My life has been a sort of fairy tale. There aren’t many things that I would like to change. I am a mixture of all my past experiences and all the things I hope to accomplish in the future. I think each event that taught me something was well worth the time it took for that event to occur. As long as I learn from incidents, no matter the pain they caused, they were well worth the effort.
Perhaps, if I had a time machine, I would zoom back to those angst filled middle school years or perhaps I would fix my bad hair that accompanied the 80’s and early 90’s. I would take back all of the hurtful things I said to my parents in fits of anger and hostility during my early adolescence. I would live my life for each day instead of living in fear, as I so often have done. I think I would have listened to my friends and family when they told me Brandon was a bad guy. I would not have wasted all my time on Gary. I would have never let Mike leave his house the night before homecoming. I would take back the time of my life when I lived in flannels and black clothes (isn’t 13 fun?). I would never have quit ballet or voice. I would have been more consistent on one hobby and worked to improve myself. I would have spent more time around adults as a child. I would have actually studied math. Most of all, I would have let people know I loved them more. This is my biggest regret of all. When the time comes for my soul to leave this earth, I would hope that people would be happy because they know I am in heaven and that I will always love them and look forward to seeing them and drinking chai on a cloud. I’ll finally have my halo!
Life is a compilation of the many memories of our past and the many aspirations for the future. I have been blessed with excellent examples of both. Life is beautiful.