wouldn't have noticed, this felt so good. "Ei, can I talk
to you about something?" he asked. "Hummmm go ahead Nicky, shoot." "Well the
guys and I have been talking lately, and as much fun as it's been here, we
were wondering when we were going to get to go home to America?" She knew
this subject would be coming up sooner or later and was dreading it. She went
to sit up to speak to him but he wouldn't let go of her feet. Damn, she
thought that feels so wonderful. That boy show knows how to work me to get
what he wants. "Nicky...." she said as she looked up at him to speak. Where
the hell have I been? She thought to her self. When did he grow up so much?
Those eyes.....that beautiful face..... "Eileen? are you ok?" Nick said
shaking her from her thoughts. "Oh yeah Nick, sorry I just spaced for a
minute. He flashed her that infamous Carter smile. STOP! she thought, don't
do that. She tried to continue the conversation with him. "I knew you guys
would be asking that soon. Do you think you will be prepared for that?" she
looked questioningly at him. "What do you mean Ei? It will be great to go
back home." Nick said softly. She knew how much he missed his family. All the
guys did. The guys seemed to sit on the edge of their seats to see where
Eileen was going with this. "It's just that when we head home guys" she said
looking at the rest of them, not being able to stare at Nicks eyes any longer
"things will be very different than you are used to here." Brian walked over
to her, "How do you mean?" he asked. "When we go back to America, you will be
totally unknown again. You will have to start over again. Are you prepared
for going from superstars here to nobody back there?" she asked. She didn't
want to hurt their feelings but she did want them to understand what was
going to happen. "It might be nice to be unknown for a little while Ei" Howie
said. "Don't you worry Eileen, we will be superstars back home too in no
time" AJ smiled. "OK guys, if this is what you really want, I will go speak
to Lou about it." They all nodded in agreement.
"NO" Lou shouted at her. "Lou, its time. They need to go home. Hell, they
want to go home. I've already explained to them about having to start over
again and they are more than willing" Eileen shouted back. "It's just not
time yet" he said again. "Lou, it IS time. If we don't take them back now, we
are gonna lose them. They are tired of being away from home and their family.
They need to get back there. Don't you think they can make it back home?" she
glared at him with her hands on her hips. "Frankly, no. I don't think America
is going to embrace this type of music now. Grunge is the thing. Not pop,
Eileen. If we go home now, they will fall on their faces and it will be
over." "You asshole Lou!" Eileen yelled. "All you think of these guys is a
money making machine. The big money you have gotten used to is here and you
don't care what they guys want, as long as you continue to line your pockets!
Well, I haven't said much in all this time about how you are running things
here, but its time I pulled my rank. I say the Backstreet Boys are going
home. If they fall, then let it be, but God Damn it Lou, I'm taking them home
where they want to be!" With that, the door flew open, and all five guys fell
on the floor. "Ummm, we were just passing by and the door opened?" AJ
laughed. "Is THIS what you really all want?" Lou asked them. They all nodded
up at him from the floor. "FINE! Just say I didn't warn you all. When you
fall on your faces, you can blame HER for ruining your careers" Lou said
pointing his finger at Eileen.
