My mother gave me these today. She said because I'm 21 she felt I could read them now. But she sent me to a special place where I had to read them. I sit down on the lush grass and look out at the site around me. There are lots of rocks. I flip open the hard covers of both books and begin reading entry by entry, Gia's diary, and Nikolas' journal

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Dear Diary,

I wish I never blackmailed Emily. I'm living with Nikolas now, and I really like him. We haven't kissed (well only when I was hiding from Marcus) but I want to soo badly. I know that his friends don't like me, and because of that, I will never be able to have a relationship with Nik. They will always bring back the fact that I blackmailed Emily. To tell you the truth, I don't think we could get past that.

Love, Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

Gia moved in today, and I can't keep my eyes off her. She beautiful. I want to kiss her, but she doesn't want the same, and I don't want to force anything. She kissed me to hide from her brother, but that's not the kind of kiss I want. I want to be with her, but there are so many things standing in our way. Helena, and all my friends. They just won't leave the fact that she blackmailed Em alone. They just haven't realized yet that she's past all that stuff. Oh well. What happens will happen.

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

My mother will never accept me for who I am. She wants me to go to Columbia, because I have 'So much potential you're just throwing away'. Why can't she understand that I don't want to go to Columbia, I don't want to become a lawyer, or a doctor. I want to be me. But she'll never accept that. Marcus understands, but he still thinks Columbia would be good for me. Liz, Lucky and the rest of the 'Brady Bunch' don't understand me, they hate me. The only one who understands me is Nikolas. He isn't telling me to go to Columbia. He isn't telling my to follow me mothers orders. He isn't kicking me out of the cottage and telling me to 'boot it'. He IS telling me to follow my heart and do what I want to do. He respects me. He understands me. He's the only person I have.

Love, Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

I don't know who Gia's mother thinks she is. Gia is her own person who deserves to make her own decisions without people hovering around her saying, 'Do this' or 'Do that'. All my other friends don't understand her. They don't even give her a chance. She's a whole lot more than what they see. But the Gia I see never leaves the cottage. The second she walks out that door, the brick wall goes up. But not here. Not when she's here with me. I told her to follow her heart. I just hope it doesn't lead her away from me.

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

WOW!!! Today has been a very eventful day. (Well only one event happened, but it's big enough to take the place of 20 events) Nik's Uncle Stefan came back today. Sure no big deal. But it is a big deal. He was supposedly dead. But Helena (Nik's psycho granny) kidnapped him and Chloe Morgan and held them on a island somewhere. I've never seen Nikolas so happy. I love it when he smiles like that. It's a smile of pure joy. And he looks so hot while doing it!!

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

Uncle Stefan came back today. I can't beleive it. I don't remember the last time I was this happy. I knew I missed him when I first found out he died. But all of the memories have just come rushing back, and I don't know how I ever managed without him. Wait, yes I do. Gia. Gia wasn't here when he first died, and I depended on Lucky and them for support, but lately, it's been Gia. I could kill Helena for what she did. But right now, I'm just happy to have Uncle back.

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

I can't beleive it. He faked his own death. Nik was so happy when his Uncle came back, but not anymore. He let Nikolas greive for him, and all the while he was on some island, watcing. I can't even describe what I felt when Nik cryed. I've never seen him cry before. I held him, and I know he needed it, because he held me right back...tight. Then......then he kissed me. It was wonderful. I've been waiting for that kiss for so long, and it finally happened. But I ruined it. I pulled away and then we agreed it was just a kiss and it wouldn't happen again. But god, I want it to happen again.

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

I am in a state of pure disbelief right now. I never thought Uncle was capable of doing something like this. He faked his own death, and kidnapped Chloe. Her health was at risk, she could've gone blind! But did Uncle care? NO!! It was all for that stupid, STUPID war between him and Helena. My Uncle is a sick man. I never though it would happen, but he is as sick as Helena. I cried today. I never do that, but I couldn't make it stop. The betrayal hurt. I hate the lies. The lies are what kill the relationship. Gia held me while I cried. The feel of her arms around me is a feel I never want to forget. I kissed her, but she pulled away and we agreed it wouldn't happen again. I don't want it to be like this. But until things get a bit more comfortable it has to be. But I won't give up Gia so easily. I want to be with her, and when the time is right I'll try. Maybe Valentines day... That's a while away, but hey, what better day to tell her I care?

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

Today I was offered a test shoot for the Face of Deception. I know it would've been mine, but Elizabeth Webber is the other candidate. It's not fair. Laura Spencer is the partner with Carly. I know Carly won't give up until I'm the FOD, but Laura holds 1% more than Carly does. And the worst part of all is the Liz is her son Lucky's girlfriend. That immidiately puts me back a few steps. Nik told me today that Carly only wanted me because she hates Liz, and that she's bad news. Gee, thanx Nik! Don't tell me I'm pretty, don't tell me I have a shot, just tell me that I'm only in it because Carly doesn't like the other runner up. God, he sure knows how to sweet talk a lady. I'll make him see. I'll make them all see that I can do this.

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

I know I should've told her that she can do it. And I beleive she can, it's just that I know what Carly will do to get her way, and I know that she asked Gia because she dispises Liz. I just don't want Gia getting hurt that's all. Can't she understand that?

Nikolas.

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Dear Diary,

Last night was the best night I've ever had. Yesterday was Valentines Day. I was doing something that I do really good. I was rambling. I was going on and on and on about how stupid V-Day was, and how it was only meant for stupid couples like Liz and Lucky, and then Nik stopped me from talking. Not many people can do that. Well that's probably because not many people have tryed to stop me the way Nik did. He grabbed me and he kissed me. The next thing I know we're on the floor (can you guess what we were doing?) It was the best night of my life! I just hope that's not the last time it'll happen.

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

Valentines Day was absolute heaven. Gia and I made love, and it was amazing. I've never met a girl like her before. She smart, funny, nice, and incredibly gorgeous. I'm falling for her and I know it. No one will ever let it be. My Uncle, and Helena, Liz and them. They'll never let us just be happy. Oh well, this is our life, and no one can control it but us.

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

I lost the FOD. I heard Laura telling Liz and Lucky that Liz won. It was at the Winterfest, and I overheard them talking. I ran back to the cottage and when Nik found me I was burning my photos. He was so good to me. He told me that I should've got the job and that Liz didn't deserve it. I was going to leave Port Charles and go back to Brooklyn. But it's been days since that fiasco and Nik found a way to make me stay :)

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

My mother was so unfair. Gia deserved the job, not Liz. But, oh well. That's all gone and forgotten. I want Gia. I want her more than just in the cottage. And I'm going to tell her. Today.

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

Nik and I are finally a couple! He told me today that he wanted me as more than just a private thing in the cottage, and I admitted my feelings too. Things are going so well and I'm not going to let anybody spoil them for us. Because I'm falling in love with Nik, and nothing can stop it.

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

I told Gia about my feelings today, and she told me hers. We're a couple now. Liz did a double take, but Lucky was happy for us. He's known from the beginning that there was more than just friendly feelings between us. He knew it before I did! But now that we're together, nothing is going to come between us. Because I'm falling in love with Gia, and nothing can stop it.

Nikolas

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"Wow." I say to myself, after reading the first few entries. "Interesting. Blackmail. Modelling. Fake deaths. Passionate holidays. But the next about 20 entrys are just dates they had. One interesting thing happened. Gia blackmailed Elizabeth for the FOD job. It didn't work, but she told Nik about it and he forgave her. Ohhh, here's something good......."

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Dear Diary,

Nikolas and I are getting married! I can't beleive how much I love him. More than I ever thought possible. This feeling is so amazing. I feel like I'm flying!! Liz and I have worked things out and her and Em are going to be bridesmaids in the wedding. My best friend Cheryl from Brooklyn is flying in and she's going to be my maid of honor. Just a year ago, Nik and I were just roommates, and now...now we're in love and getting married. Life is amazing. And I love every minute of it.

Love,
Gia (soon to be) Cassadine ?

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Dear Journal,

I proposed to Gia today. And she said yes. That one word, is the most beautiful word I've ever heard. That one word will fulfill my every dreams. I love Gia with all of my heart, and now we'll be married. Lucky is my best man. He knew from the start that we would end up together, and he never gave up on us. And he was right. I'm going to marry Gia, and nothing and no one is going to stop us from being happy.

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

It's been five months since Nik proposed. It's been hectic trying to get everything together, but we pulled it off. The actual wedding was another story. Helena and Nik's Uncle Stefan had the church set on fire. It's kinda obvious they didn't want us to be married. Then they had us followed on our honeymoon. Not just followed, but followed by a sniper! A SNIPER!!! That's just crazy. Of course Nik protected me and we managed to lose him and enjoy our honeymoon. But still. That's just ridiculous. But it doesn't matter because Nikolas and I are married. I love him and he loves me, and we're going to be together forever. I don't mind any of the stuff that happened at the wedding because Nik was beside me, and that's all I need. Now comes the part where I tell him I'm pregnant....

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

The wedding was crazy, but we made it through. We're married, and Gia just told me we're having a baby. My every dream is coming true. And I couldn't think of a better person to share it with than Gia.

Nikolas

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Dear Diary,

I'm sitting in the hospital room, holding my baby girl in my arms. She's the most beautiful baby I've ever seen. She has rosy cheeks and most beautiful brown eyes. She is an image of beauty, and I know she'll make a beautiful addition to our family. Nikolas is so happy. He can't stop playing with her little toes and fingers. Little Bailey is going to have a wonderful life.

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

Even after hours of labor, Gia is as beautiful as ever. And holding our baby girl, she looks like an angel. I think she is an angel. She was sent here for me. And our little girl Bailey, is just another precious gift that has been given to me. I will always cherish the two blessings that I have been handed. For they have given me the greatest gift of all. Love.

Nikolas

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I am at the last page in each of the books. Nikolas' journal, and Gia's diary. It's the last page that was written and probably the most heartfelt.

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Dear Diary,

Life sure is different now. Everything's changed. Everything but Nikolas. My baby girl has moved out and she's married with one daughter. Now our grand-daughter is getting married. My mother passed long ago, but I still feel the pain when I pass the Brownstone. It has been left up despite the protestations. Nikolas bought it out so I would always have something to remember her by. All of our friends are gone. But Nikolas and I are still here, we're still holding strong. I look up at him, sitting on the couch in front of the fire. He is holding me in his arms, and even though he isn't as strong as he once was, I still feel safe. He is just as handsome as when I first met him, those piercing brown eyes get me everytime. Although his hair is gray, and his bones weak, he is still young at heart, and I still love him more and more everyday. Because to my husband, Nikolas Cassadine, I have an eternal commitment.

Love,
Gia ?

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Dear Journal,

My mother has been gone for years, and yet it feels like she's still here beside me. I can feel her warmth, and her kindness. Lucky, Liz, Em and Zander have all moved away, but I can still hear their laughter. Our grand-daughter is getting married, and I know she'll love her fiancée the same way I loved mine. And I know she will always love him, the same way I still love mine.  Gia is here, I'm holding her delicate, fragile body in my arms. I know she's changed on the outside, but inside she's still the wonderful, kind, smart, funny, beautiful person I fell in love with years ago. Her braids are gone, and are now replaced with gray, but her eyes still dance, full of life and love.  And I love her more and more with each passing day. Because to my wife, Gia Cassadine, I have an endless devotion.

Nikolas

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I close the covers of both books, now with a new appreciation for the love I have. I now know that there are people out there who have had to overcome much more than I to be with the one they love. Blackmail. Modelling. Fake deaths. Passionate holidays. Fire. Snipers. Children. Friends. All of this has been surpassed by two people for the simple reward of being together. I am proud to call these two people my great-grandparents. I look out in front of me, I have been sitting in front of their gravestones. The two stones are linked by a set of hearts. On my great-gramma Gia's heart, it is engraved with the words, "Eternal Commitment". On my great-grampa Nikolas' heart, it is engraved with the words, "Endless Devotion."

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