"The time is close. It is quite clear. Our Anti-Christ is almost here"

So.. today is New Years.. I had, such a shitty, shitty New Years eve.. Everyone sort of ditched out on me.. It turned into somewhat of a family night, and.. well.. fuck it.. At least I got to smoke with the Gorf.

I'm cold. The only thing I can feel inside of me..is.. the peas.. Heh.. wow.. damn.. -=lights up a roach=- I just want this year to be better than the last.. I'm guessing it will be.. I'll be up on my feet, saving money, getting ready to move. I still have to tour Nossi, and take care of all the financial aid shit, learn what applies to me.

I need music.. annnnnnd... great, Still is still in here. Oh well. Sadness time. -=cries everyone a fuck'n river=- Now jump in, and drown. "You always were the one, to show me how. Back then I couldn't do the things, that I can do now. This thing is slowly taking me apart. Gray would be the color, if I had a heart, come on tell me.. You make this all go away, you make this all go away, I'm down to just one thing, I'm starting to scare myself.. You make this all go away, you make it all go away..I just want something... I just want something I can never have.."

I wish my car didn't die so much.. It makes me frustrated. 30 minutes until my shows come on..

This year will be better. I start work in 5 days. I'm not sure how well the Baskin Robbins interview went, it was quick, and they said that they'd call Monday or Tuesday, if I got the job.. Something's telling me not to worry about that job anyways.. If I work there, then I'll have to go to work every day of the week.. and..I don't think that's such a good thing. But I need the money.. Oh well. I'm not worried about it.

I've got a lot of shit pent up inside me..it's coming to a head.. And today just isn't working my way. I woke up at 12, my mum saying that 'dinner' was ready.. I got sort of confused, I wasn't hungry, so I fell back asleep. And woke at 2. Had no dreams, didn't sleep until 7.. Sometimes I wonder why the hell I stay up that late..or early. I thought I was going to be sick last night right after midnight..so I lied down. But got right back up.

Annnnnd, here goes that fucking song. Feels like I'm listening to it for the first time.

I have no resolution. I have only regret. Happy fuck'n New Year everyone.. get used to writing 2003 on everything.