Fuck today. And fuck everyday. You can't even have a descent fucking conversation with someone you care about. You're not allowed to care about someone unless they're fucking sleeping with you, or unless you're dwelling over every one of their fucking moves..everything that they do, or vice verse.. I don't give a fuck if you read this or not, I'm sorry that I'm not allowed to love you unless I'm fucking you. And if you're not sleeping here, then I'm seeing someone else. What does it fucking matter? We're dead as it is. Everyone's fucking dead, and you fail to realize it. Sure, great, I love you and all.. but you're right, it must've been the alcohol talking..it must've been the fact that when I'm drunk I can't handle the fact that I'm alone, and no one's here to laugh with me, or cry with me for that matter.

So fuck today. I don't need you, you don't need me. We never deserved each other in the first fucking place..and I hope you crash and die on your way home.

On another note. I'm not sure if I'll ever be fucking happy. I'm not sure if there's ANYONE in this fucking world that can do that for me. Obviously, it isn't you..and maybe I NEED to see someone else, so you'll shut your fucking trap and stop complaining about me seeing other people. I forgot that I'm not allowed to do things anymore. And it just fucks you up that I DO other things..and that I'm finally allowed to fucking go somewhere..

Wait, I forgot.. if I go somewhere, that means I'm fucking someone, right? Or I'm seeing someone? Maybe? Fucking duh, I'm seeing people..it's the only thing to do to keep my mind off of your silly fucking ass. But I'm not allowed to have fun. Because if I'm with Eric, then I can't have any sort of fun at all. And Adam! Obviously me and you are dating! And fucking each other! (now is when you start to laugh)..I mean damn, we had our time. We're friends now, and you understand that, and I understand that.. But we're fucking, and dating, because I might go with you tomorrow night. I am STILL fucking laughing about that whole thing..

And Thomas! I obviously have some secret love that I just HAD to talk to tonight, and that's why he isn't staying.. So, you're my secret love! WHEEEEEEE!!!!! ME AND THOMAS ARE SECRET AOL LOVERS!! WHEEEE!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!!!!! Oh MY FUCKING GOD, THIS IS BULLSHIT.. Bull fucking shit.. but that's alright.. It's alright because I'm going to live through it, and I'm going to be happy in the future, and I'm going to look back on you and LAUGH because you were so fucking pathetic, to think such things..

Final words.. FUCK YOU.

Now's when I wish I would've taken Gavin up on that offer. But fuck it.

I'm going to go eat now. Even though there's nothing to eat, and I was really fucking GODDAMN hungry. At least you know you hurt one thing.. my stomach.