Misdirection
I wanted so badly to not be alone –
To find my perfect love,
The one my God had promised me.
I longed for my happily ever after.
I never doubted he was out there.
I knew my God would deliver.
But how much longer must I wait?
What if I missed the signs?
Instead of listening, I searched.
Instead of finding the one,
I found one who would do.
I made myself believe you would change.
I’d never really find perfect anyway –
You were close enough,
Right...?
Now my heart is breaking.
By not listening to what is True,
I have drawn away from that
Which I once faithfully followed.
I don’t regret the love I’ve given,
I only wish it didn’t have to end like this.
I’ve given you a part of myself –
Something you can never return
We’ve become so close
Saying goodbye will never have been so tough.
I fear you will not understand.
Hurting another has never hurt so much.
My heart would not be as broken
If I could just absorb your pain.
Please forgive me…
