"Will your body never cease to stir me?" Brenda sighed. "All it takes is just a flash of your skin and I have to have you."
"I hope not." Sonny flashed his dimples at her. It were times like this that were the most painful for Sonny. Times that were so achingly beautiful between them, only for him to have to remind himself that none of this was real. That Stone could step up to the bed at any moment and tell him it was time to go.
"I wish you wouldn't always hold so much of yourself back from me." Brenda sighed. "I know you're afraid something is going to happen to ruin this, but you're only cheating yourself of enjoying the time we have together by holding back so much of yourself to protect yourself."
He reached over and caressed her cheek. "I keep waiting for the look of love in your eyes to turn to hate." He confessed. "You can't be happy in the life you have to live just so you can be with me."
"You never really got it, did you?" She shook her head sadly at him. "You are my happiness. You're the only one to ever make me feel truly happy. We can be living in a car and all I have to do is look at you to be happy."
"I've made so many mistakes in my life." He held her face in his hands and kissed her. "There are so many things I regret, that I wish I could undo."
"Like what." She took his hand in her and laid a kiss on his palm.
"Like marrying Lily." He replied. "If I had she wouldn't be dead, you would have never been with Jax and we would have never been apart."
"You don't think I have regrets?" She asked him. "You don't know how much I wish I go back to the moment Ned and Lois convinced me to wear that wire and not wear it." She added. "If I had never had listened to them, Lily would have never gotten her hooks into you, and we would have never been apart for a second."
"I guess we all have regrets." He sighed, as he rolled on his back and looked up at the ceiling. "But we can't go back and get another chance to do things differently, can we? We have to live with the consequences of our actions, don't we."
"Knowing what you know now." Brenda asked. "Do you regret joining the mob and if you had it to do all over again, would you do it again?"
"Yes." He looked over at her. "I don't regret joining the mob. I had no choice. It was a matter of survival. If I hadn't joined the mob, I'd be dead now."
"What about me?" She kept pushing. "Do you regret getting involved with me."
He rolled back over on his side to face her. "Not for a second." He declared passionately. "You have given me so much more than I'd ever thought I'd have. You've made me feel loved and cherished. As much as this love between us has always scared me to death because it's so strong and uncontrollable, I would never want to have never had it in my life." He added. "It's brought the only true happiness into my life that I've ever known."
She cupped his cheek in her hand. "I love you, Sonny Corinthos."
"I love you, too, Brenda Corinthos." He leaned over and kissed her gently on the lips. "Happy anniversary, sweetheart."
"Happy anniversary." She smiled back at him.
He suddenly smiled. "Well, my anniversary present to you was a night of romance in Glasgow dining and dancing the night away." He flashed his dimples at her, suddenly in a teasing mood. "Since we didn't do that, it looks like I'll have to think of another present to get you."
"You've already given it to me." She told him. "The greatest present you can give me is yourself. And now it's time for me to give you my present to you." Brenda knew there'd never be a more perfect time to tell him than now. "We're going to have a baby." She paused a nanosecond to let that sink in. "I'm pregnant with your child."
Just as she'd feared Sonny didn't take the news well. All the teasing and happiness went out of him and he looked like he'd just been punched in the gut. "No!" He shook his head violently in denial. "No!" He threw back the covers and jumped out of bed to put some distance between them.
"It's too late for me to do anything about it." She told him. "I'm too far along to get an abortion, if that's what you're about to suggest."
"How long have you known." He wanted to know.
"A while." She sighed. "But I kept putting off telling you, because I knew this is exactly how you'd react to the news."
He began to pace the floor in agitation. "We have no business having a baby." Sonny screamed. "We're running for our lives from the mob. If they find us, they'll kill us. We both chose this life, but we have no business bringing an innocent child into this mess with us. A child who has done nothing to deserve being hunted down like an animal but be unlucky enough to be our child. It's not fair!"
She got out of bed and went over to him. "Life isn't fair, Sonny." Brenda told him. "We're both living proof of that." She took his face into her hands and made him look at her. "You'll protect our child, the same as you've protected me. It'll be all right." "What if I do manage to protect him." He asked. "What kind of life will he have being on the run with us." He began to pace the floor again. "He won't even know our real names. And don't kid yourself that we can stay here for the rest of our lives. Eventually, someone is going to find out where we are and we'll have to go on the run again and try to find somewhere else that's safe. And that's a cycle that will continue again and again until the mob finally catches up to us and kills us." He added. "Don't think because our child is an innocent baby that they won't kill him, too, because they will without blinking an eye."
She grabbed him by the shoulders to stop himself from working himself up into a frenzy any further than he already was. "I'll tell you what kind of life our child will have with us." She gave him a shake to make him listen to her. "He'll be loved beyond reason. He'll never be made to feel unloved and he'll never be hit. And that's a lot more than either of us ever got from our own parents." Then all the fight went out of her. "Sonny, why can't you be happy about this. All I've ever wanted to do is have your baby."
"That's all I've ever wanted too." He leaned his forehead against her own. "But we shouldn't be having a baby with the life we now lead."
"But we are." She said with emphasis. "Sonny, just forget for awhile about the danger we're in." She took his hand and ran it down over her stomach. "Do you feel that little bump?" She looked up at him and he nodded at her. "That's our baby growing inside of me. Just let yourself feel the happiness you'd be feeling if our life wasn't the way it is now."
He tried to as he palm cupped their baby, but he just couldn't. "I swear if anything happens to this baby because of me." He looked right in her eyes and she could see the fear and agony that were there. "I'll kill myself."
"I know." She sighed in misery, as she held his face to her breasts to comfort him. "That's what I'm afraid of."