Poem 1

Fixed within my inward stare,
I see things evil, ugly bare,
Nothing sacred, nothing pure,
Nothing that my God can cure.
It is the lonliness of one,
The mournful cloud that hides the sun,
It is the only world I've known,
Forever hollow all alone.
Friends seem real, but friends are gone,
They only used me as a pawn.
They took all that I could give,
And now I'm to empty to live.
My mind explodes, my thoughts are mad!
I cannot reach what once I had...
The sanity I long despised,
I crave more than I realized...
And now I understand to late,
The things I want are not my fate...
I can't understand loves mood,
Forever hollow in solitude.