Dark Night
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Title: Dark Nights Category: Michael and Isabel. Summary: Maybe Michael should have pursued his destiny. Feedback: Yes please! Personal Notes: I was feeling a little low.......... ---------The day she left was the worst in my entire existence. I couldn't get out of the same shirt for weeks. (Sure it was just a day or two longer than usual.) I stayed in my bed refusing to move. I think someone came to me, I'm not positive though.(Probably Maria.)
I know she thought now that Max was gone there was no reason for her to stick around in Roswell. Maxwell the bastard had deserted us. He found a way to his "son". "Michael I have to get to my son,you understand right?" Max had asked. What did the guy expect me to say? "Max thats the sweetest thing I've ever heard go ahead, just leave, go on." I suppose Max wanted me to shed a tear. I did neither, just turned my back on him. At least he took Liz with him. Thank god. I was in no mood to console anyone when I could barely help myself. Apparently Max stumbled across some evidence that suggested humans could breathe on Antar. I could care less that they were both gone but Isabel? It hurt beyond words that she obviously felt I wasn't enough.
I guess her and that goddamn lawyer lived in some nice middle-class neighborhood. With their little white picket fence and their cute little mailbox. They will probably even have a cute little kid with antennas someday. Who knows?
I can't help but wonder sometimes, when it's really dark and the rest of the world is sleeping, how it could have been. What if Max had never healed Liz? What if Maria had continued not existing to me? Would Isabel be in my arms right now?
No, she'd be in someone else's. Anyone but me, right. Hell! She even chose scrawny Alex over me. Albeit, maybe I never told her to choose. But I know she'd never and will never pick me. Right? Tell me I'm not wrong! Nah I'm not. It takes me a couple of agonizing minutes to come up with that. Imagine if I am wrong........
If it wasn't for sharing the same past alien lives, she never, in a million earth years, would have noticed me. Maybe Max, maybe even Alex but never me.
I can't blame it entirely on her. I guess sucking face with Maria didn't exactly impress her.
Maybe it's just the alien side of me that has all these feelings and regrets. Maybe its the human side. Could be both. I'll never get it right will I? I lost her before and I lost her again.
Will I ever get it right?