'A Place In My Soul for My Dear Friend'

'What we call the beginning is often the end.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
The end is where we start from'

'My Dear Friend,
I Want to Thank You for all The Good times We've shared , The long gab sessions we've endured, The lonely nights we spent crying, The horror stories we shared of our children growing up.
Sean, Time is going by so slowly today as it does everyday.
I plan on adding my thoughts to this along the way as the picture comes clearer..
My sweet Iam so sorry for not hearing what you were saying to me,
Iam sorry for not holding you up when I should have, I am so sorry that I could not tell you how much I loved you. It hurts everyday to know I missed what could have been more than my best friend.I hope you are smiling and now realize how much you have meant to me over the years, and please know..
Sean yes I do love you dearly & I always will.My heart aches to hear your voice and laughter, the sorrow I feel for you is starting to heal slowly. Today is another day in the begining of fall, You are so sadly missed.. I want you to know I do keep in touch with your mom best I can.
But you already know that don't you. I am healing somewhat , I'm coming to an understanding, I will always Love you My friend. Always.
Not a day goes by that I don't miss you. So many things I want to share with you, knowing I can't. But Your watching us all now, Our mother hen, taking care of his flock. I hope the pain doesnot exist where you are now. I hope you know missing you is hardest of all for everyone now. I love you so so much!! One day I will be ok.
Until then I will keep you safe in my heart
where you have always been since the first time I heard your voice.
All this and more I will greatly miss, Above all I will miss all of you, My Friend.
As you take your final journey higher,
remember our faces., Remeber how much love we have for you always.
I will see you when my time comes, My arms will be open and waiting as they are now,
FOREVER My Friend!