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28 january 2004, 1252the human conditionim easily driven insane when she comes home on her lunch break. the incentive intensifies, . . .
im quickly growing tired of people - at least, their behaviour. few seem to thrill me, so again ill adjust the focus. seems easier to accomplish more when there are less distractions.
getting on here less and less; now it seems almost comical those that live their lives by this machine. while its nice to talk to others on occasion, it is no substitute for life. ive known those that confuse the two greatly; in the past id ashamedly been one of them, though thankfully no longer. 'tis piteous . . .
in other 'news,' the ball is rolling. id elaborate, but im sure youll see where ive gone eventually. im taking action and finally approaching my goals of my own volition and determination instead of being confined to a bloody keyboard.
the most important thing im gaining is happiness with myself, which ive been setting my sights on for ages. the things that seemed programmed into my behaviour arent so difficult to change as id thought theyd be.
im living - tis intrinsically a gift.
12 january 2004, 1127always lied tothis machine has cost me more than id realised;
time for a renovation.
i have spent much time and energy on people who do not deserve either. i had dismissed my goals too easily; its time i finally achieved them.
the most important advice i could give:
feel.yah, thats enough for one day.
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