Balloon As I lay here in bed I think of what you said My mind drifts like a big balloon back to you way to soon I dream by the light of the moon and watch the rain pour down from the clouds Just as the pain pours from my heart What I'd give for a new start or to be back in your arms Those arms that always held me when I was low and encouraged me to go I've gone to far I've wandered to far I need you to show me the way back to where I belong I need you take me back home. Cage you put me in this cage and threw away the key you say I'm crazy I can't handle reality Will you ever learn? I must suffer because of your mistakes You can sit back and enjoy life when I'm not there If I leave, you don't care just give a glare If you didn't want me then why am I here? You use me as your slave You keep me near unless i shed a tear then you push me away but ask me to stay I cannot live with this confusion I cannot pay for your mistakes you will pay and I will fly away You will pay for what you have done for all eternity you will burn in hell as I sit above you and feel no sorrow I have no shame I have no pity your life will not be the same but mine will be great once again Song to a Heroin Addict One more shot he packs it tight shoots it up strong and white He sits alone in black so long Electric guitar he picks a song Metal on metal so strung out Long dark hair He flings it about The pain revives me so sato am I His tears get me drunk His blood gets me high Acoustics of glass The walls give all back I play out my anger Which gives me no slack and now in this prison I beat at my mind Hoping for peace But nothing I find.... Weed Sometimes weed is great for a high You forget all your worries You seem to fly This plant is so great But sometimes it seems to use you as bait Why is it that GOD made a plant which makes you see things And feel things so wonderful you can't believe you feel no trouble You may be paranoid But oh that's nothing compared to the good things But when the high is gone Your troubles and depression seem to come back So then to make it all go away You go back to the weed and there's no more plead Fuck the world you say as you take a big hit you hear your heart beat Here goes another Great Trip. Cry I want to cry but I don't know why I want to die and I still don't know why All the lies have been said all the stories told My heart has already been sold Why do I feel so old? Who has the answers? Who has the key? Who cares for me? As I stare into emptiness all i see is Darkness Loneliness Pain Hate I'm slowly going insane Home Sweet Home What is home? Home is where the heart is I'm not at home My life is somewhere else as I begin to think of it, a tear comes to my eye and I have to wonder why my home is hell Why, I can't tell It just is My life just is It has no meaning I belong home This is not my home They try so hard yet my heart is scarred The pain I feel eats away at me My life means nothing now I live in January's perpetual agony I must go home I must follow my heart Even The Rain When I feel the rain on my face, I'm reminded of the blood flowing through my veins and through my black soul I am not alive yet I am not dead My blood runs cold My face is pale The tears are no longer shed The pain is fled Misery and Despair are my only companions I will never again feel the sun upon my face nor the comfort of a grave There is nothing left to save I have become a slave Life is Hell Death is sanctuary Yet I can have neither I am wandering aimlessly I have no where to go my life is pointless everything is pain Even the rain Silverfish By: Belly Well I'd be a stranger in your movie is there a place for me in the patterns that glow in your skin & your clothes hold him hold his thin frame in your arms when everything flows from his skin & his clothes I'm flying so high in silverfish line his pocket silverfish, flying so high hold him in your arms when everything glows on his skin I've been much stranger I've watched you from afar now everything glows on my skin & my clothes flying so high in silverfish line his pocket silverwish flying so over your head silverfish line his pocket silverwish silverfish line his pocket silverwish flying so over your head Thinking of You As I think of you, a tear comes to my eye and I have to wonder why It was my choice that ended our plan Why do I feel such pain when I begin thinking of you? If I wanted to know why I would ask myself I know why I feel pain for my baby that will have no daddy He will never know what a great person his daddy was even to the end My pain comes from fear fear of the unknown the unknown is wondering how I can make it alone alone and without you my fear brings another tear This tear is for regret How could I have just thrown away all this time you say I'll forgive you but I won't forget you I've forgiven you and you've made it impossible to forget you I still haven't forgiven myself for thinking of you Trade Places I saw the knife at your throat with a gun to my head What more can be said? I saw you lie I watched you try I saw you die Why? You didn't have to go I couldn't say no I'd take your place just to fill the empty space I'm so filled with grief It's so hard to believe The truth will never be told All the lies are sold Your death has come to soon Why did you go before me? I still recall how your blood covered the grass How he said "we'll kill your ass!" I wish they had Maybe I wouldn't be so sad I don't know why you had to die Life is such a lie With blood on my hands, I said my final goodbye If only you didn't die Trapped I'm trapped in this hell But who to tell? She wants me to stay He wants me home They both think they know what's best I'm to young to protest My life is hell I have no one to tell I want to die but I don't know why Why live? Death is how to escape I just want to escape Which is easier? Life or Death? Without you it's impossible to tell Tell me how to live Show me the things I can't see I hope you need me I wish you would say you need me You always were the one to show me how How to live How to love If you had only stayed If I hadn't strayed Maybe I'd be where I belong, at home, in your arms The only place I ever wanted to be I'm trapped in this hell But who to tell?