We are celebrating our second wedding anniversary today, January 30, 1936. I made a blackberry cobbler, Boot's favorite. We only have pinto beans and cornbread to eat right now. The weather has been too bad for Boots to cut wood so we are just scrimping by. Our fourth baby is due in June, so I have to take it real easy for the next few months. The Doctor told us everything looks good but because of my history just to be safe for me not to do any heavy work. Papa is still in Dallas working and Mama is still grieving for Scotty. She is still weak from the pneumonia. Leon and Onia have been doing all the chores for her. Leon cuts wood for the stove and carries water from the creek. Onia has been doing all the cooking and looking after the little kids. Boots has been practicing his reading and writing; he is doing real well. He can read the Bible better than anything else. We don't have much to read a few old school books and the Bible.

Papa wrote a letter to Mama and wants her to move to Dallas with the kids, she said no. She is afraid he is drinking again and I think she is right. He is an alcoholic and has been since I was a little girl. He promised all of us he would not drink anymore. We lived in Garland when I was about eleven and I had to go get him out of the beer joints all the time. He ran off with some old girl but Mama went and got him. I think she should have left him alone. Mama loves him I guess. One thing I can say for him, he has always worked and tried to provide for his kids but he is a sorry excuse for a husband. I told Boots if he ever acted like that I would kill him and I meant it. It is March 30, now Boots sister is getting married next week. We are going down to Mr. and Mrs. Moore's house in Enlow to stay a week. Mr. Moore is coming to get us in the wagon. Inez is only 14 I hate for her to get married that young, especially to that Ben Clements. He is a good-looking boy that flirts with every thing in skirts. Inez is such a pretty girl she deserves better. I met Boot's older sisters Alver and Thelmer and their husbands. I don't think they like me much. They told me we should have stayed with their parents so Boots could help out. I asked them why didn't they stay and help out. We ended up going home after three days. Mrs. Moore told them to mind their own business but I guess they couldn't. Emmett and Donia are living with Mr. and Mrs. Moore and Mr. Moore treats them like they are still little kids. They have two little ones and have to ask for permission to go to town. I won't live like that and I told them. Boot's agreed, we are grown and married so we can live anywhere we want to. We have helped them by canning food and giving it to them. I have also made dresses for Mrs. Moore and Inez.

Boots went to Paris yesterday. He is trying to find us a place where we can farm on halves. He should be back tonight. Niva Lee and Virginia stayed with me while he is gone. I love having my little sisters around and it gives Mama a break. Mama is feeling a lot better now. Her other kids are all going to school now so when I take the little ones she can have some time alone.

I am so excited we are moving to Lamar County. Boots made a deal with a farmer there to farm about sixty acres and it has a nice 4-room house with a well right in the yard. He will provide all the seed and fertilizer with a team of mules for us to use. He even has a cow we can have so we can have fresh milk and butter. He also set up an account at the General store for us to get food until the crops come in. We have to move in two weeks to be there for the plowing and planting. Our baby is due in 6 weeks so we have to hurry and get settled.

We spent the day and night with Grandma Goodman on our way to our new home. Grandma was upset that I was out in a wagon this close to my due date. We told her the Doctor said it would be all right. She decided to go with us to help me get settled just to make sure. The house is really nice, no cracks in the walls. But like all the others it is dirty. Grandma and I scrubbed the floors and walls. Boots has been cleaning the barn and repairing the fences for a week now. We should be able to start plowing next week. Grandma has decided to stay until the baby is born. I am glad, we have been worried what we would do here with no family close.

It is May now and we have got every thing cleaned and planted. We planted a garden, almost an acre. Boots planted forty acres of cotton and fifteen acres of corn it is coming up already. Now we just wait for it to grow and wait for our baby. Boots has worked so hard from daylight till dark every day.

We met our neighbors today. Mr. and Mrs. Davis they have the cutest kids, two little girls Maudean and Dorothy and a little boy G.D. Mrs. Davis is expecting a baby about the same time as I am. Mr. Davis only has one arm, Boots said: he doesn't know how he can farm with just one arm. Grandma says you can do what you have to, when you have little ones. Boots is gone to get Dr. Lowery our baby is coming today. Grandma is worried about the baby and me.

We have a beautiful baby boy "Clifton Ray". He weighs 8 lb., black hair and red as a beet. The Doctor said he seems to be healthy. Boots is so proud and happy and so am I. Clifton Ray is sick, Boots has gone for the Doctor. Grandma is still here I am so glad. I am so scared I am sick to my stomach. Doctor Lowery has been here every day for the last four days. The baby is not improving. Clifton Ray has heart trouble Dr. Lowery says we are going to lose him. We have prayed about this and are still hoping for a miracle.

Clifton Ray lived three weeks we lost him June 10, 1936. We buried him in the same place we had buried our other babies. Now we have four dead babies buried there.

We went to Cooper today to see Dr. Lowery. He told us we would never have a baby to live and I should have a hysterectomy. I told him no God had promised me a family and we are going to have one if it kills me. Dr. Lowery said it will kill you. We left Grandma at her house and we went home. Heart broken again. We started praying every night that God would give us a family.