Title: Author: Kristen E-mail: armslikeorion@yahoo.com Rating: R Spoilers: None realy, early season 3 Angel I guess..rather AU from there... Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue. The mighty god Joss owns all the characters as do ME and hoards of others...i'm just playing! Feedback: Yes please!! Distribution: Want. Take. Have. Just let me know where! Pairing: Cordy/Faith Faith/Wes Authors Note: This takes place in Season 3, but there is no Connor of any sorts! Cordy IS part demon however. Faith has been out of jail for awhile and has been dating Wes for almost a year. Everything else should be explained by just reading! Hope you enjoy! ********** How do I get myself into these fucked up situations? She is sitting so unbelievably close to me and I know she knows the effect it's having on me. I want to touch her so badly. Just have some form of contact with her. i let my fingers brush her hand and enjoy the feeling I get at the contact. It sends little shivers all up and down my spine, it's just fucking amazing. I love touching her. This little bit of contact, however, just isn't enough. It's all I can do not to grab her and take her right here and now. Of course, with my boyfriend in the next room, that might not go over too well. As if on cue he comes out of his office and I quickly retract my fingers from the soft skin they were grazing. "Hello there, love." He smiles at me in that way that makes my insides turn to jello. I get up and walk towards him planting a chaste kiss on his lips. She looks at us with intent interest and I see the flash of hurt in her eyes and it twists in my chest. I hate that she hurts just because I'm so godamn selfish. I know that it isn't right and I shouldn't do this, but I can't help myself. I mean damn have you looked at her? She's a fucking knockout. It takes me a moment to register his voice, he's asking me something, shit. "Faith? So, what do you think?" "Hmm?" "Tonight, you and me, dinner and then going back to our place for some desert." He says the last part so low in my ear and I shiver, involuntarily, at the implications. That's when I see her again over his shouldar, a much needed reminder. "Aw shit, hon, I can't. C and I plans for a real girls night out. Sorry." He looks momentarily disappointed, but then smiles genuinely at me and that causes some major wicked guilt on my part. "Well, another time then. I dare not interfere with female bonding." Oh if only he knew how much bonding would be going on. "So I guess, I'll see you at home later?" "Actually, I think I might crash at C's. We'll be out late and all..." "Fine, so tomorrow then?" "You bet." "I'm just glad you are being more social and making friends." Then he turns to her. "And, Cordelia, I trust you'll make sure Faith behaves herself." "I'll keep her in line." She gives me a secretive smile and I return it. "Have fun you two." He kisses me softly before disappearing into his office, leaving us once again alone. As soon as his door shuts I make my way back to her. I'm so close and hear that fimiliar hitch in her breath as I lean over her ear. "What do you say we start ou little 'girls night out' a little early?" She slowly nods in response. I give her a quick kiss before letting her grab her purse then I take her hand as we leave the hotel. My mind races thinking of everything I want to do with her and to her in the time we have together. *********** The bar is dark and full of dancing, drunk patrons, but to me she's the only one in the bar. Our bodies are pressed up so close as we dance and I'm having trouble remembering that we are in a public place, as I grind myself into her. I can hear a slight moan come from her parted lips and I can't help but take her face in my hands and bring those lips to mine for a long and searing kiss. My tongue thrusts into her mouth as I try to taste every inch of her sweet mouth. Only the need for oxygen tears me away. "God, Faith. Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" She pulls me even closer then I thought was possible. "Truthfully, babe, after that I can't form one coherient thought." She chuckles lowly in my ear. "I was just thinking maybe we should turn this girls night out into a girls night in. If you catch my drift." "Oh, I catch it, but anticipations half the fun, babe. How bout we go get ourselves a couple more drinks and then we can try your plan." "Fine, but this anticipation is gonna kill me." "I promise, it will be well worth the wait." I drape her arm over my shouldar as I lead her to the bar. "So what will you two lovely ladies have?" "I'll have a Bud Light, and you babe?" I turn to C. "Rum and Coke with a twist of lime." "Coming right up, ladies." He's not kiding in a few seconds we have our drinks. I'm nursing my bottle as she sips lightly through the stirer straw of hers. It's almost sensual the way she's drinking. I can't help but lick my lips. I want her so bad. Hell, I always want her. What can I say I'm a horny little thing, but more so when it comes to her. When I'm with her she's the only thing that consumes my mind. All my other senses shut down until it's just her. Her scent, her touch, her taste. Oh god, I really have to get her home. I set down my beer and give her a hungry look. She smiles widely at me and places her drink next to mine and we walk quckly out of the bar. We both know that the drive back to her place is going to be as much anticiaption as we two can handle. ************* Lying next to her is an indescribable feeling. Tracing my hand up her bare arm, kissing little drops of sweat off of it. Sweat that I know I was the cause of and it makes it all the more sweeter. I'm on sensory overload here. I can't believe how sated I am after a few hours of making love to her. Making love, there is no other word for it. I mean, yeah sure when we first started this thing it was more hard rough fucking, but that's since changed. The thing between us grew deeper, we didn't plan on it and it happened so quickly that we were powerless to stop it. Not that I wanted to stop it at that point. She rolls over in my arms and smiles at me. I kiss her softly, first on her lips then on her forehead. "Faith, you were right. That most certiantly was worth the wait." "It most certiantly was." I wrap my arms tightly around her, not ever wanting to let her go. Sometimes the post fuck cuddle is as rewarding as the fuck itself. That was something that I'd never thought I would like. Until Wes I was simply a get some get gone type of girl. He showed me the joy of getting lost in the other person and that actually being with someone emotionally as well as physically was something amazing in and of itself. Shit. Wes. Why did I have to go and think of him for. That's my unwritten rule, no thinking of Wes when I'm with C and vice versa. When I start thinking of the person I'm not with the guilt comes. I know C knows what she got into. She knows I love Wes, but she also knows that I care about her. She knows that, but Wes, he has no fucking clue. Telling him isn't an option either. I know exactly what he'd do. He'd first explode and go off on me. Then he'd blame himself, thinking he's not enough for me and finally, and here's the worse part, he'd make me choose. I'm not ready for that. I'm not sure I could choose even if I had to. That's why this situation works as it is right now. I know C would never force me to choose, even though I know she wishes I would. She'd never put me through that. "Hey, now, why the serious expression." She traces her fingers lightly over my face and I close my eyes just enjoying her touch. All my thoughts disappear as I get lost in her once again. "Nothing, babe, nothing you need to worry about." She nods her head knowingly. "Thinking about, Wesley, huh?" She turns away from me and it hurts me deeply to see the sadness in her eyes, sadness that I put there. Why do I do this to her when I care so fucking much about her? Oh right, I'm a selfish bitch, thats why. "Hey, babe, don't be like that." "No, I understand, you know I do, but that doesn't stop it from hurting. That doesn't stop me from wishing, ya know." I can tell she's on the verge of tears. Fuck I don't want her to cry not over me. "Babe, no, don't cry. I know that you want things to be different. Hell don't you think I want things to be easier? Don't you know that there isn't a fucking day that goes by that I don't feel some kinda guilt for this situation I've forced you into?" "Forced me into? Faith, I want to be here. I want to be with you. You didn't force me into anything, I chose this but it doesn't make it any easier or hurt any less." The tears are flowing now and I wrap my arms around her letting her warm tears fall on my bare shouldar. I never wanted this, I only wanted her. I bring her face up to meet my eyes and kiss away a few stray tears on her cheeks before giving her a sad smile. "Anytime you want out, just say the word. I'll let you go, I won't like it, but I'll let you go." She thinks for a few moments before hugging me tightly. "I'm not going anywhere, Faith. No matter how much it hurts or how fucked up this situation is, it's where I want to be. I'll take you anyway I can get you. Just as long as when I'm with you I can pretend that you are all mine and that Wesley isn't a factor." "Deal and I'll try harder not to think about him when I'm with you." "You think about him when you're with me?" "No, not when I'm with you, I could never think of anyone else, but you then, babe. Heck I can never really think at all then." "Good, so care to free your mind of needless thoughts?" She arches her eyebrow suggestively which causes a low growl from my throat. I think she knows the answer to that question. She seizes my mouth with hers for an intense kiss when suddenly she pulls back. "Babe? What is it?" "Vision." She says solemnly. "Perfect timing PTB." I say to the cieling. "Don't they always? I'll call Angel, you get dressed. We'll finish this later." "Yes, ma'am." I give her a playful salute before hoping off the bed and retrieving my clothes that are strown around the room. She pulls a robe around her naked form as she picks up the phone. "Angel, hey it's me. Yup, I had a vision, you are very perceptive. A yellow demon with 3 eyes is trying to eat two kids down by the peir. It's gonna happen pretty soon so you better get a move on. I'm sending Faith to help you. Alright, be careful." She hangs up the phone and turns back to me. "Aw, babe, do I have to go?" "You know I wouldn't send you if I didn't think Angel needed the help. This thing is extremely strong and I don't want Angel facing this thing alone." "What about Gunn?" "Faith, don't argue. The quicker you leave the sooner you'll slay this thing and come back here. I'll be waiting." "Fine, but rest assured this is going to be the quickest slay in history." "I'm counting on it." She kisses me quickly before pointing to the door and I trudge off to fight the demon in her vision. I really hate the PTB. *********** It took a bit longer then expected for us to waste that demon, C was right that thing was hella strong. Still, it was no match for a Slayer and a vampire like Angel. I'm on my bike racing as fast as I can to get back to C's place. I can't stop thinking about her. I wonder if she's still on the bed naked and just waiting for me. I increase speed at the thought. As soon as I pull up to her apartment my cell phone rings and I curse yet more bad timing. Are the powers really trying to keep me away from my girl or what? I debate answering it, but relent and at least look at the caller ID on it. My luck sucks! It's fucking Wes of all people. "Hey hon," I answer cheerfully. "Faith, I'm glad you answered I was getting worried about you. Angel told me about Cordelia's vision and that you went to help. He hasn't returned yet and I hadn't heard from you..." "Calm down, hon, I'm fine and so is Angel. We just finished with the slaying. The thing put up quite a fight, but we came out on top as always." "I'm relieved to hear that. Are you still going to crash at Cordelia's tonight?" "I was planning on it, why?" "I would love it if you would come home, I miss you terribly." "Wes, hon, I'm fine. I miss you too, but I'll be home in the morning." "Any chance you'll reconcider? I could make it worth your while." "Mmm that is a very tempting offer, but what if I promise to make it worth your while tomorrow morning." "I'd rather tonight." "Can't you get along one night without me?" "The apartment is so empty without you, Faith. It just doesn't feel right." "Why don't you curl up with one of those musty old books full of prophesies and demon lore..." "Not the same as curling up with my beautiful slayer." "Wes, goodnight. I'll see you in the morning. I love you." "Love you too." He said begrudgingly and I hung up the phone before he could persuade me to give into him. I love him, really I do, but I don't get to spend to much time with C. This time is precious and I don't want to give it up for anything, not even the man I love. I use my key and open the door to her apartment and a wide grin spreads across my face. I see what seems like hundreds of candles lit all across the apartment. I shut the door with my foot and venture deeper into the room. "Babe, I'm back." "Bout time." She appears and my mouth drops open. I'm officialy speechless at the vision I see in front of me. C is dressed in a black teddy that shows off every curve of her body that I know all too well by this point. She's blowing out a match and god if that isn't the most erotic thing I've seen. I rush over to her and scoop her up in my arms letting my lips devour her neck. She moans in pure pleasure. This is more then I ever could have ever asked for. I know now that not giving into Wes was the right decision as I lose myself in the beautiful woman that I'm so lucky to have in my life.