Dream of:
28 May 1990 "Needing Gas"Numerous old, classic cars were parked all around the
House in Patriot, I saw. I remembered having heard that a classic auto show was going to be held and I concluded the cars must be part of it. Some other intriguing classic cars were driven by; all looked as if they were probably from the 1940s and all sported attractive paint jobs. All cars had price tags in their windows, most in the range of $600. I realized those must have been the original prices of the cars and not what they were selling for now.***
Carolina and I were inside the House, in a room filled with blue water. Some of the walls of the room were missing so the water was flowing in from outside, through the room, and then back out. Carolina stayed on one side of the room while I explored another side. I was uncertain we were actually supposed to be in the water. It vaguely seemed as if the House were part of a government agency and government officials would soon be gathering here.
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My father was in one room of the House. I looked around a corner and could see part of him sitting in a chair. I didn't want him to see me because it seemed as if he were always angry with me, and he would want to fight with me about something. In fact, now that I knew he was here, I just wanted to leave and go to the Gallia County Farm. But I remembered that when I had arrived here, my car had been almost out of gas, and I didn't know if I had any gas left. I also knew today was a holiday and the gas stations would be closed. The nearest gas station was quite some distance from the House, and if it were closed when I reached it, I would probably run out. Since Carolina would be with me, she and I would then have to start walking down the road. So leaving now seemed too risky. Maybe I could call the gas station first. Or maybe I still had enough gas to drive all the way to the Farm. My step-grandfather Clarence had a large gas tank on the Farm with gas in it. Perhaps he could give me the key to the gas tank. But I knew he didn't like to do that and I didn't want to ask him.
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Clarence and my grandmother Mabel were at the House in Patriot. I spoke either with them or with someone else about my step-aunt Lou's children, and I was told that all Lou's children had AIDS. I was surprised. I remembered when the AIDS epidemic had first broken out. I had been staying on the Farm at that time and had heard Clarence talk about what an awful thing it was. And now his grandchildren had it. It must be terrible for him.
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As I was sitting down, I found an ivory-colored object which I picked up and examined. After a while I realized the object was part of one of my teeth. Examining it more closely, I saw that it was the enamel of a whole side of one of my teeth. I wondered which tooth the enamel belonged to. The longer I held it, the more it grew until it was perhaps 30 centimeters in length. And it was no longer solid, but consisted of a series of lines. It opened up so it was like a box which had fit over the tooth. When I closed it, I thought I would keep it and perhaps fit it somehow into a
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