Laura had a cardiac test on her done, sheís supposedly fine but I have this feeling that there's something nobodyís telling me. I hope Iím just being paranoid and sheís really okay and sheíll be out soon.
I told Leo about me liking Laura, I only wish mom had taken it as well as he had. How many times am I going to put myself through this? Why canít I just hold out for the right girl, the one that I know is out there somewhere that will actually return my feelings? But there I went falling for another girl I knew I couldnít be with.
Even though I knew it then and I know it now, it still hurts. Itís like thereís this hollow part of me that wonít go away, and I just want to curl up in a corner and stay there for days, if not forever. I suppose this should teach me a lesson like not to let my guard down and to make SURE I donít do this again but I donít know how I could do that, heck, I donít even now how to stop feeling for Laura which is the first step, I tried putting distance between us but now with her in the hospital, I canít just give up on her and never talk to her again, she needs someone to keep her from going insane with boredom she needs someone to complain to about how she still likes Leo and as much as it hurts me to be around her and hear her talk about him if thatís what she needs Iíll do it. Iíll sacrifice my happiness for hers.
But whoís going to listen to MY problems? Whoís going to comfort me while I suffer silently? Nobody I guess.
Bianca capped the pen after she signed her name crookedly, tears blurring her vision. She laid down on her bed and cried.
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