Anyone working on healing from childhood trauma
incest, sexual abuse, physical abuse, psychological abuse
loss of parents at an early age
or any other childhood trauma
you are welcome to submit your own healing words
I pray that reading these will help others to heal

Games

"Let's play a game."
"Okay what do I do?"
"First you.........."

No more games,
You will not hurt me anymore.
I am not a toy,
I am not your toy.

So many times I idolized you,
You were my big brother.
I loved you so much,
You were my protector.

Who will protect me
From my protector?
I will! You will not hurt me anymore
I won't let you.

Am I still playing your games,
Is that why I don't hate you.
You are still my brother,
Though no longer my hero.

Playing your games,
Was no different than playing tag
I did not know I shouldn't touch you there,
Or do those things we did.

Why, brother?
I thought you loved me.
I was your little sister,
Your flesh and blood.
Copyright ©2003 Nnyl Yma

WHY??

Why did you do this?
Why do I feel this way?
Why does it hurt me?
Why do I act like nothing ever happend?
Why can't I tell you?
Why do I feel it will hurt you?
Why do I care if it hurts you while I sit in silence and pain?
Why am I not normal?
Why does nothing make sense?
Why can't I imagine pure happiness?
Why did you hurt me?
Why, didn't I do anything to you?
Why can't I sleep at night?
Why does this haunt me all night?
Why does this affect my only chance of happiness?
Why do I hate myself?
Why don't I hate you?
Why can't I hate you?
Why can I not make you suffer like me?
Why do I want you to suffer like me? Why, did someone do this to you?
Why do I have to suffer for their mistakes?
Why? Why? Why?
Copyright ©2003 Nnyl Yma

Sisters

Sisters, a very powerful relationship between two girls.
You took that away from me, it is not sacred any longer.
I have hated you for as long as I can remember,
Never understanding why.

Now I know,
You took my love, my trust, my innocence.
It was done to you and you took your anger,
Your pain and you pushed it on me.

I will never forgive you,
For you stole me, and took me for yourself.
You used your influence and asked me to do things,
You knew those things were not for sisters.

The evil cycle consumed you,
It will no longer take over my life.
Whether or not you help me now,
I will survive.

Nobody, not even you,
Has been able to stop me from doing what I want.
And I want this,
I need this.

Because of you I questioned things.
Things that I know aren't true.
You made me feel something I am not.
I was only a toy, when he was gone.

As you take your steps into motherhood,
I hope you realize the events a young child endures,
Can and will hurt them for life.
Protect your baby, as you never did me.
Copyright ©2003 Nnyl Yma

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For Better or Worse

You are the man I love.
You love me.
Though you do not understand
all I think and feel, you care.
One day, we will live in pure happiness.
My loving husband please try to believe,
That I am trying.
I will not yell and scream, soon.
You comfort me the best you know how.
Your childhood though not as painful as mine,
Was not perfect,
For it lacked many hugs.
But please loving husband, try.
I am not always the best wife,
But I love you,
And I am doing the best I can,
To heal and reach my fullest potential.
We will struggle for many years,
To have a peacful life,
And it will pay off one day.
You'll see, be patient.
Always remember the vow we took,
For better or worse.......

Copyright ©2003 Nnyl Yma

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