So I haven't posted to this in a while. I realize a lot of my posts are negative. So instead of endless babble of the negativity in my life I will pull out the positives I've learned from all that.
I've learned recently that I have to stop putting every guy I've ever liked on a pedestal. I do this and in turn make myself lower and lower. I deserve to be worshiped too! I'm sick of thinking that I dont deserve a good guy. I realized, every guy I've liked, with the exception of my 3 long term relationships, has been scraped from the bottom of the barrel bc I never thought I could do better. I made excuses for them and made myself feel unworthy. I WILL NEVER AGAIN do this. I deserve the best bc I give the best of myself.