Just like a witch hunt they want me cornered and burned I’ve got their secret bloody fuckin secret I know their weakness I know the truth and all my friends are liars someday they’ll get me but I won’t go quietly I’ll take em all with me and go out in a ball of flames kicking and screaming I can feel the cross-hairs trained on my head turn my back hear them laugh as they dance painted in shit it’s all lies babes in toyland stupid children playing games with my life.
Cut off you walked away when I was too small to follow you left me standing with empty hands cut off father I’m your bastard I’m the black sheep I’m the secret of the family. Lightning struck my family tree. Severed lineage snuffed out heritage. Every father has someone following his example, my example just walked away. Every mother needs a man to complete the circle undone mother don’t cry mother somehow we’ll get by and I’ll get by being half a man living half a life seeing half my world through my half-closed eyes cut off. Father you cut me off.
Face of angel mind like razor. Steel trap eyes and I’m so caught but I’ll chew my leg off cause I feel your skin burning me poison fangs inside me angelic bullet god’s own gift I’d turn the gun on you to save me from this. I’m drowning in your arms I’m drowning in your smile and I think I have found true love. Drop dead, gorgeous.
Lie still. the scream will not subside. Out of darkness death comes hungry. I can’t rest for what might come. I lie down the shadows bleed their eyes watch while I sleep. Suffocating, I can’t rest, all alone in the dark suffocating I can’t rest demons rise demon eyes. I lie awake in my bed, not alone its in my head. I close my eyes and start to drift, hands reach for me, shadows choke me. Rise eyes rise the shadow knows come to take me home. I am dead in my head. Eyes, let me sleep. I will never sleep.
Life is pain. Pain is life. I wanna flush it, watch it go down. Exist to suffer, bleed till I drop. Fall down the world walks on me I drown in my own blood. No more paradise I had goals but I’ve lost sight. Exist to burn give till I drop. Fall down the world walks on me I drown in my own blood. Don’t wanna live falling down, no more to give, burning out, I’m painting pictures with my blood, I’ll paint the walls with my head. I have found my calling. Beast of burden I am learning living is hurting breathing is burning. I stand in your place. For all of you. I stand in your place. For all of you. The noose comes down, I’m smiling. The noose comes down, the noose is my crown. I wanna rip myself apart I wanna burn myself down I want to die negation=salvation I want to die.
Talk your shit hypocrite your morals change day to day to justify your wasted life self-righteous you remain blind deaf dumb blind numb and you cry "Daddy daddy save me daddy" deaf dumb blind numb you don’t know what you have lost boy you have killed your last real friend brother in lookin out for number one and now I can’t love no one I can’t love nothin cos I was always there to eat your shit always there to save your name and now I’m deaf dumb blind numb just like you. I bet she was beautiful underneath your hands I hope you felt beautiful inside her arms I hope you felt beautiful inside her but you’ll still die alone you’ll die with nothing and when they ask who you were I’ll say nobody man. Just a rubber band man a hole that got stretched till it broke. Was her one night worth my seven years?
(All songs written by Neil Barrett /
lyrics courtesy of God Is Sound Productions
1997/ music by Dolores
(* indicates songs currently available on their demo
)
(** indicates songs that are to be released on compilations or that were recently recorded)
