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Henry Rollins Poetry

Henry Rollins Poetry

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One From None

People get lost
The alarm clock goes off and someone loses his way
All of a sudden five years have passed
Same job
They look at themselves in the mirror
Can't understand where it all went
A dirty underhanded trick
Someone gets lost and destroyed
People walking the streets like dumb animals
Smart enough to be cruel
Handcuffed to the television set
Another beer can opens
The sun goes down on another day
Self-destruction slow and complete
What nasty things we do to ourselves

It's funny
These people try to bum me out
Calling me shit
They're not telling me anything I don't already know
When they talk shit
It's lightweight compared to what I say to myself
They will never be as hard on me as I am on myself
So fuck them
Love me hate me, it's all the same

I am weak
Looking to get stronger
When I open my eyes all the way
It's all there is for me
Kindness is strength
It's easier to close a door, than to keep it open
Hatred is easy
Frustration is life on pause
These are truths that are hard for me to deal with
I learned a lot this year
I think I am stronger than last year
Self-creation is painful
Trying to take my parent's blood out of mine
Trying to stand on my own two feet
Without leaning on someone else
Looking to myself for total strength
To be
One
From
None

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Wrap your skeleton around me
Weld your bones to mine
I need more than regular involvement
I need you to perform a miracle on me
Somehow still the horror inside
Please help me
I don't want to die screaming
I don't know if you can do it
Hold me in a violent grip
Outsmart me
I need something
A vacancy is growing inside me that I can't control
Fuck it
Don't even try
I'll just abuse you
It's all I know
I'm just afraid that I'll hurt you
More than I already have

I've been gone a long time
So long that I forgot I had a face
Forgot that I had a voice that you could hear
When you tell me how much I mean to you
And you want to know how I feel
I see my silence spit in your face
I didn't mean to throw a rock into your reflection
Maybe some things are better left broken and scattered
Veiled in darkness, secret bitterness and self doubt
I should have known better
Than to start something that I couldn't finish
That I couldn't care about
That I couldn't remember starting in the first place
I don't want to know you
You went years without me
You might as well keep on going

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I am a slave to my parents
I am a slave to my horror
I mutilate myself without their help
You can see it in major cities everywhere . . .
I didn't blow it
I did good can't you see
I took the punishment out on the road
I don't need them to fuck me up
I can do it to myself real well now
I have it down to a science
I don't know how I'll end up
I don't want to know anymore
I'm afraid of the nightmare I've become
I live it slickly and darkly
My saliva is black

I'll get the wrong idea
If you're kind to me
I'll start to make things up in my head
I'll think you'll want me
I'll hurt myself trying to please you
It won't be real
It will all be in my head
I won't be able to stop lying to myself
I will cut myself to pieces again and again
I won't feel it
You can watch

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Beautiful stranger
I see you looking at me
Come here please
I want to meet you
Are you alone like me?
Displaced dislocated
Soul's back broken?
No one has looked at me like that for weeks
Blond hair, blue eyes, cautious smile
I see the mad crowd swirling around you
We held hands through that song
Until they tore us apart
I hope they didn't hurt you like they hurt me
Like I hurt myself
After the show I could hardly move
Tired, sweat pouring off me
I tried to get up to find you
It took too long to get through the people at the back
I knew it was futile, I knew you had gone
I went into the hall
It was so empty
Floor littered with plastic cups and trash
You were gone
10 million miles away
I never learned your name
I thought about you as I did two interviews
I kept seeing your face
Now I'm in a hotel room
A dungeon several layers beneath civilisation's crust
I can't sleep
I keep seeing your face
They way you looked at me, so real
I watched you dancing with yourself
It looked like you were in your own world
Hallooed in honeyed hair
Your eyes are glued to mine
Solitude hurts right now
The room is small and getting smaller
Maybe someday I'll meet you
I'll be back if I am not destroyed in the mean time
I'll be back, look for me
I want to know how you taste
How it feels when your body is pressed against mine
P.S.
When that guy threw the cigarette
That landed on my back, stuck and burned
You were the only one that noticed
I could live for years in the way your eyes looked at me
1992 is a couple of hours away
I'm staying in someone's house
I am almost 31
All my stuff is in storage
I am single and plan on staying that way
To appeal to the more tender nature of a woman
Is a total waste of my time
What a joke
Meanest damn people I ever met
I am alone in the world and there's no changing that
My loneliness burns deep within
I don't mind because
I am one from none
My line has never been so clean cut
Death has stripped most of the words from my speech
Talk is a disease
Action is its cure
Death has been walking with me all year
Talking to me in the night
I answer with my insomnia
Paranoia has put a hard shine in my eyes
I mix humour with my fury
Efficiency with my alienation
Beauty with my rage
the rising sun is my silent battle cry
Exhaustion is my victory
Death is that which I measure myself by
I acknowledge no peer or ally
I understand Death as master
And the definition of absolute power
My path is clear and laid out before me
The wind rushes past me
I dream of empty desert landscapes
And proceed forward

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I wish I could meet a woman that could
show me something
One who could make my blood stop screaming

It feels good to kill a mosquito
A female that sucks your blood
Smashed against a wall, legs broken

I want to fall in love with a woman
One who loved me
One who could show me I could trust her
One who showed me
That I don't have to be on my guard all the time

Don't touch me
I'll feel too good
I'll fall apart
The only thing holding me together is my pain

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You are the reason I don't want to die all the time
When I am with you life is worth living
Time away from you in strange and full of pain
When I look into your eyes
I can see how life has savaged you
It's ok if you fall
I will be there to catch you
Anyone that would want to hurt you
Would have to kill me to do it
I will never be able to pound words into lines
To match the velocity of your presence
Please come through the door tonight
It's so lonely and fucked up here
I'm confused and everything's strange
I wish I was just on something
You were the last woman that meant anything to me
I can't stop
I have no defence system
No attitude that sees me through
Sometimes I think I keep getting up everyday
Because there's nothing else to do

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She asked me if I ever felt the desire to be held by a woman.
I didn't say anything.
She thought I was making up my mind and asked me again.
I told her that I wasn't going to answer that.
he said that she should keep her distance from me.
She said that one morning I'll wake up one morning
and find myself very alone.
If we were on a cliff I think I would have pushed her off.
There's nothing I hate more than people handing me lofty statements like they're these all knowing beings with supreme wisdom.
Like they really know me,
like they really know you.
She doesn't know the way I come from.
I said I had to leave,
I would have rather spent the evening watching bugs die.

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So what happens to you when your dreams have been destroyed?
When you have chased cornered and ripped them limb from limb?
When you walk away to a desert inside yourself
I fell into the vacuum of my room
The darkness tortured me
Sucked the air through the cracks in the floor
Time scars my thoughts
I have thought about calling or writing one of you
Trying to reach out and touch one of you
I never get to it
I can't get out of myself
I couldn't find the right words to show you where I am
It used to be terrifying
Talking myself out of shooting myself in the head
Now it's just conversation
The night brings the silence and lies
With which keep myself alive
I hold myself in fragile arms
I'm not strong
I'm a rat holding on one handed to the screen of the drain

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