Numbness
Mood:  hug me
It's stranege, this feeling a kind of emotional numbness, like being totally invisible to everybody even when you're standing right in front of them. They dont really care, not many of them at least, not necessarily about me as a person I know people that do care about that but about the things I do, my life that is not revolved around my physical being!

I have very little confidence in my abilities at anything and so when I have done something, a piece of writing or a picture for instance, I will show very few people because im afraid of ridicule. I would love to show so many people and not be embarassed about the low quality of the things I produce because they make me happy when I do them so it shouldnt matter really what other people think. But I know too many people who can produce such outstanding work that I feel so inadequate around them and what I do is left ignored in the corner. For so long I havent wanted to do anything like this because no one is interested in what I have to produce, why should I bother? no one cares so is there really any point in my trying? Just save me the embarassment and i'll quit before I start.