On
the "Quarter-Life Crisis"
They
call it the "quarter-life crisis." It is when you stop going along
with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and
wonder where you will be in a year or two but then get hot and scared because
you barely know where you are now.
You
start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends
that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you
have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most
important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and
are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused
as you are.
You
look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be
doing, or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have
to start at the bottom and are scared.
You
miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same
people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so
great after all.
You
are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find
yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you
have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is
acceptable and what is not.
You
are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force
of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the
enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that
the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but
stay where you are or move forward.
You
get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you, or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent
enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too
and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One-night stands and random hookups start to look cheap, and getting wasted and
acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You
go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with
your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You wonder what in the hell is wrong with you.
You
worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself
and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a
contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it and we are all in this together. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. We are making a lot of mistakes, but helping one another learn from them and reaching out to pull one another up. We are not the shiniest group of people, but we are a very much a circle. We are there for one another, and will listen and help heal and grow for the rest of our lives. We will piss one another off, but we will also heal one another's hearts. We are the group who will always call on birthdays and laugh at the end of a conversation that started with angry words. We are a group that talks trash about the same people we call to meet up with on a Friday night, but we are sorry about it and we know that they know that we were just being insecure like they have been. We are friends, and in 10 years, when we have figured out where we fit in in this world, we will still be friends always and forever!
~
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