Pairing: 1x2
Warnings: It's my poem so beware! I hope it's good. Yaoi and I guess some angst here.
Disclaimer: Well, the GW characters are definately not mine, should I perhaps disclaim my poem too? [blaw] is a scene {doo da} is the poem and ~ is other ^_^
[Duo is sitting at a window stairing into the back yard at Heero thinking to himself]
{I know it's not right to think this way...}
~"I have another mission Duo." Heero looked at the american quietly who seemed to wilt.
"What this time? A body guard job for little Ms. Peacecraft?" Duo saturated his words in sarcasm and disgust as he spoke.
"Maybe I am." Heero shot back coldly.
{Just tagging along in this foolish game we play...}
[Duo follows Heero to the auditorium where Relena is giving a speach where he sits and watches Heero from the shadows....]
{Maybe it's wrong to still love you like I do...}
~"Oh Hee-chan. I just want to tell you I love you. Yet you always run off to her." Duo sighs then turns to leave the building sadly.
"Duo... " Heero whispers as he watches him leave silently. "It's not fair to you..."
{Wrong, wrong state of mind, wrong eyes, but not you...}
[Heero sits in the dark corners of the auditorium thinking of what would happen if he allowed his feelings for Duo to show. Visions of people laughing, pointing, and mocking his koi make him nauseated.]
{People would laugh, disown, digust, please leave me...}
~A sigh escaped Duo's soft lips as he walked home in the dark of night. "Hee-chan, why do you fear what you have never tried and never known?" He looked up at the stars and the moon "Won't you give me a chance?"
{Is that why you left me, pride, prejudice, I'm empty..}
[Duo sits in the bedroom he and Heero shared once before and tears slip from eyes that willed them not to fall. He was all alone in the dark room watching scenes with he and Heero in his mind.]
{I watch your silouhette in my mind, it rips my heart...}
"Heero, thanks for coming to be my body guard." Relena chirped happily at him.
"Hn." his mind drifted remembering how she had walked in on he and Duo and reacted so strangely. Then he remembered how she had pulled him aside and told him that a soldier shouldn't behave that way.
"Well, I see you aren't very talkative this evening and I must be leaving. Bye Heero!" She trotted off leaving a pair of sad cobalt eyes to be lost in thought.
{Broken promises, broken hearts, we're torn apart...}
[Duo picks up one of Heero's green shirts and breathes in his smell deeply allowing his mind to remember better times. Sighing sadly his lips begin to tremble.]
{Do you miss me like I miss you, am I worth it?}
"Hee-chan...." Duo whimpered as he curled up in the corner of the bedroom assuming the fetal position. He pulls out his gun and fingers the trigger lightly. "If it won't work... I don't want to love any one else..." he places the gun to his temple.
{You're worth it, but I know, maybe we just don't fit...}
~Heero walks into the house and looks about the darkened rooms "Duo?" He wonders why the lights are out as he walks up the stairs to the room they used to share. "Duo-kun? Where are you?" he began to worry.
{Memories don't only comfort us, they do torment...}
[Duo's eyes widened at the sound of his koi's voice. He shivered and held his breath wondering what to do.]
{Should I say I love you, or that's not what I meant..}
[Heero shoves the door open and looks about the room. His eyes fall upon the small body in the corner that was in the fetal position. Moving closer he sees the closed eyes and the tears, and the gun held to his head.]
{Expect me to have answers, but I'm drowning in tears...}
"Duo-chan!" Heero called out in terror feeling his own eyes begin to burn "what are you doing?!" The violet eyes flickered open and looked upon the perfect soldier "Hee-chan... I'm not strong enough.. gomen..." the gun loosens in his hand.
{Expect me to be strong, I'll face my fears...}
[Heero runs wrecklessly to take the gun from Duo and a tear slips from his cobalt orbs. Duo looks at him and cocks his head to the side curiously before wiping it away gently.]
{Just leave me alone, with my evil, wicked mind...]
"Hee-chan?" Duo wants to cradle the boy as he begins to cry but doesn't.
"Duo... I don't know what to do.." Heero wonders why Duo is not trying to comfort him.
{Scared to be alone, afraid of what I'll find..}
[Slowly Duo reaches out and caresses his cheek. Duo's eyes widen in surprise as Heero throws himself into his koi's arms.]
{You no longer slay my demons, I am truly alone...}
~Heero pulls back and wipes the tears away. "Gomen." he puts the gun in his pants and gives thanks to whatever being stopped his love from shooting himself.
"...." Duo gazes at him feeling empty.
{Wounding, wounded, no one to hear my cry or moan...}
[Heero rises and leaves the room quietly leaving Duo all alone. He cries out in pain and moans in loss.]
{Maybe you still care, but now you're too far away...}
~Heero cringes and stays outside of the door. "I can't stand doing this to you... Gomen nesai..." he whispers and slides to the floor, curling in a ball.
{Hide my feelings, my pain, I know my debt I've yet to pay...}
[Duo stands and curses at his weakness then walks to the door and opens it a little only to see Heero outside sitting silently. Closing the door he collapses to the floor in silent agony.]
{Forgive me, my humanness and curse my hurting you...}
~Heero stands at the sound of someone hitting the floor with a soft thud and is overwhelmed with regret. He rushes in the door and scoops Duo up in his arms. "Duo... oh Duo... Gomen... Ai Shiteru." he lays Duo on the bed and kisses his forehead.
"Hee-chan?" violet eyes flicker open and look upon the boy in confusion.
{My everything, my will, my pain, my love too...}
~"Ai Shiteru... Hee-chan." Tears streamed down his cheeks as the other boy kisses him deeply.
~ Owari ~
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