The holidays are here again. So many without Kevin here with us. I still see him as a small, blonde haired boy, A huge smile on his face, his beautiful eyes glowing. Oh how he loved Christmas. He wanted our tree put up the day after Thanksgiving, with all the lights, The entire house glowing. He loved it. He would always go and count his gifts, but he also would wrap gifts for each of us from him. He loved shopping for gifts for his Dad and I and all the family. As we opened the gifts from him, He would be watching and just beaming, always so proud Of his selections. Kevin, I miss you so much baby boy. The holidays will never be the same again. And in our house, there will always be "that empty chair", but, we do know for certain, that as the season approaches, you are so busy up in Heaven. You will be at the biggest and best party of all. You're spending Christmas with Jesus! Lord Jesus, since I can't be there right now to hug my baby boy in person, Would you please give him a big hug for me!~ The song playing on this page is "Christmas in Dixie", by Alabama. Kevin and I were driving to Colorado in 1985 in December when this song came on the radio. It was the first time either of us had heard it. Kevin said, "Man, I like that song." I told him I did too. After that, every time we heard this song, We would look at each other and smile and say how much we liked the song.. If I could have one wish granted to me, I would wish with all my heart to have one more holiday with Kevin. But, then I know that just one more would never be enough. It would always leave me wanting and wishing for One more.... So, Lord, if you're listening, please just let him smile down on us and know how very much we love and miss him.... And Lord, please help me because I don't know how to live without my Kevin. I have a big hole in my heart, a big part of me is missing.... I have lost my joy for life. I think I will spend the rest of my life here on earth trying to find a way to say good-bye to my Kevin. And I know I will never find the way to do it. Lord on this, the first holiday season without my mom, please give her a hug for me. I miss her so. And Lord, I'm sure missing Jodie. Please give her a hug for me too and tell her I love her too... I want to thank my dear friend Judy Reed, Heidi's mom, for the picture at the top of this page of Kevin. It is a beautiful tribute to my Kevin, and to the beautiful work Judy does in memory of her daughter, Heidi Reed. I want to thank my dear friend Susie Dunn for the second picture of Kevin on this page. Susie makes gifts for all of us moms every holiday season in memory of her son, Jason. Susie you do such beautiful graphics. Thank you so much. Thank you Judy and Susie for your friendship to me all these years.. I love you both..