Life's obstacles
I feel like I can't tell anyone what's on my mind. I have so much inside of me that even I can't figure it all out. I hate it. People bother me and I can't stand it. I never know when someone is lying anymore or when someone could care less about what's going on in my life. And that's not just with one person, that's with 95% of the people in my life. For some reason, for the past month I have been an absolute mess. Everything feels heavy lately. Whether it's my parents or little odds and ends at school. It's really bringing me down I think. I can't seem to clear everything out of my mind. It feel as though everything is engraved in my heart and mind forever. And like right now, I'm talking to Justin and I don't even know why I am saying the things that I am. They just come out and then I don't know what to say afterwards, because I'm not sure if I really meant it or not. I might have, but then again I don't know if I did or not. Things like that are making me hate myself and are making Justin not like me because of the way my attitude has been. My dad just thinks that every little thing in life is terrible and that he has to take it all out on me. No lie. This is constantly all of the time. It really hurts. Anyway since I am practically typing a book, ;p, I need to stop typing. Until next time I am like this...

hmmm
Mood:  cheeky
howdy! you know...there is this one guy that can tick me off more than anyone but yet i still love him more than anyone! i love you, you big butthead! hint: change=together... ;-) i love you! i know together we can do it. i love you and don't forget that! prove it=no doubts i love you!! keep looking at this to remind yourself please baby?!
I love you!

Pupster!
Mood:  happy
well this week was interesting. yesterday i decided that i wanted to get justin one more Christmas gift, so i was looking on the net for puppies, beagle puppies in particular. well i finally found i good deal...thank goodness! so i called him up and i told him to get his butt down to my house because he needed to pick out his one gift. so i told him what it was eventually and he came down and we picked out a little guy. justin named him Tucker. he is the cutest little booger! hehe ok i ought to get going. later.

lea

Mood:  not sure
its my puppy's birthday! He's six! Happy Birthday Bud! hehe La da dee...

I am sooo bored! I had a very uncomfortable day today. Today my mom and I went to pick up gifts for my cousins..you see, these gifts were ones that their dad had on layaway but he couldn't afford them. He can't even afford to live let alone raise his 3 kids plus the one his oldest is going to give birth to. I started crying today because I just kept thinking, how could something like this happen to someone in my family? You never know how fortunate you are until you see someone that you care about suffering. We are trying to do as much as possible for him and his kids. I mean their mother just left. So they're really in a tight bind. Anyway, i just kinda needed to talk about it. Besides, it is MY blog. haha I guess that'll be all for tonight. I just needed to clear my mind. Nighty night.

Blondes aren't dumb..they're just challenged...
Mood:  silly
A blonde calls her boyfriend and says, "Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how to get it
started."

Her boyfriend asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?"

The blonde says, "According to the picture on the box, it's a tiger."

Her boyfriend decides to go over and help with the puzzle. She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table.

He studies the pieces for a moment, then looks at the box, then turns to her and says, "First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a tiger."

He takes her hand and says, "Second, I want you to relax.
Let's have a nice cup of tea, and then....." he sighed, " let's put all these Frosted Flakes back in the box".

The speed of love
Mood:  happy
I never thought I could fall in love with a stranger,
How did it ever happen this way?
One look is all it took.
Something snapped in me like a broken hook,
Yet not so broken or sharp,
Just a love that overcame me like the presence of a delicate harp.
Strange I thought.
A love more delicate than a soft song from a harp?
Overcoming one so obviously timid and shy?
Why me?
Why him?
Why at that very moment did I feel the only love that I wasn’t born in to?
Soon those answers weren’t so hard to find.
For the first time I have a love inscribed in this doubtful mind.
A magical blessed love that one must experience to describe.
That love is that of which I have found within the heart of another.
This person’s love is more wonderful than any other.

I Love You Justin!

hAhAhA
Mood:  silly
Ok, I know I'm not alone when I say "I love when I hear funny sayings that crack me up!" Ok ok ok, so here's one of those sayings:

-Mopeds are like fat girls,
they're fun till your friends see you riding one.-

hahaha alright, so I may be the only person who thinks that's funny :p

One of those....
Ok, so I know everyone has just had one of those days, heck sometimes even one of those couple of days...at least thats what I thought I was going to have. Starting last thursday, I thought for sure that my whole spring break was just going to be rainy and blah, except for the only thing that makes my days bright..Justin. It turned out that Thursday was pretty boring. I mean I had nothing to do what so ever! Friday was a little better; I went and got my hair done and it was a so-so relaxing day. Justin came over later that night which started to brighten everything up. Saturday came and was a lazy day for the both of us. Watching tv and just lazin' around. hehe We went that night to see the Ring 2. I didn't think it was too bad although it wasn't quite as good as the first. And then there was Easter Sunday! We had made plans to go over to his grandparents house for lunch, which meant we'd have to leave my house around 11. Well a lot of people know how late I always am, I didn't want to make that impression again..so yay(!) I was ready to go by 11 and we were even early! I was proud of myself! hehehe These were his dad's parents, and they are just the sweetest people. Then again, all of his grandparents are! So anyhoo, we had the best dinner there and man, I thought for sure afterwards that my gut was going to pop my pants! lol Once we left there, something hit me to go visit my grandmother. She was home alone and no one was coming to visit her on Easter. So we were drivin' along, singin' a song, doo dah doo dah! Oops, got sidetracked...haha So we were just driving along and I decided to stop and get her some flowers and take them out to her and visit a little bit. Which I am so happy we did just that. It ended up making her whole day and mine as well just knowing her day was brightened :D Once we got home, we ate once again!! Oh my goodness! Thank god it wasn't as big as his grandparents, or I think I would've for sure dropped over and burst! geesh! Those darn holiday traditions anyway! hehe And as today, Monday, is coming to an end, it turns out that this was one of my better spring breaks that I've had. It was Justin and I's first Easter being together, which made everything go that much better, ;-D, and besides everyday being ugly and dreary, it wasn't bad at all!

I hope you all had a wonderful Easter and ate plenty of foods that made your stomach hurt! :p

Take care

Lea

true love!
Mood:  happy
oh man! i am in love! yes, i am! ok so some guy stole my heart and won't give it back! hehehe i am NOT complaining! I took his heart too. Some who are going to read this will think some things as to how i know this and how i can feel this way this young, but i do! The saying is that "you just know!" and we do "just know"! there is not a negative thought in either of our minds! Justin is my best friend and the guy that is responsible for taking control of my heart! ;) DOn't get me wrong, i have great great friends..you know who you guys are...that i would consider one of you one of my greatest friends, but Justin is the ONLY person in this entire world that understands me, that i can trust with all of my heart and soul, and he is the only guy that i will ever love! i just had to post all of this because i have to let everyone know just how great he is! he would do anything for me and i would do anything for him! we have so much in common, we are truly going to be together for a long long long long long long long, infinity time!there is just something just so wonderful and spectacular and special and warm about him that the only word that fits this description is LOVE! he makes me feel all warm inside and he also makes me feel comfortable when i am with him, and he make me feel good about myself!..ok ok ok, you all are prbably tired of reading all of this, but no worries, i will be back soon to talk more! i gotta go so i can get all clean and hit the hay...night all and take care!
Lee-a

Happy (late) V-Day!
Well happy vday! yeah i know i'm just a little late, but better late than never right? hehe anyhoos, i went with justin last night up to Ski Roundtop, and i have to say we had a blast! besides the fact that i have absolutely no sense of balance what so freakin ever! the ice and i are big enemies let me tell you! oh and i also flew off of my innertube...on my stomach! i was having an a-duh moment and didn't think to let go of the tube in front of me so i ended up getting dragged right along down the hill...ouch!!! oh and a BIG tip of advice: wear proper snow clothes, or you are gonna get your big booty soaked! trust me, it's not comfortable! so i better be goin now, i have some work i gotta do. take care

Lea