"Eternity In Hell"

At an early age I learned the truth,
that my life was truly cursed.
I had learned this lesson very well,
from my abusive Parents first.

I was my Father's favorite punching bag,
I was my Mothers sad mistake.
Their love for me was weak and cold,
at best their love was fake.

So I took what love that did remain,
and I turned it into hate.
No more pride, no more self esteem,
just a filthy reprobate.

A needle became my new best friend,
my God a rock of crack.
Johnny Walker was my new found love,
my heart was turning black.

Everyone I met would use me up,
then promptly spit me out.
My trust in man had reached an end,
my survival was in doubt.

I could not find a moments peace,
I was haunted in my sleep.
I was losing my mind with every breath,
with my demons running deep.

Then one day as I walked the streets,
I met this Christian man.
He approached me with this silly smile,
and a Bible in his hand.

"Do you know that Jesus loves you friend?
This man began to say.
"Yes this Jesus Christ, he died for you,
to wash your sins away".

"It doesn't matter what you've done in life,
he is faithful to forgive".
"If you pray to him, and accept him now,
he will show you how to live".

So I punched him in that silly smile,
and I cursed that Jesus freak.
I said, "God is dead you stupid fool,
to believe in God is weak".

I picked up his Bible from off the ground,
then I slammed it down again.
I did not need his sorry God,
or forgiveness for my sins.

Then later that night I found my drugs,
the friend I kept so close.
But my only friend had turned on me,
with a lethal overdose.

When I woke up I saw Him there,
he was standing all alone.
Then a voice cried out like thunder,
that the book of life be shown.

In an instant my mouth was open wide,
confessing him as Lord.
A reflex sent me to my knees,
my consciousness had soared.

His beauty no human could ever describe,
because no words exist.
His glory lit the heavenly skies,
like a radiant Holy mist.

As he opened up the book of life,
like a movie in my mind.
Every moment of my life appeared,
with no option to rewind.

Every hurtful word I had ever spoke,
every white and deceitful lie.
Every prideful look that crossed my face,
every lust that reached my eye.

I saw the drugs that had me bound,
all the hate that filled my soul.
The day that I cursed the only God,
and gave Satan full control.

There was no place for me to hide,
from my embarrassment and shame.
"Please forgive me Lord, I shouted out,
I have no one to blame"!

Then Jesus lifted up his hands,
and commanded me to rise.
"I'm just and fair", the Lord then said,
my judgment always wise".

"Though your life began with many hurts,
the fault was not your own".
"But the other choices that you made,
are the ones I can't condone".

"I sent many of my servants to you friend,
to tell you of my love".
"To guide you down salvations path,
and to my Father up above".

"But you rejected me at every turn,
you cursed my loving grace".
"So I'm sorry to say, that you just can't stay,
you now must leave this place".

"You were given every chance in life,
to change your wicked ways".
"But you chose to mock my precious gift,
as you wandered in your daze".

"My decision now can't be repealed,
it is final and complete".
"I love you but my laws are firm,
to the fate you now must meet".

"Even though I now sentence you to Hell,
it breaks my heart to see".
"A child of mine, being forever banned,
from eternity with me".

Then two Angels came and picked me up,
they flew and took me higher.
I begged and cried as they dropped me in,
a burning lake of fire.

So as my soul now burns in Hell,
I make this final plea.
Turn to God and accept his Son,
or you'll wind up here with me.

Written by..Timothy Jon Barrett
Date Written...March,24,2010