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Saturday, 22 October 2005
Hope
Hope Hope is a four letter word that people keep tossing at me Like it is something tangible; something I can grasp When in this black hole, this vacuum, hope is sucked dry A life without pain is unattainable; the pain is alive Creeping through my mind like an ivy, blind Pain is the tangible thing that in my life reigns Friday, 21 October 2005 Tuesday, 18 October 2005
Visions of Death
Mood: sad Visions of Death Visions of my death will not cease Thoughts of a knife gleaming in the dim light Thoughts of my life and my never ending plight Madness reigns in my feeble brain Sanity’s realm is pursued in vain Images deadly possess my thoughts Gleaming knife making scarlet marks Death is welcomed; pain has ceased
Posted by un2/artemis at 9:33 PM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:21 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post Monday, 17 October 2005
Yours
Mood: amorous The air just got knocked out of me. With the click of the mouse, You are gone. For how long this time, Will you be there tomorrow Or will I suffer for days? The anxiety of not knowing The anticipation of bliss Come to me love. I’ll do whatever you want. I’ll be whatever you need. I am yours.
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:21 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
Silently
Mood: sad Silently Silently I watch the day Go by in gentle dismay Filled with sorrow without reason Perhaps it is my own heart’s treason Nowhere to turn to relieve my burden So I silently sit watching the day’s curtain Release of the pain is what I desire Rage kindles an internal fire Inside it stays as I wait Silently sitting trying not to break
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:22 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
Fountains
Mood: sad Fountains Visions of fountains red Flowing from wrists of one who’s dead Inside there is no soul Only a void that can’t be made whole Draining the life from one Who is emotionless Death to the one whose life is useless
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:22 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post Sunday, 16 October 2005
The Knot
Mood: sad The Knot The knot is there The hideous knot I can’t bare Bringing its unwelcomed pain Spreading through, corrupting my brain Origin of my depression Stays without invitation What will I do to ease the pain? Drink so much I forget my name Or slice my wrists till blood is flowing Death is knocking and I’m not ignoring Will this be my final day Or will salvation come my way?
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:24 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post Saturday, 15 October 2005
Abandoned
Mood: sad Abandoned You are supposed to be there When I am in pain When the ache in my soul Is more than I can contain You pushed me away I have no where to go Visions of the knife gleaming Visions of red dripping Tears that won’t come Replaced by blood atone
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:25 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post Friday, 14 October 2005
Obsession
Mood: sad Obsession Obsession taking over Bitter-sweet obsession Waiting, always waiting For little bits of heaven Waiting, always waiting To get my fix Hell is where I am When waiting for you Obsession has taken me
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:27 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post Wednesday, 12 October 2005
Unheard
Mood: irritated Unheard Down I go through the spiral Dizzy and alone always alone Wanting to scream Voice unheard Don’t want to be saved Those who would save me Will not hear me Voice unheard
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:26 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
Serrated
Mood: don't ask Serrated Serrated flash of success red No more failed slashes dull I’ve found the method for release Depression and anger will not rule
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:28 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post Tuesday, 11 October 2005
Numb
Numb Where did the numbness go? I do not want the emotions I feel Neither happiness nor depression They only cause confusion With numbness everything is clear Black and white Give me back my icy heart and frozen soul I’ll find solace there
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:28 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
Deal
Mood: irritated Deal This is as good as it gets To cut is to cope To be numb is to feel Meds will not bring me back I don’t want to go This is who I am now So just deal
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:30 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
The Storm
Mood: cheeky The Storm Storm is coming; hear it thunder Lightning strikes; see its wonder Warm wind blasts; I begin to sway Clouds are billowing; no sun’s ray Umbrella opens; protection needed Storm rages; I have ceded Rain gushes; I feel its rhythm The storm is over and the sun has risen.
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:31 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
The Stranger I've Become
Mood: sad Stranger I do not like this stranger that I have become. I know that you don’t either. The person you love doesn’t exist anymore. She is even more of a stranger. At times I am able to play the role By reflecting what I know you want to see. But it takes a lot out of me, And I’ve run out of energy. It’s harder and harder to conjure her. I feel I have no emotion, no hope, no soul. I don’t know why you stay. I won’t blame you for going away. You’re living with an empty shell. You might as well be living in hell. You don’t have to join me.
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:32 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
Satisfaction
Mood: irritated Satisfaction Satisfaction, please come to me. Let me lay satiated in your arms. Instead of always waiting for you With Disappointment as your substitute.
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:45 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
Sanity
Mood: cheeky Sanity Sanity, you elusive devil, Where were you when I need you? Today at work you would Have been quite useful. When my daughter comes home from school, Man, will I need you. But will you come? No, not you. You'll be entertaining someone else.
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:44 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
Irritable
Mood: irritated Irritable I feel the growing electricity of irritability I feel it running down my spine, through my arms, Up my throat, out my tongue I try to hold it in so my lightning does not strike So it just bounces around demolishing all that is good.
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:46 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post
The Fight in Me
The Fight in Me Black wolf chasing me With long fangs of white Dark wolf chasing me To tear my world apart Black wolf chasing me I run with all my might Dark wolf chasing me To tear out my heart Black wolf catches me Too tired to run on Dark wolf catches me The fight in me is done.
Posted by un2/artemis at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 21 October 2005 7:37 AM CDT Post Comment | Permalink | Share This Post Newer | Latest | Older |