Dream of:
28 July 1983 "War Of The Worlds"Louise and I were walking toward my home and we decided to jog the rest of the way. When we had a little argument, I decided to run ahead and let her follow.
I ran ahead, reached my place and went in. I was living in a shabby place on the third floor of an apartment building. I had only been living here a few days and Louise had never been here.
I threw a blanket over a heater in the room.
I waited a while and when Louise didn't show up, I became concerned that something might have happened to her. At the same time, since I knew she had been angry, I half expected her not to show up. I walked outside and down the stairs, intending to run back and see if I could find her, but then I saw a pay phone on a wall and I picked up the receiver. I pulled a quarter from my pocket, put it in and dialed Louise's number.
The phone didn't ring, but I thought I heard someone on the other end. I was unsure and said, "Louise?"
Louise answered and said, "What are you doing on here? I'm not going to talk to you. Its over between us. Just leave me alone."
I said, "Well, you know I'm calling you because you were supposed to come up. You were supposed to come over to my place. Don't you remember? You know how you do sometimes. You tell me that you're going to show up and then you don't show up."
When she didn't respond, I realized she had been talking to someone else who was still on the line. Somehow I had cut in without the phone even ringing. I asked, "Who are you talking to?"
She told me it was none of my business and told the other person on the line to be quiet. Finally she mentioned the name John to that person, and I realized she was talking to a man named John. That upset me. I thought it was Sherwood (a law student), but was unsure.
Finally I said, "Well, Louise, if you don't want to see me anymore, that's fine. And I'll just go on."
My voice cracked and I added, "If you change your mind and decide that you want to talk with me, I'll be there waiting for you to call."
I hung up and went back up to my place still wondering who the fellow had been. I thought it might have been Sherwood, but was unsure.
I took off all my clothes. All the windows had curtains, so no one could see my nudity. My brown robe was lying nearby; I thought I would put it on.
I turned the television on; the movie War of the Worlds was just beginning; I thought I would probably watch it.
The blanket was still lying on the heater; I removed it before it caught fire. I realized how close I had come to catching the place on fire; how awful it would have been to have returned and found my place burning up.
I could hear music playing somewhere. I put my ear to the floor and realized the people downstairs were playing music. I thought they were a rowdy bunch. I could probably go down and smoke marijuana with them if I wanted to, but I decided I definitely didn't want to do that. That certainly wouldn't help anything at this point.
I began thinking I should have said to the guy on the phone, "Look, I'm going to find out who you are anyway. You might as well tell me. I see that Louise already has you well trained so that all she has to do is tell you what to do and you're going to do it. That's the kind of person she likes."
How stupid I had been. If I simply hadn't opened my mouth, I could have listened to what Louise had been saying to the other fellow and not only have found out who he was, but also what Louise was really thinking about me.
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