I found a sense of belonging with sociality, but that didn't last long.
i also experienced slight normacy among teenagers with substance abuse, but this wasn't the point of 'using' just simply expriencing. jesus has always been my high.

september 10th, 2004 i experienced a horrific loss of my cat muffin. to this day its the most disturbing thing i'd ever had to go through. i can remember the feel of his bones beneath the flesh, and i keep in my heart the last night i saw him he was purring while i was petting him. he had liver disease and wasn't sick for a very long time. i prayed that god would take care of him, and when my mom went to go put him down, i started praying but already felt it was too late.

i've become a telephone/chatroom psychic, and an obscure/lackluster career title is definitely something i need in life. i'm not a crook, i'm just a counselor.

i'm currently persuing a sense of contentment with myself and dealing with personal feelings of self-loathing, and i feel by helping people i can redeem myself for being born as this.... person.