Dream of: 02 April 1998 "Groundhog Day"
I had started re-living the same day over and over. The mechanics of the process were still unclear to me and I discovered that I was confused about certain aspects. At first I thought when I woke up in the mornings, I would be in the same place where I had gone to sleep the night before, and that I would be able to re-live the day starting from a different place each time. But gradually I came to realize that I would always be waking up in exactly the same place,
I began comparing what was happening to me to what happened to the actor Bill Murray in the movie Groundhog Day. I knew that in that movie, Murray had also lived the same day over and over. Now I began to understand more clearly what was happening to me. At first I thought that whatever I did on one day would affect what would happen on subsequent days. But now I saw more clearly that such wasn't the case. Everything stayed the same — everything that is except I. I would continue to change from day to day. Thus it now became clearer to me how, just as Murray had done, I could become proficient in some art, learning more every day, retaining the knowledge, even though I was reliving the same day over and over.
Of course I saw the disadvantage of all this. I would be trapped in one place. I could never go more than a day's journey away from where I woke up, because when I went to sleep I would always end up back in the same place the following morning. But I would just try to make the best of things. I might start by trying on different wardrobes every day. I could try out wild and bizarre wardrobes to startle people. The next day no one would remember and I could try out something new. It would be interesting to see what people thought of one wardrobe without their being able to remember the wardrobe the next day. I could see quite a few advantages to re-living the same day and thought I might actually end up liking it.
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