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Do you ever get tired of it all? Yes. But then I realize that I don't really need it all and I give some of it to other people. People around me so that it can make them tired. They usually have enough of it all, but I like to dump it all on other people anyway.
Do you usually partake in rituals of a pagan of satanic nature? Ok, you can't really use pagan and satanic in a sentence that creates the assumption that they're one and the same. Because they're not.
Oh. Right sorry. Well do you? No.
Ok. When you drink alcoholic beverages do you prefer fruity drinks or the hard liquor stuff that burns your throat as it goes down and then eats away at your liver? I like fruity stuff because I'm a pussy and it only takes me one sex on the beach to get buzzed and two to be trashed. I'm a cheap date. I think that's why people like buying me drinks. Because then they feel like they're doing something for the good of mankind without spending much money at all. And it's good for mankind because I'm an amusing drunk.
So you drink a lot? No. I hate drinking. I'd rather sit in my room and stare out the window than drink with a bunch of blubbering idiots who are too busy flirting with anything that has a dick they can fuck later on it the night. No. I like to dance though.
Me too. Do you like Jay Z? I used to. But that whole duo thing with Beyonce was just too much for me. I couldn't handle him after that. And when Eminem thanked him at the Grammy's, that was too much too.
You don't like Eminem? I respect him as a white guy doing the best he can. I've been to Detroit. It really is a city of extremes. Paradoxical extremes like a Petrarchan sonnet. Black. White.
I see. You seem to know a lot about current affairs of the stars. Do you read a lot of trash? No. I read a lot of good literature. I just happened to watch the Grammy's because I was bored. And well ya. That's about it. I hate popularity. That's why I have few friends. Having a lot of friends isn't all it's cracked up to be. I'm an existentialist. Friend's aren't my bag. I'm gonna die. So are you. Want to be friends?
Sure. Do you enjoy politics? I enjoy listening to people talk about politics. Myself Ė no. I don't really understand politics much. I'm more into small nuances within the human species. Maybe I should take anthropology. But I'd rather not learn the terms and just continue amusing myself with discovering what people do when they think no one is watching and - hey did you know that 4 out of 5 people driving in a car by themselves in traffic will likely be picking their nose? It's true, I've tested this theory myself. Do you ever people watch?
People watch? Yea, ya know, watch people as they go about their business. Watch how they play with their hair. Watch how they pick goo out of their ear and absentmindedly examine it. Watch them trip on cracks in the sidewalk. Watch them talk in silence?
Oh, no I don't think I do. Well you should.
OK, Iíll try it next time. Next time what?
Next time I get to it. Right.
Anyway. Do you always have conversations with yourself? Yes. And before I talk to people, I have conversations with them in my head. It frequently ruins the actual conversation because I get frustrated when it doesn't go the same way it was going in my head. It also usually prohibits me from even talking to people at all because the personality I have created for them in my head is so beautiful that I don't want to ruin it. I'm schizotypal.
What's that mean? It's a pervasive pattern of social and interpersonal deficits marked by acute discomfort with, and reduced capacity for, close relationships as well as by cognitive or perceptual distortions and eccentricities of behavior, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts.
Right...I want to avoid being influenced by anyone. It doesn't work usually. I'm also highly dependant. And anti-social.
How often do you enjoy the company of others? Rarely. If ever. People bore me. Well interaction with people bores me. I'd rather interact with art. I have this amazing idea that hugs should be freely given at first encounters. Imagine the boundaries broken? I like listening. I like listening to the crazy stories people concoct in order to make themselves seem magical. I believe everything is a miracle. I once owned a three-legged cat. But people aren't cats. People have high standards and low morals. They put a price on love and beauty. They buy freedoms and rights. People are too dirty. In their souls. I like touching people. I don't like feeling people. Do you see the difference?
I think so. I don't do well in intimate relationships. Not because I don't want them, but because I can't keep them. Or perhaps they can't keep me. Yes. I once almost died ya know. Twice actually. Once in a toy box. Once on a road. I want to die when I'm old. Do you see how fantastical this all is?
Yes I do. Good. Why is that?
Because you're frustrated. You can't discover yourself while drowning in everyone else. Do you like to watch suns set over water? Yes I do.
That's why you're the way you are. You've lost all sense of reason. You've lost all sense of who you are. You've lost all reason to be who you are. I love you. I love you. I feel I really know you, like how I know everyone else in this world.
Thatís cool. We could be soul mates.
That would be even better. We could die together.
God. I hope so.