Slowly getting better, maybe lol!
As it turns out I misunderstood Gina, she does still want to be apart of the movie as the asst. director and as Barbara Gordon, but she doesn't think we will be able to start filming as soon as I want to, in october. I agree, it'll probably start some time after christmas. Which is fine, I just need to use school as an avenue to get my cast and crew together and then once I have them, we can use the summer to really get things done because I'll have their contact info and stuff. Free therapy and getting a cast and crew together are the only two reasons I'm anxious for school to start.
Gina and I went to go see Pirates of the Caribbean the other day. I saw Mrs. Carter, her husband, and her baby. She's so cute and little! Babies are so kewl! Except when they get a little older, develop an attitude and think screaming at the top of their lungs is a good way to get what they want.
I'm gonna look into getting that job at Kroger some time today, call my mom's friend and ask him what I need to do next. They're supposed to call me soon but it wouldn't hurt for me to call them so that they know I'm interested. I really need a job soon! Last year I told mom during our fun school shopping that that was the last year she would have to buy me clothes and school supplies. I want to do it myself this year, mainly because it'll be my own money and if I want to get some damn mechanical pencils, I WILL! lol! Who cares of they're a dollar more. I love shopping, it's just the fact that I never have money that poo poo's on it.
So after I buy clothes and school supplies, pay Traci back, and get my car working, THEN I can start saving up my money to get this movie into production instead of pre-production. Pre-production isn't supposed to be as long as it will be for this movie lol! Gina's right, we definitely won't be filming in October. The bright side is, after the first movie, I'll know pretty much what I'm doing, I'll already have the equipment, the script outline for the second movie is complete, so all I would have to do is polish the script, cast the people, find the crew, and do all the normal preproduction stuff. Traci would be payed back, the car would be running (provided it doesn't break again), I would've already graduated (so no back to school shopping) and all my money could go towards rent, bills, and the movie.
I plan to enter the entertainment business by starting at the top. Or at least the middle anyway. I'll work on getting some recognition with some indie movies under my company, Onyxfire Productions, and then I'll continue to move on up. Sometimes I think I'm so much like Demi Moore. Owning your own company, and producting/directing movies will be great. I won't have to wait around to get discovered, I'll just work on my own terms. That's the advice I give to everyone trying to make it in this business. If you don't like the way it's run, make it your own. I hate the way only 5% of the people who want to be stars actually make it. I think that's a waste of talent. The thing with me is, I know I have a lot to learn. I'm only 18, I'm not the greatest actor, writer, or director, but I want to learn. I don't have enough money for the New York Film Academy so why not just do it myself? I'm not expecting to make any instant classics or big blockbuster features any time soon. I also don't expect to be rolling in the dough. But that's not why I want to be a director/writer/actor/producer. I've always wanted to do that, ever since I was little.
If I'm 40 years old still making independent movies like I am now, I think I'd be okay with that. The fame and fortune I'm sure are nice, but it's all about creating the movie, the art. I love to "express the art of creation", as says the Onyxfire slogan. I believe that there is nothing more amazing than creating something out of nothing. An idea comes, you put it on paper, you flesh it out, you make it into a movie and bring it to life. Now here you have this one small idea that you helped blossom into an entire story that the world can see. It's very inspiring.
Don't get me wrong though, I definitely want to be rich and famous, but that's not what's really important. If things work out like Gina and I want them to, I'll be a famous writer/director/actor who is bestfriends with Sarah Michelle Gellar and she'll be a famous actress married to Vin Diesel.
I can't wait to see how this project unfolds. There has been a massive amount of interest in it, and a lot of people have contributed to it so far, and we're just in pre-production. There's still a money issue that I will hopefully be able to handle.