December Never Came
I heard the news today,
they say you’ve left me behind.
I just can’t believe that I missed the sign.
I heard the news today,
then crumbled as I cried out your name.
I asked myself over why you said you would but never came.
I heard the news today,
then I walked through my life in a daze.
I wondered how you could give in to this phase.
I heard the news today,
they say you couldn’t bare the shame.
It made me search but I noticed December never came.
Four months have passed,
the horror is still not real.
I look back upon the day they buried you knowing I am not healed.
Four months have passed,
I still wish I had stayed at your side.
I still ask myself why you left me behind.
Four months have passed,
I question if you watched my shame.
I still crumple to the floor crying out your name.
Four months have passed,
I wish you where here when I had this pain.
I still cry myself to sleep at night telling myself December never came.
It’s been eight months now,
the time has healed my heart.
I listen to a song wondering if you seen my life fall apart.
It’s been eight months now,
I still have yet to forget.
In regards to you I still have so much to regret.
It’s been eight months now,
I still cry when I think of you.
I wonder where I failed you when you where like me and this I knew.
It’s been eight months now,
I hold your memory but it’s not the same.
I try to not cry in the day while telling myself December never came.
A year has now passed,
I still have your pictures saved.
I still wonder what happened when so much you gave.
A year has now passed,
your anniversary draws ever near.
I still have your memorial on my car visor to see clear.
A year has now passed,
each day I wonder why you left me here.
I still talk to you when no one can hear.
A year has now passed,
as I curse God’s name.
I cry when I think of you and pretend December never came.
More then a year has gone,
I finally am able to smile.
I wonder if you saw my life of trial.
More then a year has gone,
I am stronger this I vow.
I wonder if you seen me fight for my life I have now.
More then a year has gone,
he tried to take my little girl.
I wonder if you knew how sick I was after I lost my whole world.
More then a year has gone,
even though I lived I’m maimed.
Though I still wonder why December never came.