life with chris is hard, but i could never live without him. i didn't write the stuff that follows, but it's so painfully true, i had to include it.
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I am a military girlfriend. I hold no formal recognition with the powers that be. I am at the bottom of the chain. I hold no Military ID card, I am not a “dependent” or a parent. The man I love may face unspeakable dangers, and I am at the mercy of those who possess this recognition for news. I understand this and accept this.
I am a military girlfriend. I have promised to be here for him upon his return, no matter how long he is away. People may say I am insane for making such a commitment with no guarantees, but I hold onto our promises and have faith that he will come home safe to me. I know full well that my love for him fuels him in the worst of times.
I am a military girlfriend, there is no ring on my finger that symbolizes our commitment. I hope every day that he will be able to call because a simple 30-second phone call can bring the greatest spectrum of emotions… smiling with tears in my eyes from so much joy and pain. My relationship is based on a brief communication where “I love you and I’m okay” speaks more than volumes and gives me the strength to keep going.
I am a military girlfriend. I take no moment spent together for granted. I hold onto every touch, caress, kiss, every word. I have memorized the feel of his skin, his smell, the sound of his voice, and I play it over and over in my mind so that I will not forget. I cry myself to sleep some nights because missing him hurts so badly, but wake up the next morning, brush myself off, and start a new day.
I am a military girlfriend. The events of the next several months hold my life, my love, and my future in the balance. When you watch the news reports, you may turn away and go about your business relatively unaffected. When I watch news stories of the war, I do not see nameless soldiers a half a world away. I see individuals who will be forever changed by war. News of every casualty causes me physical pain and deep sadness, and tears beyond my control.
I am a military girlfriend, not a spouse or family member. When you say your prayers for the wives, mothers, and fathers, please don’t forget about me.
My opinions on the war in Iraq...
|prayers for our soldiers
"God bless my Soldier, and keep him safe for me,
Whether in the air, on land or on the sea.
God bless my Soldier, and bring him safely home,
Guide my letters to him, so he won't feel alone.
God bless my Soldier when I'm not by his side;
Please let him know I love him and let him feel my pride.
And when he does come home, and the days get better;
I'll always thank you, God, for blessing my Soldier."
"Give me the greatness of heart to see,
The difference between duty and his love for me.
Give me the understanding so that I may know,
When duty calls him, he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
To fill the time when he's away.
When he's in a foreign land,
Keep him safe in your loving hand." - Unknown
You are stuggling...
I see it,
I feel it,
I hurt for you.
But I must tell you, dear friend,
I believe with all my heart
that you will emerge
somehow wiser, stronger,
and more aware.
Hold on to that thought,
tuck it away in a
corner of your heart
until the hurt melts enough
for the learning to have
[ ‘A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning’ by John Donne ]
'When I'm with you, I lose myself, but without you, I find myself longing to be lost again.' -Unknown
'The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.' -Dolly Parton
I'm proud of you,
and I may not show it,
or say it enough.
But it's part of what I mean
when I tell you
"I love you"
'I always knew I'd look back at the sad times and laugh--I never thought I'd look back at the happy times and cry.'
'The course of true love never did run smooth.' -William Shakespeare
'If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with'
'If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.'
'Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.' - Oscar Wilde
'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.' Proverbs 3:5-6
'Even the biggest waves won't drag you under if you know how to swim.'
On the ideal wife--'She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.' Proverbs 31:25
'Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great.'
Christmas through Santa's eyes
(This will make you cry)
A new perspective
Pictures that will never make the news
But I'm learning...
'I must be large enough to say, 'I understand,' when I don't, and to say 'I love you,' regardless.'
'Often the only "good" part in "good-bye" is the "hello again."'
in case you were wondering, i'm working on a page with chris and my story. check it out here:
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