Ok First off this is my first ever fan fiction. So, it probably sucks. It`s very emotional, (duh, whats the title again?), anyway, just give me feedback and don`t complain to much. It will be continued but I need some more time to write the second part.

Julian has just told his sister all about what really happened on That Night. Now Sheridan, distrate and confused, goes for a walk.

Luis turned the corner, his mind drifting back and forth but always back to one thing. Sheridan. Sheridan Crane, the woman he used to love to hate but now just loved to love. Suddenly he felt his body meet with something soft and warm. He looked up from the snow covered ground and saw Sheridan, just as she fell back and onto the ground.

"Sheridan Oh God, I`m so sorry," Luis said quickly as he dropped to his knees beside her, "Are you alright?"

Sheridan, still shocked as to what just happened both then and with Julian, looked at Luis with blank eyes. She felt her face pale as an enormous wave of pain shot through her back and neck.

"I....uh..." Struggling to sit up, she fell back again as the pain increased.

"Oh God Sheridan." Luis moved behind her and slowly helped her up.

Sheridan fell weakly back against Luis as she stood. The pain faded a bit, but not entirely.

Luis looked down at the blond head against his shoulder and tightened his grip on her gently, a surge of love flowing through him. He gently kissed her head and turned her around in his arms.

"I`m going to take you home alright? I want to make sure your ok." He spoke softly, holding her shoulders lightly for support as she looked like she may faint away any second.

'Why is she so quiet?' Luis wondered to himself as he glanced at Sheridan while they drove towards her cottage. 'I must have really hurt her.'

Staring out the window, Sheridan continued her thought throughout the silence. She was desperatley trying to sort through everything Julian had told her. 'I still can`t believe I murdered Martin How can Luis even look at me let alone care? Oh God what if he hates me...what if...' She continued with the what if`s till she was sure her mind would blow.

At the same moment, they turned to each other.

"Sheridan..."

"Luis..."

Sheridan smiled softly and turned back to the window.

s pulled up to the cottage. Only two words had been spoken throughout the entire trip, each others names.

Once Luis had Sheridan settled on the couch, he went to the kitchen for coffee. He was puzzled as to why she was so silent and he feared she was hurt much worse than she let on.

When he returned, Luis placed the mugs on the table and sat down beside her. Silently he took Sheridans slim shoulders in his hands and gently turned her so her back faced him. With a feather-light touch he ran his hands down over her shoulders and down her body to settle on her waist.

'Oh no...no....Luis' Sheridans mind as well as heart were racing, 'Why now? Why when I have the worst news imaginable?' Sheridans eyes began to well with tears at the thought of losing Luis forever.

Luis leaned forward and began placing warm, light kisses along the back of her neck. Sheridan turned her around and Luis, seeing the tears, gently wiped them from her eyes with the pads of his thumbs. He leaned toward her and gently placed a kiss upon each eyelid before finding her mouth and kissing her lovingly.

Sheridan slid her hands up and around Luis neck, deepening the kiss. She wanted this night to last forever.

Luis gently lifted Sheridan up into his arms and carried her to the bedroom. He didn`t break the kiss for a single moment.

The next morning Sheridan was the first to awaken. She quietly rolled over and sighed softly. Still asleep beside her, Luis was dreaming.

Sheridan reached out and gently ran a soft finger along Luis jaw. Tears slowly filled her eyes as the thoughts of what she must say flowed back. SHe softly whispered his name and his eyes drifted open. He smiled lovingly when he saw her face.

"Hi..." Luis whispered.

"Hi..." Sheridan whispered back, more tears coming when she saw the love in his face. Sheridan just couldn`t bear the thought of losing him.

"Sheridan, your crying," Luis sat up and pulled Sheridan into his arms, "Whats wrong?"

She could hear the love and concern in his voice. It made her heart break even more.

"Oh Luis..." Sheridan gently wiped her eyes, yet it did no good against the onslaught of tears, "I...I can`t lie to you, not after last night. I can`t just pretend anymore...Luis...I...," her voice dropped to a barely audiable whisper, I..killed your father."

Before Luis could think about what he was doing, he grabbed her roughly by the shoulders and pushed her back against the headboard.

Sheridan stared at Luis, wincing when her sore back met up with the hard carved wood. Her eyes grew wide with fear and she gasped when he pushed her harder against the wood.

"HOW COULD YOU?" Luis shook her roughly and yelled at her, "HOW?" He lowered his hands to her ribs, totally forgetting who she was, his mind filled with anger and pushed her again.

"Luis..." Sheridan gasped in pain as the shock went through her body.

His anger subsided as he remembered who it was he was holding. He suddenly let her go, and she fell down against he pillows.

Gasping for breath, Sheridan curled up and hugged her waist. Pain ran through her body as she began sobbing again.

"Oh no..." Luis whispered as he lay down on the bed. He reached out gently to brush some hair from her face but she winced and backed away.

"No..no..." Between pain racking sobs she continued, "That night..."

It took Luis a moment before he connected the two....